This chapter fraustrated me to no end. The majority of it was written in the middle of the night when i was running on no sleep. I'm sorry if it doesn't make sence to you, but I was assured that it was good and begged not to change it by a friend. So I left it alone.

Just advance warning this will probably be my last update for a while. I'm leaving for disney world tomorrow and as soon as i get back I'm off to soccer camp so i won't have alot of time to write over the next couple of weeks. i apologize it advance, now on with the story!

Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter... if you thought I did you probably shouldn't be reading this

Lily stared at down at her plate not really eating. She could feel the stares of two different boys on her and it to say it was making her uncomfortable was an understatement. She had spent most of dinner pushing food around her plate and trying to stay awake. Her habit of not sleeping was already catching up to her and she knew, from experience, that she was going to crash soon.

Even when she was little Lily had never slept much. She would stay up for days on end until she crashed. She wasn't sure when the habit started, or why for that matter, but Lily Potter knew she did not like to sleep. Part of it was the fact that sleeping was typically done at night. Unlike most people, Lily found a certain appeal to the darkness and the shadows. She loved the feeling of being awake while the rest of the world slept peacefully. Although it wasn't just that, Lily also found it difficult to sleep.

Maybe it hadn't always been that way. Maybe at one point in time she had been able to sleep peacefully at night. Maybe her inability to fall into sleep was simply caused by the patterns she had developed over the years.

But whatever the reasons, Lily didn't sleep. Not unless it was absolutely necessary. She had pretty much mastered her insomnia, although it sometimes got out of control. She kept to herself at night, roaming the corridors with help from one handy invisibility cloak she had often borrowed from James. James wasn't the only person who knew about Lily's 'problem' but he was the only one who could manage Lily when she became horridly cranky or started seeing things.

Lily would never admit it to anyone, but she was terribly frightened for her first year at Hogwarts without James. True, she had been without him before, but that was different. She had been with her parents, and now she was alone. James had always been the one that forced her to sleep when she didn't want to. But without him around to save her Lily was afraid she was finally going to break.

Lily stifled another yawn and rubbed her forehead trying to stop her head from aching. She needed sleep, and she knew it. The first week back at Hogwarts hadn't been an easy one and she wanted nothing more than to collapse into her bed. Unfortunately her mind was much too full to allow that to happen, as it had been the entire week.

She had tried to sleep, she really had, but she rarely succeeded. Before she had left James had made her promise she would at least try to sleep, so she did. But after years, and years of pushing her mind to the breaking point, sleep just wouldn't come.

Lily's train of thought was broken as her eyes met Josh Zambini's. Earlier that week she had told Josh there early morning snog session had been a one-time thing. Ever since then she often felt him watching her. But with so many other things running through her mind she often managed to forget about it until it emerged from the depths of her mind just as she was falling asleep.

Maybe one of the reasons Lily could never fall asleep unless she was desperately tired was that she thought too much. Thoughts seemed to dance around her head bursting to get out. They ran around in circles and distracted her from anything and everything, sleep included.

Ignoring her worried friends Lily rose from the table and exited the great hall. It was all too much. Everything, all of it. Her mind was threatening to collapse under the pressure of it all. This was one of the few times Lily begged for sleep. Her mind was overworked and exhausted. The combination of stress and lack of sleep was wearing down on her. Her euphoria was fading.

Days like these, the days when Lily longed to escape reality, were the days Lily wished she was different. Lily wasn't insecure, not one little bit, but she did find herself wishing she could be more normal. She wished she could sleep.

A sad smile found her lips as she slumped against a wall somewhere in the school. She noted without much interest that she was in the same corridor in which she and Scorpius had had their (almost) snog session earlier in the day.

It didn't seem to cross her mind that Scorpius would look for her here, but it crossed his mind. He couldn't help but notice when Lily left dinner early so he left not long after in search of her. His feet seem to carry him subconsciously towards the hallway she occupied and he wasn't surprised to see her sitting there. Her back was against the wall and her eyes were closed.

"Hey" Scorpius said quietly causing Lily to jump and open her eyes. It was then that Scorpius noticed the large bags under Lily's eyes that had not been there the last time he saw her.

"Shit!" Lily cursed and waved her wand around her face muttering a spell. The evidence of her sleepless nights vanished from her face instantly. Scorpius sat beside Lily and put his arm around her.

"What was that?" Scorpius asked her. It had obviously been spell, but he wasn't sure why or what she had used it for.

"What was what?" Lily asked, looking everywhere but at him. Scorpius sighed when he realized he wasn't going to get anything out of her.

"Never mind," he told her as her head fell onto his shoulder. Her mood seemed to have decreased dramatically over the course of dinner. "What's wrong, love?" Scorpius asked her a worried look on his face.

"I got a letter from my dad." Lily told him playing with her hands.

"At dinner?" Scorpius said, mildly curious. Normal parents just sent mail at breakfast, but then again why would Harry Potter be a normal parent? Scorpius was so busy thinking about what kinda of a father Harry Potter would be he almost didn't see Lily shake her head.

"Right before," Lily told him as she tried to hide her face from him.

"Well what did he say?" Scorpius inquired wondering what had gotten her so upset. He waited patiently as lily took a couple shaky breaths.

"There was a breakout from Azkaban," Lily began She didn't notice Scorpius tense up beside her or his lack of surprise from her rather shocking statement. "A couple of Death Eaters, He didn't say which ones." Lily spoke in a monotone and kept her gaze fixed on the opposite wall. Her face showed none of the emotions she was feeling. "My dad said—he said—"Lily's voice broke and she buried her face is Scorpius's chest, her body shaking- but not from tears.

Scorpius wrapped his arms around her and held her tight. He didn't let go even after she started to speak again.

"He said that they have reasons to believe that the Death Eaters are coming after me and Albus." Lily finished. Her voice was rushed and dripping in the fear she felt.

So much for Gryffindor bravery she thought.

Scorpius stared down at the girl in his arms, surprised by the immense amount of affection he felt for her.

"Don't worry Lily," Scorpius whispered into her hair. "I won't let anyone hurt you."

He just wished he didn't have to lie.

So how did you guys like it? I'm actually rather happy with the end result and I hope you guys are too. Please review and let me know:)

~Kayla