Thomas got to campus with his head throbbing. He did not really get that much sleep last night. He was too invested thinking about Newt and the hickeys he sported on his neck. Thinking about it made his blood boil and he wanted to punch something. He did not even bother texting Newt because he knew Newt would do anything to distract him from the actual topic.

"Why the longface?" Thomas heard from his side. He turned and saw Alby with a satisfying grin.

"Woke up in the wrong side of the bed." Thomas said, not really putting much effort into it.

"Okay, what's wrong?" Alby halted them and stood in front of of Thomas.

"Nothing, Alby. I have to get to class." Thomas swerved and went on. He really does not want to talk about it.

Thomas tried really hard concentrating on his classes. He really did but all that kept coming back to him was the image of a nervous Newt hiding the bunch of hickeys on his neck. He shrugged the thought away because he really just can't handle it right now.

Lunch came and he decided to not spend it with his friends. They'll just ask questions and pry. Thomas ate his lunch back at his dorm. He needed the time alone. He really do like Newt but it frustrated him how the situation affected him. After minutes of moping rather than eating, he felt his phone ring.

From Newt: Can we talk? Please.

Thomas read the text over and over again. He hovered his fingers on the screen but what could he say? That he was jealous? Now that would be ridiculous.

To Newt: Why?

Thomas but his lip before sending the message. It was platonic. No signs of petty pining nor dislike.

From Newt: About last night. Why I ran. I feel like I owe you an explanation.

'DAMN RIGHT I DO!'

To Newt: Okay. Where?

Thomas finished his lunch and started to pack his things again. Minutes later, there was still no reply from Newt so he assumed the blonde just decided it was easier to avoid this. He got up left. When he got to his car he heard his phone ding.

From Newt: After school? You pick the place and I'll come.

Thomas was tired but he also really want to know what's going on.

To Newt: Fine. Come over. I have a test to study for so I really don't have any time to go out.

Thomas knew that maybe Newt might say no to the offer but Thomas had to try. He wanted the blonde to spill everything to him and he did not want anyone to hear them.

From Newt: Okay. See you then.

Thomas threw his phone on the passenger's seat and drove back to school. He was really eager to know everything that's really going on. He gets that there must be a strain between Newt and Minho's friendship but was that really all?

"Tom!" Thomas turned and saw running Teresa. It was already 4:30 and his classes were over but he was sure Teresa still had 2 more classes.

"T, what are you doing over here? That's a really far run." Thomas said when the breathless brunette panted in front of him. He chuckled when Teresa placed he hands on his shoulders to support her.

"Shut up... I - have to - say something." Teresa said in between pants.

"Yeah?" Thomas asked. What kind of gossip was so important for her to run all the way down here just to see and tell him?

Teresa calmed down a bit but did not talk for awhile. She stared at Thomas for a few moments. He sensed the same caring look she always gave him when she was about to say something terrible. He felt his heart rate pick up:

"Teresa, what?" Thomas asked again, startling the staring brunette.

"I-um..." Teresa stuttered, "I saw Newt and that asian dude that lives in your dorm together."

"What? Minho is in a different school." Thomas stepped back. Why was Minho there? He felt his fist clench and his anger rising. He was having a difficult time keeping his jealousy at bay.

"I'm pretty sure it was him. Anyways," Teresa grabbed Thomas and went to the side, "I was walking back to school when I saw them together. I was just passing by and I saw them talking. Newt was upset, I don't know why. Anyways, I was about to turn away and let them have some privacy when..." Teresa trailed off, staring at Thomas. Thomas did not like that. That would mean it was terrible when she did that.

"What? What happened?!" Thomas felt his voice rising. Teresa shushed him and looked around.

"Minho kissed Newt." Teresa said, "and Newt let him."

Thomas suddenly froze, breathing was hitched. Minho and Newt kissing. That would be a slow news day if Thomas did not have thing with Newt but, unfortunately, he did. This was all too much to take in. He knew there was something going on but Minho and Newt being together? He was not expecting that.

"Thomas?" He snapped back to reality when Teresa called and waved her hands in front of him.

"Y-Yeah." Thomas stuttered, still disoriented.

"Sorry, Tom." Teresa whispered and her face fell.

"Wh-What? Why?" Thomas asked.

"I know you like him, you idiot." Teresa smiled at the brunette. Thomas suddenly wanted to defend himself but all that came out were half-finished words. "Don't worry, Tom. I knew that fact long ago. Gally did not even have to tell me."

Thomas pinched the bridge of his nose. This can't be happening. Not Teresa!

"Hey," Teresa grabbed his hands and looked at him, "It's okay. Newt's pretty great. Sorry about Minho, though."

"Yeah. It's fine. I'll talk to him." Thomas smiled at Teresa and slowly backed away when she grabbed his wrists again.

"Tom! Um... If Newt is happy with Minho..." Teresa trailed off. Thomas did not really need her to finish it, he knew what she was going to say.

"I'm not gonna make him break up with him, T. If there is something. I'll just talk to him." Thomas gave her a reassuring smile. "Now, don't you have a class to get to?" Thomas reminded the girl.

"Shit! Yes! Okay, bye Tom! Good luck!" Teresa ran off, rather fast. Thomas looked as the girl vanished.

Okay, Teresa knew but she did not pester him about it. That's quiet odd for Teresa. Thomas shook his head and decided that he'll deal with Teresa later. Right now, all he wanted to do was to talk to Newt. And maybe that kiss between... He felt his phone vibrate.

From Newt: I'm outside your dorm.

"Hey." Newt said as Thomas got out of his car. Thomas just ignored the blonde and invited him in. Their walk was silent but Newt filled it with small talk that Thomas did not even bother to answer. He opened his room and sat on the bed. He looked at Newt as if telling him to start.

"Thomas..." Newt started and moved closer to the brunette but Thomas shrugged him off and pointed to the bed across from him. Newt followed the order. "Look, I know I have a lot of explaining to do and I want to start by saying I'm sorry." Newt said when he sat down. Thomas just raised his eyebrows at Newt.

"What's going on between you and Minho?" Thomas asked, not looking at Newt. There was silence for a little while before Newt coughed to clear his voice.

"Um... Well, Minho and I a-aren't exactly best friends... I mean we were but a little more than that..." Newt nervously started.

"Kissing him outside the school was enough indicator of that." Thomas blurted out, bot really stopping himself. He did not mind it though. It will give Newt that extra push to spill. Newt's eyes just widened.

"How did you..."

"Teresa saw you."

"Oh." Newt fell silent again. "We were together in high school. 4 years to be exact until we broke up at his graduation party." Thomas wanted to punch the wall. Life was not really being fair right now. He somehow took a liking to someone who had a relationship with one of his obnoxious dormmate. He hated life right now and he wanted to punch in the nose.

"Why?" Thomas asked in a calm way. He did not want to let the blonde know that he was angry.

"I - um, he punched me." Newt said. Thomas' head quickly shot up and saw the blonde not looking straight at Thomas and was biting his lip.

"What?!"

"He was drunk and he said he did not want to be with me if he wasn't sure that it was not gonna happen if he was sober." Newt narrated. Thomas felt the tension in the air. He knew this was difficult to Newt and Thomas felt like a jerk.

"Newt..."

"Don't say you're sorry." Newt looked at Thomas, the blonde holding back tears. "I should've told you. I should've..." Newt trailed off. "Nevermind."

Thomas stared at the blonde, waiting for him to delve into the story more but he did not want to put Newt on the spot. He just nodded and did not demand more. He felt that the blonde was tense and uncomfortable with the situation.

"Okay." Thomas lamely said. Smiling at the blonde.

"Okay? You forgive me?" Newt beamed but trying his best to hide it.

"You did not really do anything. I just wanted an explanation." Thomas said. Although he really wanted Newt to be available for Thomas, his friendship with the blonde was more important than his stupid feelings. Newt and Minho were obviously back together and all he wants is Newt to be happy.

"Thank you." Newt stood up, wiped his cheeks and extended his two arms. Thomas knew what would happen and he declined. "Come on, Tommy!"

'What the hell.' Thomas thought and stood up. He approached the blonde only to be yanked. They were hugging, tightly too. Newt hummed in the embrace. Thomas hugged the blonde back. He closed his eyes and just took in the moment knowing that this platonic hug will never be anything more. He hugged the blonde even tighter and Newt just chuckled.

Thomas was in the car with Newt, the blonde singing along with some ridiculous song that he made Thomas play.

"Sing with me, Thomas!" Newt punched the brunette playfully and Thomas just chuckled.

"I'll leave you to it. You're enjoying way too much." Thomas laughed and kept driving.

Although Thomas' friendship with Newt was stronger than before, it's been a rough 3 months for Thomas. He can't keep his jealousy at bay sometimes when Newt talked about Minho or when Minho was around. They got back together after talking about it. Newt told Thomas that he still really loved Minho. Thomas wanted to be against it but if Newt was really happy then why not let him. Newt introduced him to their friends and Gally and Teresa just shot Thomas looks of pity, he hated it. Thomas stuck around because, even though he feared that his feelings for Newt was only getting stronger everyday, he did not want to lose him as a friend so, he tortured himself to swallow every bit of jealousy he felt especially when the couple kissed in front of Thomas which he really tried his best to avoid. Thomas knew it was difficult but also worth it if Newt was what he's getting. Minho and Newt seemed happy together and Thomas only wanted Newt to be happy even though it was not with Thomas.

"You okay, Tommy?" Newt suddenly asked, breaking Thomas' train of thought, making the brunette jump.

"Y-Yeah. Sorry. Just distracted." Thomas said and looked at the blonde for a moment and back at the road.

"Really? I'm not enough for a distraction? I'm hurt, Tommy." Newt teased and sat straight. Looking at Thomas mischievously.

Things like that always made Thomas happy. It gave him some sense of hope. Like he somehow had a chance with Newt. Like he really had...

"Minho texted me. He'll meet us in the theatre." Newt beamed, smiling at his phone.

...and just when he thought all those things, an obstacle presented itself again. Constantly reminding Thomas that it was not gonna happen.

"Sure! You want me to drop you off?" Thomas asked, trying his best to not sound jealous.

"Yeah, that'll be great." Newt chimed, "You sure you don't want to come? I'm sure Minho won't mind." Newt offered, touching Thomas' arm. Thomas just bit his lips at the contact.

"N-No. I'm fine. I'm meeting Gally anyways."

"Okay." Newt removed his hands and Thomas already missed the contact. God, this was difficult.

They drove for awhile and then after a turn, they saw Minho standing outside the theatre. Newt smiled and opened the window to call Minho. Minho beamed and ran to the car.

"Hey, Min." Newt said as Minho arrived.

"Hey, I missed you." Minho chimed and inched closer to Newt, kissing the blonde. Thomas turned away and breathed deeply. He realized he was gripping the steering wheel tightly and just shook it off.

'God, they're talking too long.' Thomas thought. Thomas coughed and it made the happy couple break apart. Newt chuckled and got out of the car and thanked Thomas for the ride before clutching Minho's arms and resting his head on the boy's shoulders. Thomas just watched them as they went on, with him imagining it was Thomas in Minho's place. He followed their movements until Newt looked back at him. Thomas shook his head as Newt stared back and started to take off.

"ABOUT TIME!" Gally screamed, he was obviously annoyed by Thomas' lack of punctuality.

"Sorry. Needed to drop Newt off." Thomas said apologetically. Gally's expression suddenly changed and Thomas knew what he was gonna say.

"Thomas, you got to stop doing this." Gally said, following Thomas behind.

"What? Newt's my friend, I'm happy to do it." Thomas said, not even failing to smile. Well, he practiced lying everyday so he was kinda good at it now.

"Are you?" Gally stopped them by grabbing Thomas' shoulders.

"Yes. Now come on!" Thomas shoved Gally and went to the shop and heard his friend sigh deeply.

Thomas went in first, grabbing a basket. Gally invited Thomas to accompany him in grocery shopping. Gally always hated the chore but Thomas, on the other hand, liked the distraction. A distraction away from everything, and his complicated and somewhat one-sided feelings for a certain kind of blonde. Considering they may be spending the weekend together tomorrow for a lit project they've been given which is due next week.