I put it to my nose and smelled it-all Jake. I would wear it when I sleep tonight. Now everything Jake related had to be put to the back of my mind. After everything was put away it was now 6 in the afternoon. Where could they be? Pulling out my phone I saw I had 27 text messages and 7 missed calls. Jake called like….well he was all the seven missed calls. I felt guilty. I would call him after I ask my mom where she was at.

I pressed in her number and waited for her to answer.

"Hello?"

"Where are you?" I asked.

"Ahhh….calm down. I'm here at Maria's house." Maria was his cousin. I never went with them anywhere if he was in the car. She had a total obsession with him: like Bella to Edward, it was sick.

"I'll be there soon…"

"No, no, no, no…..take your time. I don't need you here right now. I'm just going to go to sleep right now. I'm tired."

"Okay, are you at the house?"

"Yeah." Where else? I thought to myself.

"Okay, bye."

I ended the call and immediately looked for Jake's number. I called and whoever was on the other side picked up after the second ring.

"Hello?" The voice sounded groggy and depressed.

"Jake?"

"Luna!" he sounded better but not quite like his old self.

"Jake you promised that you wouldn't be sad."

"I'm not….."

"Liar, I see right through your lies."

He chuckled and I smiled. Silence was soon taking over and I had to interrupt.

"Jake?"

"Yeah?"

"I miss you, a lot. I wish I could have you here with me. I promised that I would come back, hopefully sooner rather than later."

"Luna, I miss you too, but you belong with your family…"

"Not having you here with me hurts me Jake…" my voice cracked and I sobbed silently. Wow, I really was a mess. I don't do this at all.

"Luna, don't cry. I promise I'll be more…..myself. Just don't worry about me."

"Please Jake, don't lose yourself. I don't want to feel like it's my fault that you're like that. Think of the pack, your dad, just please do it for me."

"I promise Luna. I love you."

"I love you too."

And the call was ended. I never believed in true love. I would say that over and over months ago but now I do. I would complain every time my mom or sister cried for a guy, I was disgusted with the type of guys they preferred. Ones that would drink and cheat, what did they do? Follow them around like love sick puppies. Now karma has bit me and it sucks how deep in love I am with this boy. Only the difference is that I know that we will be with each other. Forever and always.

I changed into my pajamas which was just Jake's green T-shirt and some black shorts and pulled the coves over me. I smelled Jake all over me and I cried. I wouldn't cry on the plane but now was the time. My pillow became a pool with all of my tears. I cried for Jake, his pain, my pain, my life, what was to come, what past, and what my decisions would be.

1o months later

I did everything that was expected of me for the past ten months. I would clean, cook when I was hungry, take care of my two little sisters, got straight A's in school, and did everything my mom told me to do. I was a complete zombie. I no longer had anything. My face was pale, the lack in color because I no longer did anything I wanted to do. My smile was gone. I didn't go out with friends like I used to. I saw guys look at me everywhere I went but without Jacob…..things were different.

My mom must have finally caught on because today as I was typing up a final for my history class I heard her knock on my door.

"Luna? Can you open up?"

I always locked my door because it was a habit. I got up and opened the door. I let her in and she stepped in, taking in the surroundings. She turned to face me.

"Why are you like this?"

"Like what?" I asked. Yeah, I was playing dumb.

"You don't go out, you do whatever I ask, and you're not asking for anything anymore. You don't smile anymore and you're not complaining. What happened? What happened while you were away?"

I had to say it so she would understand.

"I grew up and when I saw and met the people in Forks and La Push I…..I felt like I belonged. The day you wanted me to come back, I just couldn't. I didn't want to leave."

"Is it because of a boy?"

It was quiet. I wasn't going to deny anything. She wanted the truth well she was about to hear it.

"Yes, ma. It's because of a boy. I know that he's the one. I don't look at another guy like I look at him. He's…different. I'm…..my heart is broken because I can't be with him."

She nodded her head. "I told you."

"What?"

"I told you." She repeated. "You once told me that no boy was going to bring you down like he had to me. I knew it."

"Ma, this is different. He doesn't hurt my heart. He's like my second half. I know that we will be together forever and always."

Her eyes started to water.

"I just don't want you to leave."

"Ma, you knew that I was going to have to leave one day or another. Did you expect me to live here for the rest of my life?"

"No...I just didn't expect it to be so soon. I remember when you were a baby, now look at you. All grown up….I understand. I just don't want to accept it."

"Oh Ma." I went over and pulled her into a hug. She was shorter than me which said a lot, remember I was 4'11? Yeah I have, like an inch or two on her so basically I feel like I'm the adult.

"I'll always be your little girl, but you have two more here…does that mean you'll let me go back?"

She thought about this for a second.

"Do you really want that?"

I nodded. "I know what I'm doing."

"Okay. When this school year ends then you'll stay for the summer there again and go your senior year to their high school. Just tell me which one and we'll send your stuff there."

"Oh my gosh ma! I love you so much! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!"

"And about this boy…make sure you're…safe."

She wasn't talking about what I thought she was talking about, was she?

"Ma, no don't…just stop. I know everything there is to know about….that. I'm still a virgin but I know what there is to know about that."

"Okay, I wouldn't want you to come back knocked up and fatherless. Just do what you think is right. You're a smart girl." She got up and walked over to the door.

"Thanks ma."

She nodded and closed the door. I was still in shock that she let me go back. After finishing my homework I went and called Jake but he didn't pick up. Weird, he always did. I wasn't going to worry just yet, maybe he was just busy.

I only had one week of school left and I was going to make it count. Do you know that feeling you get when you hold a pencil and try to write on the first day of school after coming back from summer break? Yeah, that's how my face felt like. It was Sunday and I was learning how to smile all over again, yeah I was weird.

I was ready for Monday and I finally learned that smile. My color came back to face and I felt alive once again. I was going to be the best I can be.

I always picked out my clothes the night before school and I was now choosing out a long sleeve grey shirt, with some dark grey short shorts and my white Jordan shoes. At 10:32 I was ready to go to sleep but before I did I checked my phone to see if Jake had called back: he didn't. I was a little worried but not too much since he was probably still busy.