"I'm never ever never ever ever going to drink again." Nick was whining while swallowing 2 pills for his headache while Kurt got dressed mentally preparing himself for two serious talks that day. One with Nick and the other with Blaine. Kurt had thought how best to bring up Nick's situation and when he couldn't come up with anything, he decided to just be blunt.

"Hey Nick, you know you can talk to me about anything right?"

Nick looked questioningly and nodded so Kurt continued, "Last night when Blaine kissed Jeff, were you jealous?"

Nick's eyes widened, "Kurt…I don't really like to talk about the Jeff thing. You know how I feel about it and I'm just not ready to explain why we would be a terrible idea. I just know we would. He'd end up hating me and I can't ever risk that." Nick's voice was so soft that Kurt thought about dropping the conversation but he needed to understand why Nick was making himself miserable.

"Jeff likes you. He's liked you for a while. Why couldn't you-"

"Kurt just drop it, please!"

"But why? You two would be perfect together. And why are you making it so complicated, I just don't understand."

"Of course you don't understand! You're perfect Kurt! You don't lie or cheat or hook up with different guys every week. You're loyal to Blaine and-"

"You're worried you'll cheat on Jeff?" Kurt found this ridiculous. Sure Nick wasn't really monogamous but surely when he would eventually be with Jeff, he would learn to settle down and control himself.

"Yeah but it's more than that. Jeff deserves better. Kurt… I'm… My first boyfriend cheated on me. I cheated on my second boyfriend and my third boyfriend and I both cheated on each other. It just turned me off from the idea that people in relationships can be faithful. At least with me they can't and sometimes I can't. If something happened between me and Jeff, our friendship would be over and I can't deal with that."

"But Nick, don't you think that if you're both crazy about each other you'll want to be faithful. Not out of obligation but because you care about each other."

"How can I know that though? How can you be sure that one of us won't break the other to the point where we're damaged forever? You can't promise that we'll be okay so I'm not risking it and that's that."

Of course Kurt could understand Nick's worries and he wished there was some way to reassure Nick that not all guys were like that but Kurt realized that the only person who could convince Nick was Jeff. And Jeff wasn't ready to have his feelings about Nick known. Even though everyone knew already. Kurt had tried so then it was onto the next person of interest, Blaine.

When he arrived at Blaine's dorm and knocked there was no sound. Kurt thought he should have texted Blaine as he may have left already to breakfast already.

10:24am

Are you in your dorm? –K

10:26am

Dining hall. Join me? I have such a headache :( -B

10:27am

I'm on my way. Sorry about that. Did you take your medicine I left you? –K

10:30am

Yes and thank you! Hurry up! I have news. –B

Kurt arrived in the dining hall just as Blaine's text message came through and just in time to see John leaving through the back doors of the hall.

"Kurt! Hey, I saved you a seat." Blaine was looking wide awake and much too happy for having had a headache just a few minutes ago.

"How's the headache?"

"Much better actually. I have great news! I just asked out John and he said yes! We're going out tomorrow night for dinner and then I'll serenade him." Blaine looked so ecstatic and it took all of Kurt's willpower to not break down and cry right there in the middle of the dining hall. Blaine was going out with John. Any lingering hope Kurt had that it might still work between them was crushed and that hope was now replaced with an empty nothingness in his gut. Something was crushing his heart and it felt like it was breaking. Don't cry. Don't cry. Don't cry. It was a mantra going through Kurt's mind.

"Congratulations" Kurt whispered when he finally found his voice.

"Thanks! I decided to sing him 'Keep On Loving You' by REO Speedwagon. I know it's kind of old but I think it'll totally work, what do you think?"

Kurt's head snapped up after Blaine mentioned the change in song, "What happened to 'Teenage Dream'?" Blaine blushed and looked down while mumbling, "It wasn't a song for him." At least Blaine had decided to change the song, Kurt wasn't sure his heart could take much more so he wished Blaine good luck on his date and made an excuse about laundry so he could leave. On the walk to his dorm, Kurt realized he had forgotten to ask Blaine about his behavior at the party and his mood yesterday. Another talk for another day. When Kurt entered his dorm and saw that it was empty, he quietly crept into his bed and cried while watching When Harry Met Sally. Why couldn't Kurt find someone to love? Someone who cared about him or loved him? Someone to talk to about everything and nothing in general, to take to prom, to hold hands with, and most importantly, to feel safe and wanted with. It seemed so impossible. Kurt had never felt as hallow as he felt right then and there. Not even Karofsky's death threats had hurt this much. The locker shoves and bullying seemed insignificant compared to this feeling of heartbreak. Just when Kurt thought he couldn't feel more miserable, Nick walked into the room. He quietly shrugged off his coat and shoes, sliding into Kurt's bed while letting the younger boy cry until there was literally nothing left.

"Blaine told us about his date. I'm so sorry Kurt." Kurt just nodded and tried not to breakdown again if possible.

Suddenly it was tomorrow night and Blaine had just texted Kurt after his date to meet him in his dorm so he could gush about John. Kurt, ever the supporting friend, reluctantly went and let Blaine talk about their dinner and how amazing John was. Kurt's eyes were filling with tears and he quickly blinked them away. He would not let Blaine see him cry. He had some dignity.

The next few weeks passed in a blur with Kurt sulking and Blaine holding hands and sharing kisses with John in between classes. History became unbearable as Blaine and John kept staring at each other and giving each other flirty looks. Kurt stared in disgust and the bitterness of the situation was beginning to wear him down. Even worse was that suddenly Blaine was always unavailable. Kurt had tried to have dinner with his friend, go out shopping, even tried doing homework together but John was always there or they were always busy making out in Blaine's room. Kurt never even got the chance to ask Blaine about his mood all those weeks ago the day of the Warbler party. Kurt was getting fed up and by week 6, he had had enough.

After Warbler practice one night Kurt walked up to Blaine and demanded they have dinner together. Thankfully John was busy with a study group that night so Blaine agreed.

"I was thinking we could eat dinner at the diner? John doesn't like to go there but I love the food there!" Blaine was driving and talking animatedly about John. Kurt was listening and noticed how many times Blaine casually mentioned the things he had to give up because 'John didn't like it'. Maybe it was part of being in a relationship and Kurt just didn't understand it. He would never make Blaine give up anything, he'd indulge everything Blaine wanted.

After they sat and ordered their food, Kurt decided it was time to bring up the mood from weeks ago.

"Honestly, I was just having a rough day. I didn't do as great on my math test." Blaine was twiddling his fingers together and speaking without meeting Kurt's eyes.

"Blaine, I can tell when you're lying. You can tell me anything you know that right?"

"Yeah I know. Look, just promise you won't judge him or anything, please?" Blaine looked right up at Kurt through his long beautiful lashes. Kurt had a nasty feeling about what he was about to hear but agreed to not judge anyone.

"I overheard John telling one of his friends that I was a pushover and I would do his math homework if he asked me because I had a crush on him. When he saw me, he felt really bad though and he apologized and even bought me flowers. We're good now, we talked it out but I was just kind of upset that day." Blaine was back to smiling that beautiful smile that Kurt loved.

Kurt however was furious. That creep was a no good bully to Blaine. Not letting Blaine do what he wanted and telling him he was a pushover. Blaine was the nicest, most sincere person Kurt had ever met. John didn't deserve Blaine. No one deserved Blaine.

"Blaine, what John said is horrible-"
"He knows and he's apologized, really its old news. Let's move on. What's new in your life? I feel like I haven't spoken to you in forever" Blaine let out a small laugh.

"Right. Listen Blaine, that's another thing I wanted to talk to you about. I know you have a boyfriend now and everything but I feel like you've been neglecting your friends. Not just me but Jeff told me he hasn't hung out with you in weeks either. We miss you. I miss you."

"I know. I'm sorry Kurt, I really do try to balance everything but it's so hard with all my extracurricular activities and now John. John told me that part of having a boyfriend is learning to manage your time and friends around your classes and your boyfriend."

Kurt narrowed his eyes, "Blaine, we're your friends, you shouldn't revolve your time around John. You should spend time with who you want to spend time with."

"I'm trying Kurt, it's just hard. I'm here aren't I?"

"Only because John was busy! We haven't had a proper conversation in 6 weeks Blaine!"

"I don't know why you're getting all angry at John, he's trying to help me."

"Help you avoid your friends and me." Kurt scoffed and folded his arms now angry at both John and Blaine, "It's like after you serenaded John, he became all you talk about anymore."

Blaine looked down, "I actually didn't serenade him."

Kurt softened his voice, "What? Why? I thought you wanted to?"

"I did and I was going to but John stopped me and said that music wasn't his thing. That it was kind of stupid. We still got together so it's all good." Blaine tried to smile again but Kurt could tell this wasn't real. Stupid John.

"Blaine, that's horrible. You have a lovely voice and it was a beautiful gesture-"

"I know but John's just not into it and I have to respect that. He's a business major and wants to be a lawyer so majors like music are kind of unreasonable in his opinion. I can totally understand that."

Kurt stared at Blaine. "What?! Blaine, music is your life. You're lead singer of The Warblers! How is he not interested in your life? What about when we perform at Sectionals?"

"He's not going and I told him it's okay, we don't have to like the same exact things."

"This isn't about liking the same things. It's about supporting someone you supposedly care about."

"Kurt, just let it go. I don't want to talk about this anymore. I like John and he likes me. The end. Can we just hang out and enjoy each other's company? How are Carole and Burt?" Kurt decided to indulge Blaine in chit chat about mundane things and he had to admit that it was nice catching up with Blaine and seeing him smile and laugh. The more Kurt thought about it, the more he realized that over the past few weeks Blaine hadn't been smiling as much. Maybe it was Kurt's imagination and hope that Blaine would decide he didn't like John and would run away with Kurt.

After dinner they went back to their dorms with a promise to spend more time together.