A blank stare.

Everyone, Lenalee, Kanda, Miranda, Lulubell and even Road stood quiet, gazing at the redhead who intruded in our conversations. We all stood there in silence.

Heartbreaking silence.

"What do you want Lavi?" Road finally spoke, the only one who had the balls to say anything. Me on the other hand was completely speechless. It felt like my voice was ripped right out of my throat, I just stood there and looked feeling my heart pound against my chest. Why was I acting like this? Why couldn't I speak?

"This has nothing to do with you pipsqueak so why not keep that pretty little trap of yours shut aye?" Road was the only one who actually loathed Lavi. With everything in her entire being, though the only reason she hadn't done anything about his two-time lying ass was because of me, or that's maybe what she wants me to believe.

Silence once more.

Everyone grew quiet again. It was strange, I've never seen Road quiet. What was going through her mind? She always had a comeback to everything, and to everyone. Why the silence all of a sudden? Was she really taking orders from the one person she hates the most? Did she really loose her mind?

This time I finally said something, "W-What is it you want from me Lavi?" My voice cracked but I felt like I could finally say something knowing my friends were there, "You've already caused as much damage as you possibly can, I don't see why you want to talk to me now."

The bitterness in my voice hurt only me, I couldn't allow anyone to see the pain I was in so I began to walk away, while everyone just watched me. I knew no one would follow me..

Or so I thought. Though I thought it was Road who was coming after me I was about to shout out Just leave me the fuck alone. Even though I was never cruel to Road at all, I was in no mood to get told off even more. However when I was about to turn and see Road Lavi was standing right there, "We need to talk." Was all he blurted out before he grabbed onto my arm and pulled me away.

Not good.

Where is someone when I need them?

Not here of course.

I can't be alone with Lavi I just know I can't, so why isn't someone here to help me out?

I'm not sure why but something in my body makes me follow him without making such a fuss, I keep quiet as he arrive at the park. Why is it everything bad always happens here?

I look around, it's the same amount of people here just like the time Road yelled at me. Maybe these are new people, and they don't remember me, though how could they not? My white hair only screams my name out.

Though before Lavi could say anything a women passes by with someone who seems like is her friend, mumbling pretty loudly so Lavi and I can here, "Remember that kid was arguing with his girlfriend? I hope they are didn't break up." As the women and her friend walk by us Lavi just stares at me.

"Road huh?" I nod, though it seems like everyone knows Road is the only one I ever get into arguments with without it becoming serious. Lavi just grins and leans against one of the trees. "You know that's how we used to be. Though I always could make you laugh from anything."

I stare at the other male, not really sure how to respond to what the male is saying, so I just look at him, nothing coming out of my mouth, I slid my body onto the bench. I look at Lavi, I know he wants to sit beside me, but before he even moves I speak. "Don't even try sitting next to me."

"Jeez Allen, your so hostile. Can't two friends just sit here in the park and chill?" I glare at him, Friends? Since when the hell did we ever start becoming friends again?

"Friends Lavi? You think we're friends now? Since when did you come up with this lie hmm?" I can't believe this, after everything he has said to me after everything we have gone through, how can he act like nothing has happened between us, why we hate each other?

All Lavi did was nod, nothing more for the longest time. When I was about to leave, "This isn't worth my time Lavi. If this is the only reason you bothered me well you have another thing coming."

"Allen wait."

I pause, "So you finally talk hmm?"

"Look Allen, I know you still have feelings for me."

I freeze, I don't even dare look at him, out of all the things he had to say to me, that one hit me hard.

"Your point Lavi? Who cares who I like, who I love it's none of your damn concern."

"Find someone new kiddo, you know it's not that hard once you put yourself out there I know you can be with anyone you want to."

I don't dare face him, I can already feel my fingers begin to tremble. "Just because you already have someone wrapped around your finger, just because you can easily forget about me don't tell me it's so easy. Just because your so happy without me doesn't mean I can be. I'm not like you Lavi."

"You think I'm happy Allen? You think I would be happy from all shit? I'm not Allen, When I to have my own dirty little secrets, my own scars. But unlike you I can get over it."

"Because you never loved me." shake my head, he's wounded? Because of him I started cutting myself with knives, because of him I cried everyday.

"I did love you Allen, don't get me wrong I really did, why do you think I got with you if I didn't like you I wouldn't have to be here arguing about how shitty of a relationship we had and because of that why we are over."

"Whatever Lavi, I know your so perfectly happy without me, so drop the whole act. I know you never cared about me.. When all I ever did was love you, you made me feel like I was someone special. I thought you were someone I could tell everything to and you made me laugh.. I opened up to you, I told you everything. My whole past. I thought you accepted me for who I was."

I felt myself fighting the tears, there was no way I was going to let anyone know I was crying, not going to show my face to anyone. Not even to Lavi, though some how I think Lavi knew I was going to start bawling. He always knew right when I was going to cry.

This is how it always is, I can never control my tears.

I know I look like a huge baby, and I just don't care anymore, I want him to walk away now, I want to be alone. I so badly want to yell Get the fuck away from me! However I just can't. My voice disappears again.

I stand there speechless.

SO i had a complete different idea for this chapter. BUT it will just have to wait for a while. Working on the other one its really hard to be in the mood l; review pwease?PERMISSION for ever conversation i use from life to the story :D -enen