Nikki Flores-run back to me
3 weeks later
The day I was dreading came and if I could pull off a Romeo and Juliet I would, for Jake. I wasn't some emo suicidal girl but I grew to love Jake more and more ever since that one day that we told each other that we will soon meet again one day. We spent every day with each other. I watched as he fixed his car in his garage, I've gotten to know Billy even better (he had the biggest smile on his face when we had dinner together but it was wiped away when Jake told him about me leaving), Emily became a sister to me as well as Leah, I've met Rachel and I couldn't be any happier for Paul, and the pack and I have become as close as ever, like we were a big ol' family. Last night Jake had slept with me….not like that, just holding me close. I had my head rested on his chest, just listening to his heartbeat, soon it became a harmonious melody lullaby to my mind and I fell asleep. I was to be at the airport but noon the next morning and I kept wishing that my mom would call again and say never mind but things like that never happen. It was just me and Jacob saying our goodbyes tomorrow. I said goodbye to the pack and Billy yesterday.
I woke up the next morning with tears. I saw that Jake was just watching me-concern written all over his face and I had to say it right now.
"Jake, I'm sorry. If I had the choice I would stay here- with you. The day I come back I promise I will be waiting for you. No one can replace you. I love you." It sounded right and the timing was perfect in my opinion. He looked shocked when I told him that I love him but hey, I had to say it and today was my last day here for a while.
"I love you too Luna. I'll be here, right here waiting for you."
I leaned up to give him a kiss and it was what I wanted it to be. His lips were warm and he started the kiss passionately. My arms wrapped around the back of his neck and I pulled him closer to me. He growled and I wasn't going to lie-it was a turn on. I only had an hour to be at the airport which meant I had to be going like now. I got off of Jake and walked over to my luggage and picked them up to put them into the car.
I would have…. but Jake picked up all three of my luggages as if they weighed nothing and he placed them in the car. He wasn't coming with me to the airport. He said he might have a mental breakdown and he again didn't want me to feel obligated that I had to stay here because of him. I locked up my doors to my house and turned to see him staring blankly at the car door. Would he be okay without me? I promised to come back as soon as possible. I hoped that I don't turn him into a Bella: when her boyfriend left her. He didn't deserve that.
He opened my door but I closed it and wrapped my arms around his torso, wishing I could stay her forever. He hugged me back but he pushed me back with little force-mainly because I didn't want to let him go. He pressed his lips onto mine and I noticed that it began to rain and hard. It was my first kiss in the rain and with Jake. When we pulled away we said it at the same time….I love you.
"I promise Jake, I'll be back for you. We'll call or text every day. Don't become like Bella when the leech ditched her, I won't leave you. I'll come back." I cupped his face and kissed his lips one last time.
"Come on Jake, say something."
He took a shaky sigh before he looked in my eyes. "I just want you to know that I love you Luna, a lot. Please don't find another guy. I just can't…..I wouldn't be able to….I just don't want you to go." He was crying and he was trying his best not to. He didn't want me to see by the way he looked at everything but me.
"Look at me Jacob."
He did and I saw it-the pain, the sadness, the love, and the hurt.
"Luna, don't look at me. Just go, you'll be late. I love you." He kissed me quickly before going into the woods and that's when I heard it-the heartbroken howl.
I got into my car and floored it. I kept on thinking about Jake so I turned on the radio to find something to sing along to.
Shakira-did it again
Flyleaf-Set apart this dream
Flyleaf-the kind (lyrics)
Mariah Carey-I stay in Love (lyrics)
The whole time I was passing by Forks I heard the howls and each one hurt me and the songs hurt me too, the lyrics all talking about love, except for the second one. I didn't want to leave and I was a determined person so I was coming back. I was going to stay here soon for the rest of my life no matter what I had to do. I would do anything-for Jake.
I had all of my stuff put away and got onto the plane. I went to my seat and I was happy that I got a window seat again. This time I also noticed that I didn't have anyone sitting next to me for the ride back. I sighed and I promised I wouldn't cry yet. I would soon, just not now. I put my headphones in my eyes and pressed play on my phone.
Lifehouse-you and me
I closed my eyes and rested my head back. I thought about Jake-our kisses, his heartbeat, his smile, his eyes, our future. How did I get so lucky? I didn't deserve him.
The song wasn't really helping me out but I didn't have the strength to change it. The plane soon took off and I opened my eyes to look out-to see my home disappear before me; the place I hated to leave. I was thankful that the song had finally finished. I leaned back once again and waited for the next song to play….boy did I regret which one came on.
Bruno Mars-It will rain
I got tired of all of the love and searched my music for songs that didn't have any sadness in them.
Paramore-monster
Bruno Mars/Eminem-Lighters
I fell asleep but I could still vaguely hear the music that played.
Leona Lewis-twilight
Eminem-beautiful
Hollywood Undead-coming back down
Ke$ha-dancing with tears in my eyes
Lady Gaga-monster
Lifehouse-falling in
Lifehouse-hanging by a moment
Skylar grey-invisible
Taylor Swift-sparks fly
Arcade fire-Abraham's daughter
Taylor Swift-safe and sound
Maroon 5-come away to the water
Taylor swift-eyes open
Muse-starlight
Puddle of mudd-keep it together
Sally Anthony-so long
Seether-rise above this
Selena-I will survive
Shakira-pure intuition
Shinedown-if you only knew
Christina Perri-A thousand years
Simple plan-jet lag
Taylor swift-come in with the rain
Phil Stacey-you're not shaken
Jason Derulo-breathing
(A/N: I suggest that you guys find these songs and listen to them. They're all great!)
The plane landed and I didn't want to stay at all. I made a promise to Jake that I would come back and I was going to follow through on it. I got off and found my entire luggage. They were heavier than what Jake made them out to be and I was struggling. I guess I was making a scene with my luggage because a guy with light brown skin and dark brown eyes came over to me and picked them all up.
"Names Lain" He wasn't a Jacob that was for sure. Jake was like a god while Lain was above average in looks; I couldn't see any other guy worth being with anymore.
"Are you going to be helping me out Lain?
"If you'd like." He was also not scrawny but he wasn't like John Cena either, just enough muscle to get the job done.
"Sure." We walked over to my car and he placed them in the trunk. I closed it when all was in and I turned to face him.
"Thanks Lain, that was nice of you."
"No problem." He flashed me a smile and when I saw that he wasn't moving I knew I shouldn't have even let him come near me.
"May I help you?"
"Come on, I helped you out. Maybe you can say yes to a dinner or a movie…."
"Maybe I can but I won't. I have a boyfriend who I love very much. Now if you don't mind move the fuck away from my car."
Maybe it was because we were in a crowded place- this was Florida after all but people started to walk by and yes I had screamed out that last line but he did what he was told. I didn't care if I looked like a crazy person; I'm now a million miles away from the person I love.
I shook my head and got into my car. I kept the radio off the entire time. I didn't want any distractions.
1 ½ hours later
I pulled up to the driveway and turned off the engine. I didn't do anything. I didn't move; I just sat there and stared at the place that would bring me bad memories. My family wasn't as bad, I was just still mad that my mom didn't let me stay. When staring became too much I got out of the car and took out my luggage and took them inside.
Apparently no one was home so I was able to unpack in silence. It was nice. I put my toothbrush back as well as my comb, lotions…..you get the point. I opened the biggest luggage I had which held my clothes and felt a warm tear go down my cheek. The first shirt I saw was a forest green t-shirt. The one Jake wore when we had promised we wouldn't let go. I didn't even know I had it. Maybe he had put it in when I wasn't looking or busy doing something else.