Oh. My. God. It was a while since I updated this story and I'm deeply sorry for that! I just got so damn tired of it, had no good ideas up for the future so I put it off for a while, and to be honest I didn't have any intention to continue on it. But miracles happen, and here we are now, with chapter 14! Yay!

I hope you aren't too mad at me, and I promise I will update more now, because the awesomest ideas have finally appeared at my doorstep! ;D
Don't give up on me, and certainly, don't give up on this story! It will turn out good, I promise!

But now I'm going to stop babbling, here you get chapter 14!

Happy reading!

Chapter 14. The good bye

"Come in", professor Dumbledore commanded me as he opened the door. I walked into the middle of the office and then turned around to watch Dumbledore slowly close the door. I waited patiently for him to face me, concentrating on holding the wand convulsively in my both hands, and then he came up to me and laid a hand of sympathise on one of my shoulders.

"Is there any way for me to go back to normal again?", I mumbled.

"I actually believe there is, dear. But this way's difficulty depends on who the person is", he answered and looked me deep in the eyes. "And how much you're prepared to sacrifice and change to reach the goal."

"Do…- Do I have to leave Hogwarts during the time?"

"No one can force you off the grounds, as for you once were accepted, and no, I don't think your magical powers are gone forever, but if you want to leave it's your choice, of course."

I looked around in the room, not really register what my eyes saw because I was so deep in my own mind for the moment.

"Has this happened to anyone before?", I finally asked and glanced back at Dumbledore.

"I've never personally met someone with these problems, but I've heard about them, so you're obviously not alone", he said and gave me an encouraging smile.

"Did they succeed with getting their powers back?"

"Some did, others did not. It all seems to depend on how determined you are and how pure wizard blood you have. It's harder for a muggleborn to regain it than it is for a pureblood, if they are even able to loose it at all."

"Oh god." I could not believe what was actually happening to me. I put my head in my palms and just tried to rest my mind, clear out every knit that had been created lately. When I eventually straightened up again my eyes met a pair of sad blue ones, belonging to my dear headmaster. Maybe they were reflecting my own, because now I had made my decision.

"I'm going home."

"That's okay, dear. I understand you and want you to know that you are always welcome back whenever you're ready again. I will gladly help you regain your magical powers when the right time comes." Dumbledore came up to me and put his long arms around me. I sighed sadly and hugged him back before we separated.

"Just go home and try to find out your own place in this world. By then I'm sure you're going to know what's right to do and not."

"I will", I said and gave him a small smile, which he returned warmly. "Good bye, Professor, and thank you for your help."

"Good bye, Izabel. Take care." He held up his hand as I turned and opened the heavy door and stepped out from the big, rounded office. Now there was only one more thing to do before I was gone from this place, maybe for all eternity.

I walked up the last stairs to the portrait of the Fat Lady. Maybe this was the last time I ever told her the password to the common room that was well hidden behind her. When I was let in I immediately began to search for Sirius or James, Remus or Peter, but I did not find them anywhere so I decided I would pack my stuff first and then retrieve the wand to its owner. I marched through the big, red room to the stairs that would lead me up to my dormitory. For the last time, maybe. The first thing I saw when I opened up the door was the one person I would least want to ever meet again, but there she was and now she would have to joyfully watch me as I gave up. She had finally won, and even if she did not care about it anymore it was very hard for me to face that fact. I sighed and walked into the room and towards my bed without looking at her. I dragged out the big trunk and opened it up and began to put all my things into it. I had come a long way before she uttered her first words.

"Are you leaving?", she asked with a surprisingly soft voice, though I did not bother look up at her just because of that change.

"Yep."

"Why?"

I sighed and straightened up to look at her for the first time. As our eyes met I felt that she actually did care and wanted to know what was going on. She did not only show interest because she wanted to spread it on to everyone else. But at the same time, it did not matter anymore, even if I came back again nothing would ever be the same.

"I've lost my magical powers, so I'll go home now to become a normal human and live a normal human life, I guess."

Once again she surprised me, this time with her reaction. Her mouth fell open, but her hand flew up in the same second and covered it. She looked terrified, maybe a feeling that I should have been feeling myself, but did not.

"I-… I don't know what to say… Oh my god, Izzie…"

"You don't have to say anything", I told her and shrugged. "I've already accepted it, sort of."

Ally did not say anything more, and neither did I. And an hour later I was done and left all the heavy things in the room and took one of my smaller bags with me. I went to the door and hesitated when I put my hand on the knob.

"Well… Good bye then", I said and glanced at her.

"Good bye, Izzie", she said at looked at me with the same sad eyes which Dumbledore had given me earlier. I nodded once before opening the door and went out through it. Now I only had to find Robert and the other four and then leave this ground as fast as possible.

Finding Robert was easy, because as soon as I entered the common room he walked right past me. I reached out for his arm and stopped him. He looked around a bit chocked, but lit up as soon as he saw my face.

"Hi Izzie!" He gave me a huge bear hug that made my feet leave the ground and I giggled. When he put me down again he smiled with his whole face and I did not realize until now how much I had missed him.

"How are you?", I asked him and he chuckled.

"Do you ask me how I am?", he said, looking at me as if I were stupid. I laughed at him.

"In fact I am. I care about you, you know."

"Well, I'm just fine", he said, smirking. "How are you?"

"I'm good, but I'm leaving, so I just wanted to say good bye." His face expression changed in a second and now he looked terrified, but I told him a simple lie; my mum needed me home and that I could use a break from this place for a while. If it was not enough lies already I also promised him that I would come back, just to cheer him up. It seemed to work a little bit at least, and he gave me a second hug and then let me go. I would really miss him.

It felt like I had been searching through the whole castle when I finally found them. They came out from the room of requirement all four and I hurried after them as they walked away from me.

"Hey, James! Remus!", I called and they turned around and stopped at the spot. When I came up to them I was panting slightly but had no time to loose. I just wanted to make this a quick procedure, for everyone's best. Without even looking at him, I reached out the black, wand with the beautiful pattern carved into the wood and opened my hand. Sirius took it and then began to pick up my wand from his own pocket.

"Thanks, and yours were great, so it's nothing wrong with the wand at least", he said and held it out at me. I still did not look up at him, but in the corner of my eye I could see him smile at me.

"Keep it."

"What?"

"Yeah. If it was great then you should keep it, I don't need it anymore."

He came up closer to me and put one of his hands on my shoulder, but even if he had been standing on my feet I would have refused to look at him. To never have to see his beautiful face again would make this so much easier.

"It'll be okay, I promise.", he said reassuringly, but I could not believe a single thing he told me now, they were just empty words with no meaning.

"What is going on?", James asked and the other three came up a bit closer too. I looked up into those brown, warm and caring eyes and felt the sadness cover me.

"I'm leaving, James."

"What?", both he and Peter shout out.

"No, Iz, you don't have to leave. Hey! Listen to me", Sirius said, trying to get eye contact with me, but I just looked away, turning myself out of his grip more and more.

"What is wrong? Why do you have to leave?", Remus asked with a worried expression over his scarred face.

"I should be honest with you and tell you that my magical powers have vanished. I'm practically a squib now", I said, trying to joke it all away, but no one caught up with me on that.

"How is it even possible?", he murmured and I shrugged half-heartedly.

"No!", Sirius suddenly shouted and took a firmer grip around me and forced me to face him. "You're not leaving! We can fix this, I'll help you! We're all going to help you. Izzie!" Sirius began to sound desperate, and even though he had forced me to take eye contact with him, there was nothing more than a couple of dead eyes to look into.

"Maybe I don't want to fix it."

"Yes you do! Of course you wanna fix it, no one wants to be a squib, right?", he said with a smile, trying to convince me about what was right, but that only made me more and more frustrated.

"No I don't, Sirius. My mother needs me, and I don't belong here anymore", I said with a firm voice and looked straight at him.

"Are you doing this because we were fighting earlier? I'm sorry for that, I was just so angry and-"

"Stop it! I don't need to hear all of this! I was there, and I get it. In fact, I've been here all the time and I know what's up next, so why are you so eager to keep me here? Do you really wanna see me suffer so badly?" We stared at each other for a long, long time before he finally broke the silence.

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"No? Well I don't exactly know what number I am, but if you want you can keep my wand as a memory or price or whatever you like, I don't care. I'm leaving now, so for the first time someone you've dumped doesn't have to watch you go on to the next girl, making her feel as important as I did once. We don't want to see that, Sirius! It hurts!"

"No! It's not like that, not with you, Iz! Hey!" He tried to hold on but I forced myself out of his grip for a final time. I gave them all a small hug, almost not even touching Sirius at all when I hugged him, and backed off slowly, away from them and their sad faces. Remus, James and Peter just stood there, and Sirius did not know what to do at the time.

"Bye boys!", I said, forced a smile to my lips and waved at them. They greeted me back and made some half-hearted waving. I turned around and just continued walking, because I knew that if I stopped I would not be able to continue again. I walked and walked, only concentrating on my legs moving and feet touching the floor rhythmically. I was five steps away from the corner of the corridor when Sirius shouted.

"I love you, Izabel!"

I did what I was not allowed to do. I stopped. I turned my head and looked straight at him through the long corridor. He had been following me halfway through, but had also stopped when I did. For a short second, I just wanted to let go of everything and run to him, but right now, that was impossible.

"I don't believe you.", I said and walked around the corner. It was over. Now I was only human. Nothing more.