Chapter 5
"What do you think about life?" Antonio asks me this morning on the roof.
Since Antonio gave me his number that previous night I went out with Feli, we have become really good friends, surprisingly. I've even been noticing some certain things about him as well, like how he always fakes a smile. When we first met, I couldn't really tell, but now I see the pain and anger he is trying to conceal. His face shows so much innocence. So much. But his eyes show that he has been through tough shit. Shit that he doesn't want to remember but keeps slipping into his mind anyway.
"What do you mean by that bastard?" I ask, even though I knew exactly what he meant. My opinions, basically if I want to keep living.
"I meant exactly what I said" Antonio smiles.
"I guess it depends on the day. Some days can be perfectly great. Not the forced great, but the real great that hides inside you. The great that you feel when it looks like life is finally back on track. But then there is the days when everything feels wrong and out of place, when everything seems to be your fault, when you fuck up everything decent that has ever came your way. I mainly have the days where everything is wrong, like life isn't worth it anymore. Hell, I never shared this much with someone before. The last time was..." I trail off.
"You don't have to tell me. But I'll tell you what I think of life."
"Okay" I nod
"I never talk about this. Not to anyone. Maybe that's because I have no one to talk to but I mainly keep to myself. Cause no one cares right?" he says but my mind screams, I care. I care so fucking much you don't even know. But obviously you wont believe me. Let me in, Antonio.
"It depends," I cut in, "You have to find the right person. Someone who will listen to you, and give good advice. Um.. Y-You could always talk to me... I-I might not give good feedback cause lets face it, I'm an asshole. But.. I will l-listen."
I see an overshadow of tears in Antonio's eyes but don't point it out.
"Thank you" he whispers.
I don't know what to say back, so I awkwardly give him a hug. He looks at me in surprise.
"Maybe," I suggest, "We can help each other"
A/N- sorry this chapter is a bit rushed and short. I hope you guys like this story. I'll update again later if I can. the reason for this author's note is that I might not be able to update a lot next week. school and shit. so I apologize for that. I'll still continue to update when I get time :) ciao.