And another secret is out. Because I really think it's important to deal with this one too.

my first attempt to write some smut. No so good, because I tried to keep it sweet. I'm a romantic, after all :p

Castle was sitting on his desk, trying to write. Alexis and Mother had already gone to bed, and he was missing Kate more than anything. They had agreed it was best for him to go home with Alexis after what happened at the Old Haunt, and he did spend some good ours with his daughter, watching Back to The future again. But now, the light dim and the sound of the night coming from the window, he just wish he could be with Kate.

He stood up and turned the flat screen that stood behind his desk. Then he typed something on the computer and his electronic murder board showed up. A big picture of Kate, his Kate in the middle, and all the information he had gathered of her mother's murder around. The mysterious calls from Mr. Smith in details, and the things he had picked from the file. He touched the screen and brought forward one of the detailed descriptions of the calls.

"If she goes after them, they'll kill her. And they will make sure she stay dead"

He remembered each and every call from that mysterious man who claimed to have possession of all Montgomery had on the case, and wanted only to help. But he hadn't told anything concrete, just warnings of how dangerous it was, and how he should keep Kate away from it.

A knock on the door called his attention from the screen, and he went to get it, only closing the door to his office on the way.

He looked through the peep hole and grinned as he saw Kate there, wearing a long coat, probably over her nightgown. She couldn't sleep without him, either.

She smiled when he opened the door, and leaned to give him a kiss.

"are they here?"

"No, they are already sleeping. Come in!" he said, and she threw her arms around his neck, holding him on a long kiss. He held her waist gently and pulled her in, closing the door. She then pulled away and opened her coat, revealing she was wearing an old t-shirt with a picture of Mario the plumber on it. It was long, but covered only her torso, leaving her legs bare. She took off the coat and threw it on the couch.

"So, is that sexy-gamer enough for you, Mr. Castle"

"Oh my God, I don't believe it!" he laughed. "You were jealous!"

"Of course! You should've seen the look on your face when she walked in. The look on everyone's face. It was terrible! And just because she was a sexy lady who played video games. That I am too!"

"Sure you are, sweetie." And he leaned to kiss her, still laughing. She pulled away from him.

"Do you doubt?"

"No! Of course not!"

"Turn on the playstation, Castle, now!" she ordered, and he ran to the tv.

"What game?" he asked, excited, handing her one controller.

"Losers choice. So you can choose it" She said, and he grinned at her provocation.

They spent most of the night playing games and Kate won most times in most games. The last one was a war game and when she killed him for the 10th time, she got up and made a funny victory dance while he whined and turned off the console.

"Meh. I let you in"

"No you didn't, and we both know it! Loser!" she said, poking him while still victory dancing. He got up and went to the kitchen. "I'm gonna prepare some sandwiches. Would you like one?"

"Yeah!" she said, sitting back on the couch and rubbing her stomach, feeling hungry.

While he was preparing the sandwiches, she noticed there was a hole at the bottom of her t-shirt, ripping almost half of it. She tried to rip the bottom out, but she couldn't.

"Hey, Rick. Have you got a pair of scissors?"

"Yeah. In my study." He said, distracted. He only noticed his mistake when she was already halfway to the study. He ran to her, but she opened the door and just stood there, stunned after seeing his murder board, her face looking back at her. All she had on her mother's murder was right there in front of her, organized on a murder board that looked pretty much like the one she had improvised on her window, except that this was a tv screen.

"What's that?" she gasped, when he reached her and held her arms from behind. "What that, castle?" She waved his arms away and turned to face him. Her voice was higher. "Castle, what the hell?"

"Shh, you're going to wake them." He pushed her towards the study, and closed the door. She went to the screen and looked at it closer, her hand covering her mouth in awe at that discovery.

"Kate, I can explain?"

"Yeah? She turned to face him, her face a mixture of anger and sadness, covered in tears. "try me!"

"After you were shot, I just couldn't stop! I thought you were going to die, Kate, and I didn't want this to die with you."

"Oh, so you were being thoughtful? That's adorable, Castle!"

"And when you woke up, and what you told me by the swings, about her murder building a wall on you. I had to do something to help break that wall, Kate. I love you!"

"You lied to me! You kept this from me! Why, Rick?" her voice was weak with the crying, and she then just covered her mouth again with her hands.

"You don't understand, Kate. This is dangerous! It got Montgomery killed, they shot you!"

"What else do you know?" she asked.

"Kate…"

"Tell me!"

He sighed, knowing that he couldn't keep it from her anymore. She was still behind the desk, as if she was trying to keep away from him.

"Montgomery sent all he had to a man."

"Who?"

"He calls me sometimes, and…"

"Who?" she screamed.

"I don't know his name. He calls himself Mr. Smith. He's trying to help, Kate. He told me to keep you away, or else they would kill you."

"Who would kill me?"

"I don't know yet. But you have to promise me to stay away from it."

"How can I be away from it, Castle? All my life I thought my mother had been killed because she was trying to help the wrong people, but now I know it was so much bigger than this. I have to know, Rick! How could you!"

"What do you mean, How could I?" he was now also angry with her. "How can you tell me this? I saw them kill you, Kate. And I know they'll try again. But not if you stay away. They only want you to stay away, and I'll make sure of it"

"No you won't!" she screamed louder. "Don't you dare!"

"Yes, I will, because I won't lose you again, Kate. You may hate me from now on, never see me again, but I won't let them kill you!"

He went around the desk towards her and grabbed her shoulders before she could get away. She was sobbing, weak on his arms. He tried to hug her, but she fought back, and slapped him on the face. He just tried to hold her again, fighting her struggles.

"I don't care what it costs me, Kate. Even if this costs me you, I won't let you walk into your death."

"God, Rick!" she said, her face on his chest, her tears wetting his t-shirt. He held her close and kissed her head, shushing her.

She screamed again on his chest, unable to stop crying, struggling to come out of his embrace again, be he was stronger than her.

"Dammit, Rick! You can't! I have to!"

"No, you don't. Kate, your life is more important now. This is what she would´ve wanted!"

She moaned at the mention of her mother's wishes coming from him, but then just put her arms around him. She put her ear on his chest, and stood there, listening to the beat of his heart.

"I love you, Kate. I love you so much!" he said, crying at the thought of losing her because of this.

"I love you too." She said, her voice muffled by his –tshirt. She pulled away from him and faced his eyes. They stood like this for a few seconds, and then she gently kissed him. The kiss gradually grew and her mouth was now feasting on him, they tongues dancing in their mouths. She pulled him closer and sat on the desk, accommodating him between her legs and pulling him towards her and she lay on the desk. He put his hand on the back of her head as a pillow when she touched the wood, and then went for her neck, kissing and sucking gently the soft skin. His hands then reached the bottom of her t-shirt, pulling it up to reveal her bare torso, and she put her arms up to help him take it off. He threw the Mario t-shirt far away and took one of her breasts in his mouth, kissing and nipping her hard nipple, making her groan. He then went down and kissed her belly, putting his hands on both sides of her hips, the thumbs under the elastic of her panties. Then he grabbed it with both hands and pulled them out of her. He stopped to admire his beautiful woman naked, and then took off his clothes as well. She stood up and helped him, opening his pants and sliding them down, then put her hands on his sides to pull him towards her, helping them fit.

As he slid into her, she grabbed his neck and pulled it to her, grabbing his mouth eagerly. His hands were on her hips, moving her slowly as he thrust himself into her on a rhythmic pace, going faster and faster as they both felt they were about to come.

She held him close as she reached the orgasm, lacing her fingers in his hair and pulling them slightly as she came. He moaned and screamed her name on her ear, reaching it at the same time she did, and they stood in that position, holding each other tight as they slowly caught their breaths. He could feel her sweaty bosom go up and down as she took deep breaths, feeling her warm breath on his ear. That was turning him on again, and he turned to face her. Her eyes were still teary, but now also showed lust and love. He kissed her on the lips and then asked.

"Do you forgive me?"

"I love you, Rick" that was all she said, and it was enough for now. He pulled her up from the desk, holding her up while walking towards his bedroom. She held him tight while he carried her and started nipping his earlobe, what made him walk faster.