A/N: Guess what's back? xD lolo since people have seemed to like this story o3o more than I thought they would Learn your lesson has returned! and in due time as well. I will say there will only be a couple of chapters left like 3 maybe more but because I've had a huge writers block with all my stories this is just a small and tiny update. Reviews are appreciated since people have been asking for it back and what not. Anyways..

i think this is more Lavi and Road action but its something nonetheless. (this chapter came out totally different than what I had in mind) enough chatter.~ read on dears.

It's a funny thing, reopening my eyes to something so dear to my heart. The memories reoccurring as if it was happening all over again, as the my past and my present were dancing alongside each other without really touching at all, not ever knowing they were even beside each other to begin with.

My life, just as much as everyone's having an obstacle to over come, no matter if it was love, depression, heartbreak, death in the family, school, not having enough money to go here or there anything and everything seemed to be a problem now.

And we took it all in, allowing it to either make us or break us. It seemed though, for me, everything was breaking me. I couldn't go a day without adding a new imperfection onto my wrists. There's a reason they are called my imperfections. They carve away the beauty of skin, adding the pain I have or will feel later on. It's an escape something I thought could keep me away from the harsh reality, and the danger in my thoughts.

It never occurred to me, that someone could be thinking the same exact thing like I was, but there must have been maybe their life was or still is more tragic than my pathetic plea for help, maybe just for your attention. I believed I was drowning in a sea, and no one was there to help me out. I still feel like this, though its just that I smile more often than usual.

He seemed to be my little inspiration, and I took it in. I took it all in just for the hint of admiration, passion and dare I say love? Of course, thinking back I was foolish, how could a person like myself at the age of 16 think I could be in love? This was no Disney movie, nor was it The Notebook, A Walk to Remember there was no musical scene for me, most of us never get our Happily Ever After.

So all I ever did was run away, I ran from Lavi, I was scared of my emotions for him, I always seemed to think when something so good was coming to me I had to run away, it would never truly stay.

I was to much of a chicken shit, to even see if something like that could actually stay. I hid my heart away from the world, I hid it from someone who had meant so much to me just to watch them walk out on me. It hurt so much.

So I did what I was used to, what I shall probably always do. Run.

Pants escaped my lips, I knew I had to get out of there, I just couldn't stand seeing that look in his eye, the look of confusion, betrayal. I snarled at the thought, how could he be feeling betrayed, wasn't it me who was the one who left me cold and alone.

Then it hit me, like a ton of bricks slapping me in the face, knocking me out into oblivion.

It was my fault.

I hurt him.

I caused him all this pain,

I was the one who made him not trust in love again.

I managed to make my way pass the church, not even bothering to look back at it. I only had one goal at the moment I wanted to leave and never let them see me again. I wanted out, and that's exactly what I was going to do. I was going to make them forget all about Allen Walker, make them think I was just a mere memory from them. It was the best idea I could do.

Everything about me was going to change, I was no longer going to be some sad person who didn't know who he was. I wasn't going to let anyone ever see me cry again. I would cry by myself if I needed to. I was going to change, and finally feel like I was free from my own emotions. From myself, it was the only thing I could do and god dammit I was going to do it right.

Of course I was going to need help, and as of now.. I only trusted one person. Road. But she was with them, and I wasn't sure if they.. Well meaning Lavi was still there. I wanted to never see him again, I wanted to make sure that in his heart, and in mine that we were dead to each other.

I sighed quietly, why did this feel so unreal, was it a typical dream-nightmare? I shook my head, my heart was just being foolish, that was all and I had to not let it get to me.

"Why is he always running?"

"He's afraid of you, of what you do to him, and how you make him feel."

Lavi turned to see the tanned female, "I would have thought you followed him by now." Road shook her head, faintly smiling, "He doesn't trust me anymore. Seeing that we are now on speaking terms."

"Why would you give him up? He's a great person, someone who has a lot to offer. So why exactly would you do that?"

Road just shrugged, "Why do you care? You did the same exact thing as I did right? You betrayed him, broke him down made him the way he is, and made him hate you. So why exactly do you even care?"

Lavi stood there, not really knowing how to answer, "He's a good kid I suppose."

Road just laughed, "Not how he's been acting lately, but I will admit, he has something useful within him.""What is that?"

"He knows how to trust people to easily, letting people like me, or even worse people get inside. He's to gullible. It's kind of funny how he let me just right in, taking your place, but he just wanted someone to care for since you decided to leave him high and dry."

Lavi snarled, "How could he just be friend a horrible person like you, after everything he's done for you for you to just think so low of him. Watch girly, I will make he see what kind of person you are."

Road just laughed, "Good luck with that rabbit. But hurry up boy, you never know what Allen could be doing right at this moment."

Lavi's eyes widened as he realized what the tanned girl had meant, he raced out of the room, Road couldn't be right about it this time, Allen was on suicide watch wasn't he… but it didn't seem to phase him before.

Lavi ran, not sure where Allen would be but he wanted to make sure he was okay, even though he didn't understand why he cared, "It's just because I don't want to be guilty, over him doing something stupid like that because of me." Lavi had repeated to himself, over and over making sure to believe that was the truth and to hide the fact that he maybe.. Perhaps even a little bit had cared for the white haired.

A/N: I actually wanted to write this soon because of some weird dream I had x.x and its to awkward to tell anyone xD (the dream is not this chapter) but it just helped write it out :D what exactly do dreams mean? ): Review and until then

-love WTW