Hi guys, im sooo sorry it took so long to put a new chapter up but been very busy and cause of that i wasnt really that insprated anymore, but eventhough Robbie is a lot on my mind. So now i took time to put this chapter up that i had written weeks ago but had to really check before updating. I hope you all have had a great start with 2012 and ofcourse i wish you all thebest in love, friendships and health!I cant promise when a new chapter will be up but i really havent forgotten about you but maybe a little break is good to think stuff up ok!I hope you enjoy this chapter i find it a sweet one ;) enjoy xx
It was the middle of the night, Robbie woke up cause she had been feeling a little thirsty and she badly needed to pee. She grabbed for the glass next to her bed, but it was already empty. She sighed, she felt tired, she was thinking of a great birthday she celebrated with her family and friends, her and Peter sneaking of to the toilets, creepy Michael, although he would not be a real problem anymore since Jack and Phil had been pretty rough with him. And then the alcohol again, while she smiled a little thinking about her and her friends getting a little hammered from it, she also thought of how Ronnie, Jack , Glenda and even Kat got angry with her about it. Ofcourse Robbie knew it had been a stupid thing they had done, ruining the party with it, and if the old bill would have come around they might have lost their license and all. Coming home, Ronnie hadn't said much to her about it, she just had told her to get to bed. Robbie knew Ronnie was angry with her, but that she obviously didn't want to end Robbie's birthday with a lot of yelling or a big speech sorting her out. That would probably come in the morning. And her gifts were still in the safe of the club, and were gonna stay there for a while longer as her punishment, without a doubt.
She got out of bed and stood still for a moment. She still felt a little lightheaded. She walked out of her bedroom, the door was open. Ronnie must've left it open so she could hear if Robbie was alright during the night. Robbie walked out of her room straight through her mum and dads bedroom to get to the bathroom. Ronnie and Jack were wrapped up together, sound asleep. As she got out again she walked to the kitchen, she didn't want any water, she wanted to drink some coke. She opened the fridge and got the bottle out. Instead of getting a glass, like Ronnie would have wanted her to, she opened the bottle and just took some sips from it, then put the bottle back. For a minute she stood there and then her eye fell on her mum's handbag still standing on one of the kitchen chairs. She remembered that Ronnie put the little package, she got from Glenda last night, in there. She walked over and took a peek inside and saw that the package was still in there. She took it out and walked back to her room with it. She closed her door and crawled back into the bed then just looked at it. What could possibly be in there that she couldn't have really opened at the club last night. Was Glenda playing a little prank maybe, maybe something in there would've been too embarrassing maybe with her friends there. Carefully she opened the little package. Robbie raised her eyebrows as she got out a tiny little pink babygrow that said "I'm my big sisters cuddle!', and a tiny baby outfit, under neat she found a little hospital wristband saying: Baby Mitchell, Robin, Dec 17th 1994. Robbie's eyes welled up a little. She couldn't believe Glenda had kept this all her life, the baby grow and outfit must have been her first outfit to wear getting home from the hospital. She looked at her alarmclock [03:37] it said. She touched the outfit again and smelled it, it didn't really had a smell anymore but it did feel soft. Then, when she tried to put it on her nighttable something else fell onto the floor. Robbie leaned over and grabbed an envelope from the floor. As she sat back in bed she opened the envelope and took a piece of paper out, it looked like a letter.
December 17, 1994
My dear Little one,
You've been so restless all night ,that your mummy can't sleep anymore, it's half 4 in the middle of the night and I got out of bed cause I have been planning this for a while, to write to you, I never got to it but today of all days I'm taking a little time for it. You started moving around in there waking mummy up. And not like you're usually moving around in mummy's tummy, but I think this might be it, the big day we are finally going to meet you my little one, and it's about time cause we've been waiting for so long for you.
We're so excited about seeing who has been hiding in there. Your big sisters are so hyper at the moment, ofcourse they're still sleeping at this dreadful early hour of the day, but you decided that it was time for mummy to get up right. I'm sitting in your room that is waiting for you, in the rocking chair I sat in so many times before with your sisters, feeding them, soothing them, reading to them. Your father put nice wallpaper up and put your cot together, it's a new one, the one your sisters slept in has been thrown out since you weren't exactly planned, but your our little blessing, a wonderful gift, the cot was old and not as good looking anymore since your sister Roxanne had put a lot of teethmarks in it! She helped me yesterday and put the last nappies in the dresser and we made everything ready for you to come. Veronica bought you the sweetest little babygrow yesterday, she had it made specially for you, it says 'I'm my big sisters cuddle!' she can't wait to help me out, she's probably gonna be mothering over you, and they 're gonna spoil you rotten I bet.
Now we don't know if you're going to be a boy or a little girl, you're going to be a real surprise. Your father has been saying he wants you to be a boy after having already two beautiful girls, but I don't mind if you're a boy ór a girl, I'm already in love with you. We have your names ready, we're just waiting for you to come out, we're ready for you to be either Robin Evangeline Riley if you are a girl(though the names are a little influenced by your father, he wanted Robin and Riley but I wanted Evangeline, it sounds beautiful but your father is very persuasive so we decided to call you Robin), and Robin Archie Riley for when you are a boy. You're sisters are pretty much convinced you're a girl, Roxanne has been calling you Madonna or Maddie, she and Veronica are big fans of the american singer and Roxanne wants me to name you that, she thinks if she keeps calling you Madonna we'll get used to it but we have to disappoint her, I would rather go by the choice of your eldest sister, if it was up to Veronica, she really wanted to call you Nikki, short for Nicole or Nicola that would be a good option too, your father liked Nick too but not enough I guess.
Your sisters definitely want a baby sister but they're already a little to old to play with you all the time, so they wouldn't mind if you are a little boy, they're probably going to wanna carry you around all day long. Roxanne said the other day that she wouldn't mind you being a little boy, she said 'then dad would have someone to go fishing with', your sisters aren't really keen on touching worms with bare hands.
Oh you really start to move around now, it actually starts to hurt a little, have to pay attention on my breathing, so I think I'm going to wake up your father and get ready to go to the hospital and hopefully you decide to come out today so I can hold you in my arms and meet you, let you meet your dad and your big sisters.
So little one, I'll see you in a couple hours maybe, don't make this too hard for mummy ey, be gentle!
Loving you so much already,
Your Mummy x
Robbie dried her eyes, this wasn't really something she had expected. Eversince Glenda had been back in Walford, back with her girls, Robbie had known that this was her mother, well the woman who gave birth to her, from all stories she had been told about her. Stories about a woman that gave birth to her cause Ronnie was really the mum she knew for 16 years now. But this piece of paper made Glenda become more real. It was all there. She looked at the babyclothes again and touched the tiny wristband. The feeling of her mother, loving her so much and making her feel so welcome in this "perfect family" made it all feel worse. Her mother left because of her evil father and never made any contact anymore. Raised by her eldest sister who did everything she could to give her babysister, a mum, and what a great job Ronnie did make of it. Robbie sighed and lay down, her head started pounding and she didn't know if it was a hangover kicking in or just all this confusion about this letter from Glenda and the tiny babyclothes that really overwhelmed her. She grabbed the babyclothes again and folded them, on top she put the letter and layed it down in one of the drawers of her bedsidetable. She layed herself down and slowly fell back to sleep again.