A/N: Another chapter of LYL. This chapter wasn't supposed to be like this actually.. it was purely typed on raw emotion last night so it completely changed how it was supposed to be written out but I do enjoy this more than the original chapter and here is a little back story about it:

see the girl who is taking the role of Lavi's girlfriend, she is taking the role of both the people who were crushing on him at the time, though the girl didn't like me and I honestly didnt know why but i didn't like the guy cause he was a douche, but this never happened in person so~ i wanted to make something interesting.

I wrote this because i have been 'writing' a story on my iphone, for about two weeks already, and the chapter isn't even done and fairy tale fantasy is being on hold for a while cause i can't do it at the moment but don't get me wrong I am going to write it soon but as I was saying, I was backtracking on a couple of years ago and I was reading my old formspring questions and it made me angry at myself..and helped inspire writing this chapter. It will come to an end soon.

any spelling mistakes forgive me, review if you'd like.

My eyes had widened since I had to once more open my big mouth, I didn't even want to look at him, I was such an idiot and now he was going to tell everyone about poor orphaned Allen.

Though I'll admit, it was nice being in his arms again, even though he was pittying me from day one, I didn't care, my heart was pounding and the way he held me so protectively I couldn't help but not give a rat's ass what the reason was or who the hell was looking.

It was like old times and Lavi was the one holding me and only me, not his silly little girlfriend who didn't even deserve him or someone else who was crushing on him from afar, it was me and we both knew that it was me who fit perfectly in his arms.

Though the caring moment had to come to an end, we both knew and I was the one who pulled away first, I had to seem like the one who didn't care, didn't want anything to do with him but we knew it wasn't true.

"Sorry." He muttered sheepishly, looking any where but at me, I was going to try and make a run for it and I assumed he knew my stance from far to many stunts I had pulled before so his hand was on my wrist, holding it tightly, but not to tightly enough to leave a bruise (what? my skin is very delicate and bruises easily!)

"Don't run Allen, we both are exhausted, and by the looks of the bags under your eyes.." He began, as I stood there uneasy, feeling as if he was going to tell my whole story just by one glance, "You can't afford to run away anymore."

I looked down, defeated, not even wanting to look at him or anyone else again as he continued observing me. "Tell me something spr- Allen, when was the last time you had a good, relaxing sleep?"

I looked up at him, droopy eyelids and smiled, "Even as an asshole, you still care hmm?" I shook my head running a hand through the white locks I've become so fixated on, "Don't worry I slept perfectly fine last night and will tonight as well."

His grip tightened, accidentally I'm sure, "Don't lie to me Allen, for fuck's sake! I know you when you lie, just like you know when I lie. Now tell me the truth."

Wincing only a bit I sighed once more, "Alright alright, don't get your panties in a knott," I grinned slightly, "I haven't slept well in a couple of weeks, happy?"

He just shook his head, so I took it upon myself to continue, "I don't see why you want to know the truth if it hurts you so badly, I mean I'd rather be told a lie than let someone hurt me knowing it was the truth."

Now it was his turn to smile, a bitter one at that, "Ah I remember hearing that from you a long time ago, saying that's exactly what I was feeling, but Allen wasn't it you, who wanted me to still love you, even though we both knew we were only hurting ourselves."

I stood, only taking in small breathes, trying so hard to hold in my anger as I pulled my hand away from him, though he didn't accept it at first, a couple more tugs and he let me go.

"Ah, so I am getting somewhere aren't I?"

I kept quiet, bidding my time as I looked at his pocket, noticing the tune of his cell phone ringing.

Our eyes met once more as I smirked, "Might want to get that, hm? Might be mummy or daddy or even your lil' girlfriend who wants to spend time with her boyfriend."

Even though I was feeling smug, it hurt, hell it burned another hole into my heart, having to talk about his girlfriend like that when we knew he was just using her to stay away from me.

I almost felt bad for her, thinking that he truly had feelings for her, though all our friends knew that his heart belonged to someone who didn't even deserve it.

He bit down on his lip harder before taking out his phone, looking at the caller i.d, I just knew it was her, telling by the pained look in his eyes as he sighed quietly. "Hold on sprout, I am going to answer this, but.. I don't want you to leave."

Before I can even say anything he answers the phone, staring at me as I cross my arms over my chest groaning quietly, mouthing to him. Oh yeah, take your time!

He glared at me, making me keep my mouth shut, "Lavi where are you? I've asked everyone and no one seems to know where you are at!" I could just hear the girliness seething out of the phone as I give him the 'you're-really-dating-THAT-kind-of-girl' look.

He ignores the look, "Oh..? Yeah sorry, I'm with.." he looks at me, as if I'm some sort of secret or something, "I'm with Allen right now."

"oh..." you can almost hear the worry in her voice, "Are you okay? He hasn't hurt you or anything has he? or he hasn't tried to... you know?"

I hiss, "OH right! Cause that's all I'm know for? Trying to fucking kill myself, you know I have other good qualities too!" I shout knowing very well that she probably heard my outburst.

She squeaked on the phone, "Tell him I didn't mean it.. I am just worried for you.. both of you."

I rolled my eyes, "Its alright sweetcakes, I know you only give a rats ass about Lavi, since I don't even know you."

Lavi put his hand to his phone and glared at me once more, "Can you stop giving my girlfriend a hard time?"

I bit back a laugh, "Oh I'm sorry, why don't you just go run back to the little princess and make her feel all better."

"Lavi... please let me talk to Allen.."

He hesitated while giving me the phone, "Don't be a dick to her."

"I'm always on my best behavior." I muttered placing the phone to my ear, "What is it sweetcakes?"

She whispered into the phone, "Please move away from Lavi this needs to be a me and you conversation."

I looked at Lavi as he rocked on the heels of his feet, "Hey you mind if me and your little buttercup speak more in private? She wants to talk to me."

He grimaces before sitting on the floor, "Go for it, she'll just yell at me if she doesn't get her way."

I just smirk, "Almost like you're dating a chick version of me." I muse before walking a couple of feet away from the sitting red-head.

oOo

"Alright buttercup, drop the sweet act what's really going on?"

She chuckled on the other end of the line, "I knew you could see beneath the mask, but then I wouldn't have guessed it from the master of masks himself."

I just rolled my eyes, even though it was pointless, "Gee I'm not sure if I should take that as a compliment or not."

"I don't like you Allen Walker, you've had Lavi's attention ever since we started dating and it ends now, and your little suicidal stunts will only last for so long."

I chuckled at that, "Of course your majesty, but you must know something." I paused for dramatic effect, "Think of the way Lavi looks at you, and how he chases after me.. and think before you open that pretty little trap of yours."

I heard her about to rebuttle as I nearly slammed the cell phone shut, trying to regain my posture, though I know Lavi was watching me the whole time, reading my lips and knowing exactly what I was saying.

I walked back to him and smiled sweetly, "Before you tell me anything of what I said to your little princess please, listen to the recording when you get back home and see who the real asshole is."

He held out his hand as I placed the phone in it, letting my hand linger for a moment before pulling away, "You couldn't let me just have this, let me be happy for once?" He said softly, as if he was defeated, broken, once and for all.

I sighed looking at him and giving him a sad smile, "I would have given you the world baby."

I walked away from him, he didn't bother holding onto me, letting disappointment wash over me as I shivered walking behind the store and placing myself down, Road would probably find me here, bring me my bag and something to eat, all I really had to do was wait.

Waiting was what I was good at after all, but this time I wondered to myself,

How long would I have to wait this time?

How long until I was saved?