I woke up in Paul's arms and it felt nice to wake up to someone's arms. Before I came here I actually never wanted any boyfriend again. I still liked guys but I just couldn't put up with them. Remember when I said I liked a guy who looked like Pauly D from Jersey shore? Well I seem to have a huge crush on only one boy each year, all different guys because I was always rejected because they didn't know me. I wasn't ugly hell I was even called hot by a girl! Anyways, his friends said that he doesn't date any girls.
That he just wants sex, no relationships. I accepted that. I didn't talk to him and I wasn't going to because I turn red and I didn't want him to think I was an idiot. So you can imagine my reaction when he started hanging out, texting, and flirting with the girl I despise. I lived a movie really. That afternoon after I had everything figured out, yeah I was heartbroken. I felt goose bumps all over myself and I felt cold and lonely. But I couldn't sit home and cry because I had to work.
So yeah, he is the only guy I have ever liked that, well when I used to have him in my dreams, when we touched I felt sparks. He actually held each other in a hug in my dreams for what felt like forever and there I felt the sparks. It's crazy and I want to tell him you belong with me but I can't because he's gone. Not dead, just with her.
So why do I have the feeling that what I feel for Paul is ten times for Jacob? It isn't enough that I am only staying for a few more weeks? But when I looked into Jake's eyes I saw the love in there, the strongest emotion overall. With Paul it could have been only lust but I also saw love from time to time. I removed Paul's arms from around my waist and went to the bathroom. Looking in the mirror I realized what a mess I was! My hair was tangled all over the place and I didn't have any foundation on which was bad for me. I could never leave the house without it.
Sighing I looked around Paul's bathroom and found the best comb there was. He had told me that his mom would be out this week which was perfect because I would die of embarrassment if she saw me like this. After looking the best I could possibly can I went over to his kitchen and looked in the fridge. Paul would eat about anything so I took out a pack of bacon, eggs, potatoes, and toast. I've been forgetting to but I have been meaning to talk to Paul about these dreams about lately.
As if on cue, Paul's arms wrapped around my waist as I was cooking the potatoes. "Mmmmmm…..smells delicious, "he said.
"I know right. It's a shame. What are you going to eat Paul, because I only cook for myself?" I wanted to play with Paul because Jared had once told me that Paul was very possessive when it came to his food, but I didn't see that now. He was not shaking but what he did made me feel a thousand times worse.
He got on the floor, put his face in his hands and started crying. Me being the nice person I was immediately went over to him and offered him the food. He didn't think twice and he got up. He wasn't even crying!
Point one for Paul.
"Hey you tricked me!" I yelled.
"Does that make you mad? Huh Luna? What are you going to do about it?" If I wasn't four eleven I would have had his face covered in blood. Haha, just kidding. I'm not that bad. You ever hear what goes around comes around? Except I was a better actress than Paul.
"That's okay Paul" I said with the best puppy dog face I could make. "I'll just be going then…" I was walking over to the door.
One, two, thr-
"Wait Luna. Don't go."
"Paul I want to eat plus I look like a mess. I need to get home."
"Baby fine. One, I'll share my food," whoa! Did Paul the possessive food hogger just offer his food to me? He must really like me. I smiled to myself. "Second you look beautiful but you do look tired."
"Thanks Paul" I said as I kissed him on the cheek and went over to get some food for myself. After getting my food, Paul took the remainder which was a lot. I watched as he ate-no INHALED the food. I would have been disgusted if I was a fancy girl but really I wasn't.
"Hungry there Paul?" I asked him.
He was eating five pieces of bacon when he answered. "Yeah, and the food is delicious Luna. I should have you for my wife." If I hadn't met Jake I wouldn't have felt bad. Speaking of that….
"Paul have you ever been punched by a girl?" That was vague enough.
"Random question there…but yeah. She was a total bitch anyways."
"Was it Bella?"
"Yeah….Luna how do you know? You weren't there."
I sighed. "Lately Paul I have been having weird dreams. It scares me because before he came back I've been having dreams about Jacob. The only dream you were in was when she punch you. Then I woke up. There was one dream about him begging Bella to stay, another one of him telling her to go away, and just last night he was talking about imprinting to Bella."
"Why do you dream about Jacob?" He was shaking badly and I was beyond scared right now. So I did what a smart thing: run. I guess I wasn't as smart as I thought I was because I barely remembered that I got to Paul's house by running through the woods. Sighing I went running back home and I feared that Paul would do something to Jake.