Sorry for my absence I've had some personal stuff bringing me down I have a hard time writing when I'm down. Anyway here's a new chapter.

Quinn was not a patient person. She'd wanted to talk to Santana the moment she woke up on Sunday, but when she texted the other girl she didn't receive a response and her parents had plans for her the entire day. Monday morning however just after Cheerios practice Quinn got the opportunity she'd been hoping for.

"Why were you at the movies with Rachel?" Quinn cornered Santana in the cheerios locker room.

"What?" Santana looked confused before what Quinn was talking about made sense. "Oh. yeah we went to see Bandslam."

"I didn't ask what you went to see. although, Really? Bandslam? I asked WHY." Quinn practically growled.

"Because Rachel is alright and we're friends. we've been friends for like, ever, and I'm tired of hurting her. She's selfish and loud and talks A LOT. But she forgives and loves and is in general a good person." Santana stepped up to Quinn so they were merely inches apart. "So, that's why i went to see a movie with her. Why, Quinn, does it matter to you?"

Maybe it was nerves or anger or maybe it was just Santana's proximity but Quinn yelled, "I was Jealous. Okay?" Quinn's eyes went wide. Damn it. "She's taking my boyfriend away from me and now she's taking my friends. Why does she always get to have what's mine?"

"Calm down." Santana took a few steps back but put her hands on Quinn's shoulder. "Rachel doesn't want Finn. And you're not losing any friends. Amazingly I can be friends with both you AND Rachel."

"How do you know that she doesn't want Finn?" Suddenly Quinn felt small. I feel like middle school me. What the hell is going on with me lately.

"Because she told me, and because... " Santana frowned. "Okay look Mr Schue made Finn join the glee club and while Rachel DID want a decent male lead singer she never wanted him for more than his voice. I made it seem like it was more to get you to join glee with me because I wanted to make it up to Rachel and I knew you wouldn't try to have me kicked off the cheerios if were all in it together. Well actually she did think up the plan. She can be pretty devious at times. anyway the point is she's not after your boyfriend."

They tricked me. They used me. UGH! but I LIKE glee. and I like Rachel. "You tricked me?"

"You love Glee. I've seen the way you smile when you're singing and dancing with everyone. So you can be mad at us for lying but you like Glee a hell of a lot more than you like being a Cheerio."

Quinn frowned. It was true. One time she'd overheard Rachel saying that she loved glee because it was special and being a part of something special made you special. Quinn hadn't really thought about it but at the time but she knew it was true. Cheerios had always been a means to an end, but Glee was special. Being a part of New Directions made her feel special.

Santana shrugged at Quinn's silence. "It was nothing personal. now can we please just stop talking about this? I don't do this feelings crap."

Quinn watched Santana leave. She felt alone. Not just alone, but lonely. Why does Rachel have to be in my life at all. Why does she have to exist. Why do I have to feel like this. With a frusturated huff Quinn followed Santana out the door towards class for the day.

Despite not always liking being a Cheerio in that moment Quinn was absolutely grateful for it. She felt vulnerable and the only thing that made her feel strong enough to face the crowded halls of the school was her uniform. Since the moment she'd put it on she wore it like a suit of armor. Whether it was because the too short skirt caused a distraction or the knowledge that most of the girls in the uniform wouldn't think twice about tearing someone apart Quinn wasn't sure but she was sure that no one ever looked her in the eyes, or if they did it wasn't for very long. This meant that no one ever really saw what she was feeling. At least she hoped that was the case.

"Quinn!" she turned at the sound of her boyfriend's voice. "Hey! we haven't talked since Saturday." He leaned down to kiss her. It was sloppy and awkward. Quinn was the one to break it off.

"You know I have church on Sundays"

"Well yeah but you usually text more or something. Did I do something wrong?"

"I know you like her..." Quinn gave him a hard stare. "Admit it. Seriously Finn? Why her?"

"Rachel? Quinn we're just friends. What are you talking about?"

"I've seen you looking at her in glee." I've looked too. That's why I noticed. God why does she have to be so damn distracting.

"I'm not cheating on you Quinn. I mean sure Rachel is nice to me and she's kind of pretty but she's really intense plus I think she just likes me for my singing voice."

"Well I just can't be with someone I can't trust and honestly I don't think I can trust you." Quinn gave a little huff.

"I can't believe this" Finn looked like a combination of shocked and upset. "Seriously Quinn what the hell? I didn't even do anything."

Quinn didn't bother to respond mostly because she knew there wasn't actually anything to disagree with. After her conversation with Santana she was fairly certain that Rachel wasn't interested in Finn. She also realized that she was a little to interested in Rachel herself to try and keep up the act with Finn. Better to pretend I'm not interested while I'm alone than to drag someone else into my mess. I never really liked Finn like that anyway.

She walked off without another word to Finn as she contemplated what to do about her feelings for Rachel and the knowledge she gained that morning through Santana. I wonder if she'd be willing to be my friend too. I mean if Santana can be forgiven... of course that's apparently after years of friendship. Maybe I can talk to Santana about it... maybe she would be willing to help me get on Rachel's good side.

That moment Quinn decided she was tired of pretending that she hated Rachel. It was time for a change.

We've reached a Turning point. what is Quinn willing to do to earn forgiveness. does she deserve it? How long will it take Rachel to cave and forgive her? When will they realize their mutual crush? Who knows!? (Me I know. but where would the fun in telling you in a note be?) anyway I'm sorry this chapter took so long to get up. let me know what ya'll think.