Nahuel
I have struggled with my new lifestyle for a long time. I was tired of being a monster. When I met Renesmee, I knew I had to change. I tied but I couldn't pull it off for more than a few months a s time. It wasn't until I realized that fate gave get to a filthy mongrel that I turned my life around. I waited 150 years for her and I lost her. I wasn't going to lose another opportunity for happiness. I stopped hurting humans and within a few years I was rewarded with a beautiful son. I thought I was set for the rest of eternity until my son suddenly stopped growing. I was devastated but I was going to hold on to him one way or the other. If he kept aging, I would turn him. Aunt Hulien said it was a selfish decision but I simply didn't know how to exist without my son.
And then she came into my life. I couldn't stop staring at her from the moment I saw her slowly enjoying my food. She seemed so sensual as she savored every bite. I wondered if she was a food critic. I knew that I had to meet her but it wasn't until I looked into her beautiful brown eyes that I knew there was something different about her. I liked everything about her. I liked her voice, her lips, but most importantly, her lack of scent. I thought she was an angel. It wasn't until the next day that I suspected something was wrong.
She clearly had cut herself but I couldn't smell once ounce of blood on her. The previous day, I thought she had moved too quickly but now I was certain that she was supernatural. Could she be a hybrid? I tried not to get my hopes up because I knew fate would never send me another Renesmee. I still had a lot of making up to do for all the lives I had destroyed. But then again, she hadn't bled and she looked nervous as if she knew she made a mistake. I decided to ignore it. If she was a hybrid, I would find out soon enough. Instead a fixed her Charquican and called me son to have a taste.
I knew something was wrong the moment my son looked at her but when I saw how she looked at him, it was confirmed. It was the same look Renesmee had when she realized she was the wolf's imprint. The exact same stare. I couldn't help the hiss that formed in my throat. I should have seen it. Her eyes were darker but they were the same shape as hers. Her lips were also the same shape as hers. Why didn't I see it before?! She was Renesmee's daughter!
She was a hybrid all right, just the wrong kind. She was one of theirs. The idea that I had to put up with one of these mongrels in my son's life was unbearable. How much more would these mutts take from me?!
A part of me wanted to kill her but I was no longer that man. I never liked killing. Even before Renesmee, I had tried to stop drinking human blood hundreds of times to no avail. Holding her daughter in my grasp, looking at her shocked tearful eyes, I knew she saw the monster I truly was. I felt a powerful sense of disappointment and humiliation when I thought she could possibly be here for me. I should have known better, but for her to imprint on my son… That was too much for me to bear.
I agonized over what to do. I wanted to sill her but I knew the moment I grabbed her that I wouldn't hurt her. I was sorry I even tried. If I took my son, they would come after me. I had no leverage in this situation. She was right about that part. Plus, she was my son's soul mate. I could never take that away from him. So I accepted her offer to be a part of my life. My heart broke a little the moment I saw her sleeping in her car but it wasn't until I saw her sleeping on my sofa with my son in her arms that I realized I was in love with her. I hated myself for it. What kind of a monster falls in love with his son's soul mate? I was disgusted with myself but at the same time, that girl had changed me.
I tried not to touch her but some days I just couldn't help myself and her shudders only made it worse. I knew she was affected by me too. I couldn't understand this but I suspected it had something to do with sharing the same DNA as my son. Just like she had a hard time with her sister's imprint. The desire to touch her was unbearable and it made me hyper aware of her every move.
That afternoon at the beach, I fantasized of what it would be like if she were mine. I fantasized that she was my wife and my son's mother instead of his soul mate. I fantasized about running to them and holding them both in my arms while I spun them around. We would have fallen on the sand and then I would have kissed both my loves. It would have been the happiest moment of my life, but it could only exist in my head. The reality was that I was a monster who didn't deserved her. She deserved better than me. She deserved someone like my boy. I had to be more careful. My son must have seen my desire for her. Perhaps he sensed it and that's why he suggested we be together. It was such a tempting thought but I knew he would resent me once he found out she was meant for him. I had to put a stop to this madness. I was at the restaurant trying to figure out how I could stay away from her when Renesmee showed up.
"How could you?" I heard behind me at the same moment her scent blew in from the doorway. I turned to see my kitchen staff's confused faces and the furious eyes of my former friend.
"Pedro, take over. My cousin and I have to speak in my office." I told my sous chef, letting her know this was not the pace for this.
"Follow me." I told her in a low voice so that only she could hear and I led her to my manager's office which was in the far back of the restaurant away from prying ears.
"You are despicable!" She started as soon as I closed the door. "I told Jacob not to kill you because I've always thought you were a good man deep down inside but I guess all that mourning and regret over the deaths you caused was just lie to get me to be with you. But you couldn't have me so you went for the next best thing? She's my little girl! How fucking dare you?!" She screamed at me. I looked down and shook my head.
"Its not like that…" I started but then she slapped me.
"Don't you dare lie to me! I smelled you in her apartment, on her bed!" She growled at me. I realized she thought the worse of me and there was no way I would ever convince her otherwise.
"I don't know how far things got but it ends now. If you contact her, if you come anywhere near her again, I won't have the wolves kill you, I will do it myself!" She spat out. I glared at her angrily.
"I mean it Nahuel. Leave this town now and never come back." She hissed. I saw the fury in her eyes and I knew she meant it.
"Just give me a few hours to set things in order here and I'll leave." I told her.
"You have three hours. Mom is right outside and she will make sure that you leave town one way or the other." Renesmee told me. I nodded and she left.
I collapsed onto the chair in the office and dropped my head into my hands. I couldn't help the sob that escaped my lips. A minute later, my manager Jeff walked in.
"What the hell is going on Noah?" He asked me. I looked up at him and he took a step back shocked.
"Ok now you're scaring me." He said and pulled over a chair to sit by me.
"Remember when we opened the restaurant. I told you that I have a past and that there would be a time when my past would catch up with me and I would have to leave?" I asked him. He looked a little scared but he nodded.
"Its that time Jeff. Pedro knows all my recipes. He's well trained. Just promote him and I will become a silent partner. I will contact you with the details once I am settled but I won't tell you were I am. No one can know where I am." I told him. He sighed heavily and nodded.
"I understand my friend. What about Felipe?" He asked me.
"I'm picking him up from school and telling them we have a family emergency. I will get his records but I will not tell them where I am going. If anyone asks, all they have to know is that I had a family emergency. Tell them my aunt died." I told him. Jeff nodded and looked down to the floor. His eyes were red as if he were holding back tears. I patted his knew reassuringly.
"It will be ok. We'll be ok." I told him. Jeff and I had been friends for 6 years. We had built two businesses together, taking our food from a food truck to small restaurant in Miami and then our new adventure up in Boston. He was a good man but he had human and I knew I would have to leave him eventually which was why I built this contingency plan.
"I know. Just let me know if you or Felipe need anything at all." He told me. I nodded and then I walked out the door. Bella was watching me so I called aunt Hulien.
"Its time aunt. Please pick up Felipe and take him to your place. I will gather out things and meet you there. Just be careful with him." I told her with a warning growl. I told my aunt to stay away from him until she learned to control her thirst. She was been on animal blood for two years so we went to visit her to her cabin more often but I still didn't trust her to be around him 24/7.
"What's happened my boy?" She asked worried.
"I will explain when I get there." I told her. Hulien was already registered at the school so I called the school and explained the situation so that they had Felipe's records ready when she arrived.
I went to the house and I gathered my things and Felipe's. I had to make sure I left no evidence of him. I packed all his pictures and toys along with all his clothes. I quickly stuffed in things into boxed and placed them in the enclosed trailer I had in the garage along with some of my own personal items and then I attached it to my car and left.
My hands were shaking as I drove off and I knew it wasn't because Bella was watching. It was because of her. As I approached the state line, I sent her one final text to let he know why I had to leave.
You broke your promise. I'm sorry. I typed quickly and hit send before I crushed my phone and threw it out into the street.
I could feel my heart breaking which only made me realize how truly attached I had grown to Ella. I could see her tearful eyes reading the text I just sent and it hurt more than I ever realized. My heart started beating faster and I felt like I couldn't breathe. I realized I was having a panic attack. I had read about them. I had even seen them in my victims but I had never experiences it myself. My only consolation was that once my son is grown, we could go find her together. She would imprint on him all over again and I would figure out a way to deal with that pain.
I got to the park near the forest where aunt Hulien lived. The drive there was long but the run to her house was only a short distance. It was already dark out and I knew Felipe would be asleep. I could hear the soft thrumming of his heartbeat as soon as I approached the cabin.
"Mijo!" Hulien opened the door before I even had a chance to touch the knob. She took me in her arms and pulled me into her house.
"I finally was able to calm him. He's so confused. He keeps asking for her." Aunt Hulien told me. I called aunt Hulien almost every day so she knew about Ella. She also thought I should marry Ella and have her be Felipe's mother instead of his mate. She wasn't nearly as angry that another wolf had entered our lives. Her only problem with Ella was that she couldn't figure out who she imprinted on.
"Her mother went to visit her. She scented me there. Renesmee thinks I've seduced her." I told Hulien.
"Why didn't you explain it to her?" She asked me. I looked at her tormented.
"Is she really wrong? Isn't that exactly what I've been doing to the woman who is meant for my boy?" I asked her angrily.
"Ay Mijo. Enough with this remorse and regret. You have a right to be happy! Why didn't you just tell Renesmee that the girl might have imprinted on one of you? Why do you keep running from happiness?" My aunt asked me exasperated.
"What else was I supposed to do Hulien? I have to protect my son!" I snapped and walked back towards the door.
"From her or from yourself?" She whispered.
I felt myself shake as the tears stung my eyes once again. I opened the door and slammed it behind me grabbing my hair to keep my head from imploding. I felt the tears streaming down my eyes bit I didn't stop them. I was just as much to blame in this situation. All I wanted was to be a good father to Felipe and I had messed it up.
I leaned against the post on the front porch. I felt dizzy. I thought about Ella and what she must be feeling and it only made it worst. I took a few breaths and I managed to calm myself a bit but then a felt a strong surge of energy. I heard something rummaging in the trees and suddenly she was there naked before me. For a moment I thought I was hallucinating but I couldn't have imagined that look in her eyes even in my wildest fantasies.
I was instantly at her side covering her with my shirt like a gentleman. I couldn't help but feel protective over her.
"What are you doing here?" I asked her dumbfounded. How did she even find me? I wondered but then she took my face in her hands and the most beautiful words came out of her mouth.
"I'm here for you. Its always been you." She told me before she kissed me. My heart stopped and then it was like it was set ablaze. My arms went around her instinctively and everything that I felt for r solidified at that moment. I would never part from her again. I was hers and she was mine. That was the moment I realized what this meant.
"You phased?" I asked her in a gasp. She smiled at me the most beautiful smile I had ever seen and she nodded at me. I don't know how but I felt warm as if the sun were shining on me at that very moment. She smiled at me proudly and nodded.
She told me how her anger against what her mother had done had caused her to physically push her away using her shield. By releasing her shield, she was finally able to phase into a wolf and recognize her imprint. Me…
I couldn't believe it but she only confirmed it when I asked her if she was sure. I shouldn't even had asked. I could see it clear as day in her eyes and I could feel it in my own heart. I was hers and she was mine all along. The happiness I felt caused me to kiss her with a fierceness I could barely understand. She was mine! We would be together for the rest of eternity!
My son, our son, came out yelling her name in sheer joy. She looked at him with all the love of a young mother and I felt my heart swell even wider. She took him in his arms and looked at me slightly concerned. I only smiled at her. Didn't she already know he was ours?
Aunt Hulien also joined us and welcomed my Ella into our family. The happiness my aunt felt was palpable. She had told me all along that Ella was meant for me and she was right. I shouldn't have tried to argue, mother always knows best.