authors note- ahhhh hey guys! I wanted to let you all know that, after this chapter, there will be only ONE more chapter! I know, crazy right? I'm not sure if I should make a sequel, but once I post chapter 20 then you guys can decide! Now, here's chapter 19! :D
Chapter 19
We kissed. We kissed. On the way home I still felt the electricity flowing through my veins, and spreading throughout my body. But, what were we now? Friends? Boyfriends? I shudder at the thought, but it does seem somewhat... exciting. That gets me thinking. Antonio would be a hell of a good boyfriend. Why would Antonio want me? I'm really not that special. I'm not as good looking as my brother, I've got a grumpy ass attitude, and I'm pretty much the master at handling things completely wrong. Something inside me, at that moment, told me that I would do this right.
And it was the first positive thing that my mind had said to me.
Nonna and I laugh as we stand in front of the kitchen counter. We are making cookies.
"Dio mio, we've made a mess haven't we?" Nonna chuckles.
"Si! but it was fun!"
Nonna pats my head happily and we continue to talk about the cookies.
A good flashback? That never happened before. Could this mean that things are getting better? I walk into my house with a huge smile on my face. And it was genuine. Feliciano and Ludwig looked up from the TV and at me.
"Ciao" I said in a rather cheerful voice.
"Ve~, Ciao Lovi!" Feli says and walks over to me. "Did you have fun with Antonio?"
I just nodded my head in agreement because words couldn't describe the happiness that I felt.
I remember when words couldn't explain the sadness that I felt. And I was stuck relying on pills to make me feel better. But now it's different. I found a new way to cope with things. I just hope that Antonio finds a way too.
I tell Feli about the good flashback. He said that it was a sign that I am getting better, and actually getting over it. Everything is starting to take a turn for the best.
And it's all because of that bastard.