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Amelia's POV

I was at my way home after a forty hour shift. I was really tired and exhausted. I just wanted to be in my bed and forget everything around me. Everything went wrong. Owen and I are ignoring each other again and Meredith and I argued continuously. Only today I have accused her that she took every chance from me for saying goodbye to Derek. I was so angry that I told her that she has just let him die and never gave me a chance to save him or to say goodbye. I knew that it is unfair to reproach to her, but I couldn't do anything else. I was asking myself everyday what would have happened if Meredith would have called me, if she would have given me the chance to make some tests. Deep in my heard I knew that I wouldn't have been able to save him but this doesn't change the fact that I was deadly furious, sad and hurt. Every man that I have ever loved has died. My Dad, Ryan, my baby, my brother, they were all dead. I just couldn't lose anyone else, I couldn't bear much more. That´s also the reason why I couldn't accept my feelings for Owen. I was an angel of death and he doesn't deserve to die. I knew that this was selfish but I just wanted to protect myself because if he would also die I just wouldn't be able to survive this. I was just so broken. I couldn't accept the grief one more time. I wasn't even on Derek's funeral because if I would have been there, his death would have become reality and the grief would have gained the upper hand and I would probably have started to take drugs again, but I didn't want to be like this ever again. I didn't want to take drugs again and almost kill myself. I just wanted to live. I want to be happy just once in my life, but this would ever be denied to me.

I parked my car offside so Meredith could drive away at any time but especially because I wasn't able to park on Derek´s parking place. It would feel so wrong if my car would stand on the place where his car always were, the car in which he had the accident., the car which has claimed his death or which was at least the beginning of the events that have finally claimed his death. That was just so wrong.

I shook myself and set aside all of my thoughts which had at least something to do with Derek. I got out of my car and locked it up. When I went to the house I already had a bad feeling. There was a foreign car parking in front of the house, seems that someone visited Meredith. Maybe they were some friends which she has made while she was on whatever place she was, during her pregnancy. I put the bad feeling away and went to the front yard. Just before I reach the front yard a man and a woman approached me.

"You cannot get in there. You are not allowed to enter this property." The woman told me. What she said didn't bother me pretty much and I tried to ignore her but she held me on my arm.

"Listen to me. I'm living here. This house is my sister-in-law's. It is, but not really, my house. It's my home since almost two years." I yelled. I removed my arm or at least I tried to because she just held on to me tighter. "Just let me go, you stupid woman." I said quieter.

Now the man butted in and suggested the woman to release my arm, but I didn't care about this. I braced myself and tried to get my arm back and this time I managed to get it back. The woman screamed "Ow!" and I passed by this two strange people without so much as looking at them one more time.

I went straight to the front door, it was open and Meredith and Ellis were outside. "Why are you standing outside?" I asked her, really surprised. Her key was lying on the ground and I picked it up. Something had clearly happened since I have seen Meredith last time. She was totally frozen. She didn't answer my question and I wasn't even sure if she has even heard what I said. She was just shocked and frozen. I followed her gaze and froze, too. Right there stood my supposed to be dead brother, Derek.

"Derek!" I exclaimed. He was alive. He was standing right in front of me although it was impossible.

Then the strange woman from before came and said, "Your subletters are really impolite. They are like a vermin. These kids will ruin the whole house. It is the right time to sell the house, Honey." She went to Derek and kissed him. "Don´t stare at him." she then snapped to Meredith and me.

"Meredith!" I said and came to her and took my little niece. I placed my other hand on her back and continued, "Let's go inside before you a catch cold." Meredith awakened from her shock and nodded. It looked like Bailey and Zola were already in the house which was good because they shouldn't witness this situation. Before we went inside I asked the four people, "Would you like to come inside, too?"

We had to resolve this situation. I wanted to know why Derek was alive and who this woman next to him was. I wanted to know why he has never come back earlier. I had so many questions and I was sure that Meredith would have had as many if not more. The woman accepted and they followed us inside. I could hear Zola and Bailey playing in Zola's room. They laughed and obviously having fun. I just hoped that they would stay there for a few more time because this wasn't the way how they should learn about their father being alive.

I set Ellis to her baby chair and pulled off my jacket. Then I hung it up just like I did it with Meredith's jacket. She hasn't said a word since I arrived here. She was just shocked and frozen. Slowly I stared to worry about her, but then I thought about how I would react if Ryan would suddenly stand right in front of me. I would have probably reacted in the same way and I could somehow understand Meredith. "Please take a seat." I said to them and pointed to the couch.

The four took a seat and Meredith and I sat opposite to them into the armchairs. Meredith had lifted up Ellis and carried her in her arms.

"So, what´s going on here?" I asked into the circle. I looked at everyone. The four strange people or at least three looked at each other and Meredith was focused on Ellis or at least faked it.

"You are living in my husband´s house without paying any rents. That is what´s going on here." the woman broke the silence.

"I live at your husband's house?" was the first thing that Meredith has said since I went home.

"Yes. I am Dr. Renee Collier-Shepherd and this is my husband Dr. Derek Shepherd." she introduced herself and Derek.

"Your husband?" Meredith gasped. I couldn't believe my ears.

"You are not her husband. You are Meredith's husband." I said to Derek. He didn't say anything. He only stared at the floor. It was totally clear for everyone that this situation was scary for him. He was totally silent and no one else said anything.

The other man then broke the silence, "I think that I should go. I will send you my opinion per post in the few next weeks." He stood up, said goodbye and went away. Now it was just the five of us or seven, if we count Ellis and Zola and Bailey, who were playing next door.

"Renee has already told me that there would be some problems with my subletters." said the man who was already there beside Derek. "My name is Paul Walker and I am the lawyer of the Collier family. Dr. Collier has forewarned me that you would do and say everything that you will to be able to still live in the house." the lawyer continued saying.

Meredith's look was one more time turned to Ellis who was quietly sleeping in her mother's arms. "It´s me, your sister Amelia." I said directly to Derek.

"I don´t know you. Stop telling any lies.", was the only thing he said. Derek wimped out. I didn't know what was really going on here. It felt like I was in the wrong film.

Meredith seemed not to be interested, Derek practically disowned me and then there was this woman, which was allegedly Derek's wife, and this lawyer who accused us to say everything so that we could still live in this house.

Everything here was a bad joke, a bad dream, of which I would immediately want to wake up from.