I'm sorry, that this update comes so late, but before I went on holidays I had no time to write and after it I also had no time and I also needed some time to think how this story should continue!

But now! Here is the next chapter and I am so excited to tell you that this is the longest chapter I have ever written (at this story)! XD

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Meredith's POV

What? Where was I? What was going on?

"Hello? Derek? I'm still fine!" I told him, but it seemed like he couldn't hear me. I tried it once again, but he really couldn't hear me. He was just sitting there and crying. I followed his line of gaze and froze, if I was still able to freeze, because I was lying there, well, my body was lying there, connected to numerous instruments.

What had happened?

Suddenly, the door opened and a young, red haired doctor stepped inside. I recognize this woman but I wasn't able to remember her. Suddenly, I recalled from where I knew her. I was in the hospital where Derek was treated after his accident. I ended up with this idiots who had killed him back then. Panic stirred me. I didn't want to die and much less here and like this. I didn't want the same that happened to Derek would happen to me. Also, if they were able to bring him back somehow, which wasn't the profit of this doctors here, I was pretty sure that this wouldn't work twice. Luckily Derek was here. He would know what to do, hopefully.

The doctor looked at my body and then she looked again at Derek.

"Are there any news? Did you find a fitting donor?" he asked.

"Unfortunately not. The tests are still running, but we will give her medication that should encourage her own blood production." she answered.

Derek looked really upset. I would very much like to hug him now and tell him that everything will be fine, but unfortunately I wasn't able to do that, because I… Yes, what was I? A ghost? A soul, that wasn't able to go into the light yet because her body was still not totally dead?

I shook my head. "Don't think about this now, Meredith. It doesn't matter what you are right now. You should better think how you and your body will become one again." I told myself. "Great, Meredith. Now you are talking to yourself." I told myself.

Before I would get lost in a fight with myself said Derek something, "Could you please try to reach Dr. Hunt from Grey Sloan Memorial Hospital? Maybe he has some more ideas."

Which ideas should Owen have? And for what do they need those ideas? Damn it! What was happening here?

"Of course. We will do everything so Dr. Grey will recover," the red-haired doctor answered. She checked some data and then she went away.

Now Derek and I were alone again. I stood right beside Derek and placed a hand on his shoulder, but of course he didn't feel it. He had one of my body's hands in his hands and his face was buried in his own hands.

"Why? Why like this?" he asked again and again.

Slowly, he lifted his head. I sat down between Derek and my body at the edge of the bed. Tears were making their way down Derek's cheeks. He looked so frantic and angry at the same time. I felt so bad for him. I just hoped that all this would have an end soon – a good end.

I didn't know how long we were sitting like this. It got already dark outside as suddenly the door opened and Callie and Amelia stepped inside.

"What, what are you both doing here?" Derek asked surprised.

As fast as possible he wiped away the tears at his face. But you could still see that he had cried because his eyes were already red and swollen.

"Owen told us what's going on and he asked us to come here." Callie answered. "I'll have a look at Meredith's leg and during this, Amelia will stay with you." she continued.

"Oh and we have blood!" Amelia said and raised a cooling box.

"You have blood? Thank god!" Derek said relieved. "Those idiots there are refusing to get tested." he continued and pointed at the crowed of grumpy hospital stuff in the floor.

"Excuse me, you cannot just go inside this room!" a doctor who just came stormed into Meredith's room said. "I have already told you that you are not allowed to go into this room!" he continued really angry.

I looked both at Callie and Amelia.

"You don't want to know the story." Amelia said.

Callie said, "Later."

"It is okay that they are here, Doctor. This is my sister and this is a really close friend of the family. They are doctors just like my wife and I are and they are here to get us off the hook." Derek came around now.

I gazed in amazement at the spectacle. That was my family. I can always count on them no matter what happens or what would happen –they would be there for me.

"Here, this is Meredith's blood type." Amelia said and handed the box to the doctor. "And no, we didn't steal it. We have the permission from our Chief of Surgery, Dr. Hunt." Amelia continued and took a sheet of paper out of her bag and showed it to the man.

As she had portend his glance right, the man ripped the sheet of paper out of her hand and studied it strictly. "It seems like that the paper is real. Which of you is Dr. Torres?" he asked after he had studied the paper enough.

"I am Dr. Torres," Callie answered.

"Please follow me." the doctor said then.

"And what is with the blood?" Amelia asked before they could leave the room.

"As you are a doctor yourself you could give the patient the infusion." the doctor answered and thrusted the box back into Amelia's hand. Then he went outside followed by Callie who shrugged with her shoulder as an excuse.

The moment Callie and this grumpy, wanna-be-doctor were outside the units suddenly started to squeak. Suddenly, everything around me got unsteady and everything got black around me and I started to fall. I fell and fell and fell deeper and deeper.

At some point, I slumped hard somewhere.

"Is she dead?" someone asked next to me.

"No you imbecile. Either her soul or her body is dead, at least not yet." a commanding voice answered.

The voice made my flesh crawl and gave me a chill. I had hoped that I would never hear this voice again. Slowly, I opened my eyes. A bunch of people were bent over me. I blinked a few times and then I recognized them.

"She is awake!" a young, fresh and extremely friendly female voice said.

It was Lexie. Next to her was Eileen standing. Opposite of Lexie was the owner of the commanding voice, my mother, the one and only Ellis Grey. Next to her, there was George, who was the one that got bowled out by her. And next to George, there were Denny and the guy from the bomb squad. From somewhere, I heard someone whimpering and as early as I had recognized this noise, Doc was by my side and licked across my whole face.

Slowly, I stand up.

"What am I doing here? And what are you doing here?" I asked them confused.

"You are here because you are almost dead." Denny answered me with a calm voice.

"Meredith, you cannot give up. You must continue fighting. The world needs you. Derek needs you." George added.

"You have just find him again." Lexie cut in.

"How? From where do you know this?" I asked confused and surprised.

"Meredith, we know all what happens in the lives of all those people who we have known. We are with you and we protect you." Denny explained to me. I was sitting again and stroking Doc. Suddenly, a white beam of light came. A person emerged in it.

"Mark, there you are. Finally!" Lexie said with a sigh of relief.

"As soon as possible, I have aborted my mission and came here." he said. He sat down at a chair who suddenly appeared from nowhere. "Man, man. You cannot represent what is happening down at the earth. Derek is lashing out and he tries to take charge and Amelia is yelling at him all the time that he should calm down and get out of the room. And between all this Callie, a man and the red head are trying to stabilize Meredith. This is the purest chaos, I tell you." Mark said exhausted.

"What?" I asked scared.

"Don't worry, it'll blur out again." Mark tried to calm me down when he noticed I was there.

"Which mission are you talking about?" I asked Mark after a little break. I stood up again.

"Mark had the mission to watch and protect your husband." My mother explained to me. It was the first time that she had said something directly to me since I was here. It felt strange. It was different.

"Could you please leave us alone for a few minutes?" she asked as she saw me stare. The others hugged me and then one after another disappeared in white beam of light.

Now only my mother and I were there. In front of us a couch appeared and we both sat down.

"Meredith, my girl. My marvelous daughter. I'm so sorry for everything I have done to you." she started talking after a moment of silence. "Forget everything that I have ever said to you. You are not ordinary. No, absolutely not. You are the most extraordinary woman I have ever seen. You have accomplished what I wasn't able to do. You came back and you are raising your kids alone. Every day, you are saving lives and giving the love to your kids that they have deserved and that they need. You are a marvelous doctor and an extraordinary mother. Yes, your life is not like what I have always dreamed that it would be one day, but that doesn't matter because it is your life." she said full of love.

I have never seen my mother like this before. She was so sensitive and nice. I must be dreaming. I pinched my arm. She started to laugh and said, "It's not a dream. And don't believe that I would say something like this ever to you again." Now I started to laugh but she laughed with me. This was a whole new Ellis that I just got to know. I liked this side of my mother a lot.

"When you named your daughter after me –that was so beautiful. I know that I have never given you much love, but something must have gotten caught." she said happily.

Then, she suddenly got serious again. "Meredith, you cannot make the same mistake that I have made back then. Fight and go back to life. It is still not too late. It is on you. Go back to your husband and your kids. You need to become a happy family." she said and hugged me. "And now go. And please tell Maggie that I love her and that I'm sorry for giving her away." she said and then released me.

Suddenly, four people in white clothes emerged in front of me. "We will accompany you." they chorused. The four people were Lexie, Mark, Eileen and George. They took my hands and circled. The others also came and winked together with my mother instead of saying goodbye.

The five of us came to a white beam of light. "If you go through it and you wish from your heart that you want to go back to life then the light will bring you there." Lexie explained to me. "We will see you back down. And never forget that we love you and will always be by your side." Eileen said and then they were gone.

I looked around me. I was in a hospital corridor. Everything was sterile and just like how it was in a hospital. But one thing didn't fit. It was so silent and deserted. Only the light in front of me lightened the dark corridor. Slowly, I went a few steps to the light. At first, it was a little ball out of light that was flying in the room, but with every step that I got closer to the light, I saw the inside of the ball, something moved. All the people that I have loved so much and that where dead now, all the people that I have recently seen were inside.

"Meredith, come to us. Don't be afraid." the called in a loud chorus of voices.

That must be the way to heaven, I thought. But I didn't want to go to heaven –not now.

Slowly, I got closer. I stopped as soon as I was standing directly in front of the ball. I stretched one of my fingers out and touched the ball in awe. He disappeared in the white beam of light.

Suddenly, the ball got bigger and bigger. Voices danced around me and said, "Don't be afraid, Meredith. Soon it will be over." But I didn't want to go to heaven. I didn't want to die, not now at least.

The only thing I could think about was Derek. I thought about the future which we could have. I thought about my kids who needed me, about my sisters Maggie and Amelia, about Cristina and Alex who were my persons and I thought about all my friends. I wasn't ready to leave them now. That wasn't working.

And then the pain hit me. "Ah!" I cried loud.

"Calm down, Meredith." Lexie said, who was suddenly with a hand lying on my shoulder standing next to me.

"You made it." George said.

"We will always protect you." Mark added and then they were gone.

My body was suddenly so heavy and hard.

"She is back." someone faraway said.

Slowly, I got back to life and opened my eyes. My eyes directly looked at a pair of beautiful, sparkling, blue eyes. A smile conjured on my lips. I made it. I was living. And nothing would happen now to me. Everything that would happen now would of course be painful but in comparison to what I had gotten through and especially what had just happened it would be nothing.

"I love you." I said silently and with a hoarse voice to Derek.

"I love you too." he answered and he started to cry.

Tears were making their way down his cheeks and trickled onto my mouth. I forgot everything –all my problems, all my worries –for the moment. Yes, also my pain became blurred. Now, in this moment, there were only Derek and I and our love for each other.