AUTHOR'S NOTE:

Thank you guys so much for reading my fanfic! First, I wanted to write from Alex' POV only, but I think it will be easier and more fun to read if I also write from Piper's POV. Hope you guys like it, please leave a comment or something like that!

DISCLAIMER: I do not own any of the characters!

PIPER'S POV

When Alex slammed the door behind her, I reached for my phone to call Polly. Polly was my best friend since kindergarten, she always had some advice.

"Hey Pol"
"Pipes! What's going on?"
"It's Alex.. she has been acting so weird lately, but she won't tell what it is. I am scared she is using drugs again"
"Have you called Nicky yet? Nicky has way more knowledge of this things than we do, Pipes. If she is using again, she really needs help. Why do you think she is?"
"Because.. she disappears a lot lately. Sometimes even in the middel of the night. She doesn't eat and we haven't had sex in two weeks"
"Since -"

I didn't want her to say it out loud, so I interrupted Polly.

"Yes. But please don't say it out loud, okay? It's a horrible thing"
"I know, Pipes. I know. You really have to message Nicky, she knows how these things go"
"Should I ask Alex for permission? I mean, she told me today she didn't want me to contact Nicky about this. I don't want to be the bad guy, Pol"
"Pipes, you are not the bad guy if you are trying to help her. She will come around eventually. I have to go now, I'm really sorry. Finn is crying and I think I need to feed him."

I chuckle.

"Well, good luck with your little man there. Thanks, Pol. I'm going to contact Nicky"
"Keep me updated, okay?"
"Okay. Bye"
"Bye Pipes"

I hang up and while thinking about what to send to Nicky, I make some lemonade for myself. I emit a deep sigh, but reach for my phone again.

Piper: Nick, there is something going on with Al.

I know I don't have to say what exactly. She knows.
I hessitate for a second, but send the message anyway. It's not long before I receive an answer.

Nicky: Shit. Will step by tonight at 8. OK?

Piper: Hope she is home by then.

Nicky: She better be.

Piper: See you tonight.

Nicky: Don't worry, kid. I will talk with her. See ya.

I feel a little relieved. Nicky knows how to handle these things.

ALEX' POV

When I reach the coffeecorner, Ayden is already there. He is sitting at the table in the corner. I pull my shirt right and walk towards him.
He looks up when I pull the chair in front of him to sit down.

"Well, look who is here already. Do you want something?"

I am a little confused. I'm here because I want something, right?

"I mean, something like coffe, Alex. Jesus Christ."
"Oh. No, it's fine. Just let's get this over with"

I don't feel comfortable in this place. I just want my stuff and go somewhere alone.

"Are you in a hurry?" He is teasing me.
"Yes. So if you don't give me this shit right now, I am going and find someone else who doesn't like to chat all the time. I'm here for bussiness Ayden, not for you"

He raises his hands. "Sorry, sorry. Here, your normal packet" he winks while handing me a little bag.
I roll my eyes and put the stuff in my pocket.
"Here" I hand him the money and stand up. My hands are shaking and although I really don't want to do it here, I can't wait any longer.
"I'm going to the.. bathroom" I try to keep my voice normal, but it's hard.
"Yeah, sure. Enjoy. See you next time, Alex" he slaps my ass and grins.
I walk to the bathroom as fast as I can.

As soon as the heroin goes in my body, I feel relieved. A flash runs through my body.
I lean my head against the wall, while removing the belt from my upper-arm. This was the last time. Now I won't buy heroin or any other drugs anymore. I try to convince myself the most, I guess.
When I look at my phone, it's already 5 in the evening. I have a message from Piper.

Piper: Please be home at 8, okay?

I try to clear my mind. Didn't I say I would be home late? Why would I be home at 8 already? The heroin will still be working by then. That's only within three hours.
My hands are still shaking so I decide to keep it short.

Alex: Why?

It doesn't take long for Piper to answer.

Piper: Because we need to talk, Al. I heart you..

I sigh. Talking isn't really my thing, especially not when it's about me. I prefer fucking. I chuckle and type back.

Alex: I prefer fucking. I you promise me to fuck me tonight, I will be home at 8.

I love autocorrection. I am starting to feel a little numb. All my feelings are sled to the background and I now I know again why I use heroin again. This feeling is amazing. The rush at first and then nothing really matters anymore. I can't even bother me that Piper most probably knows about my drug use. My phone rings again.

Piper: See you tonight at 8.

Piper: I heart you, Al.

Alex: I heart you too, Pipes.

I let my phone slide in the pocket of my jeans again and let myself slide to the ground. There is nothing to feel anymore. Nothing really matters.
Slowly, my eyes close and dreams come and go. They are weird, like hallucinations. But I don't mind.

PIPER'S POV

I hear a knock on the door and open it. It's Nicky.

"Chapman! Glad to see you again"

A wild haired, blond woman stands in front of my. I haven't seen her in a while but she didn't change a bit.

"Well, kid, since you kinda asked me to come here.. Are you just going to stand there or can I come in?" she snaps me out of my thoughts.
"Sorry! Come in!" I open the door and let her walk past me.
"Is Vause home already?" she asks while she flops on the couch.
I shake my head. "No. I did send her a text she had to be here at 8 and she said she would, but she isn't here yet"
Nicky sighs. "Fucking Vause"
I chuckle. Nicky is always so straight forward.
"Well, do you have something to drink for my while waiting, kid?" she lays her legs on the couch and puts on the TV.
"Yeah, sure. I will get you someting"
"Great"

ALEX' POV

I wake up from a loud noise. Someone is banging at a door. I groan and open my eyes. First I'm confused, where the hell am I?
"Shit" I whisper. I'm still in the bathroom of the coffeecorner.
There is still someone banging on the door.
"FUCK OFF" I shout, while helping myself up.
"Miss, are you okay? You have been in here for a long time, someone warned me" It's a soft, female voice. She is nervous, I guess.
"Yes I'm okay. Just go away, I will be out of here in a minute"
"Okay miss. Just tell me if you need something"
I wait till I am sure she is out of the bathroom, before opening the door. I look horrible. Just when I want to start washing my face, my phone rings. A little confused I reach for it in my pocket.

PIPES

Shit. I look at the clock on my phonescreen: 21.18. "FUCK" I put my phone in my pocket again, without answering Piper. I run out of the bathroom, through the bar. Some people are staring at me, especially the girl behind the bar. I guess she was the girl who was banging on the door. I don't even care. I'm more than one hour late and I don't think Piper is going to like the excuse that I was in a trafic jam. Without a car.

When I open the door from our appartment I start rambling excuses. "Sorry, Pipes. I'm really sorry, I forgot the time and -" I stop when I see them sitting on the couch. Piper and Nicky.
"What the fuck is this, Piper? What the fuck is this?" I raise my voice. Piper just looks at me. She tries to keep her face straight, but I can see she is sad. I don't want to do this and I turn around. Just when I want to walk out of the door again, I hear Nicky's voice.
"Vause, don't you dare walk out of that door kid. We have been waiting for a long time and now we are going to talk"
I sigh and turn around again.
"I don't want to talk. There is nothing to talk about, Nichols. I am fine, really"
"You have been using again, haven't you?"
I look at my feet. I can't lie to those two people. Piper and Nicky are the only two people who I can't lie to.
"Look at me, Alex. Have you been using again?"
I shrug.
"Is that a yes? Speak up, kid"
"Yes" My voice cracked for a bit, but they both heard me.

Nicky curses and Piper starts crying.

Great job, Alex. You are such a fuckup.