Different Turn Of Events
Chapter 7

Rose
Today is the first day of Christmas break and I am so relieved. The work at school has been piling up and I need a break from it before I go insane. I also need a little break from my school friends. They keep trying to set me up with people and get me to go to parties with them and get drunk… I'm still not ready for all of that and I don't want to be set up with anyone because of Dimitri. Since Dimitri's drop in visit a few months ago we've been keeping in touch like he promised. We send a couple telegrams a week to each other and when he gets the chance he sends me the odd email too. He fills me in on Lissa and my other friends at school who seem to be doing really well and it sounds like I'm pretty much forgotten about there. Maybe that's a good thing. I feel sad that my friends, including Lissa, don't really mention me but I need to get on with my life and they need to get on with theirs.

Speaking of getting on with my life, I'm on schedule to graduate with the rest of my class in a few months time and I've been filling out college applications like crazy. I've decided that I want to be a police detective and I think I would be a really good one. When I was at St Vlads I was training to be a Guardian and in the human world that's what the police do… sort of. I'm going to catch the bad guys and put the Jesse Zeklos' of this world away. Dimitri seemed surprised but really supportive of my decision to become a police officer. He told me he's glad all of them training hours didn't go to waste after all. I haven't decided how far I want to go in the police force but I do know I want to at least make detective and then I guess I'll see where I go from there. I was thinking about working with a special unit that deal with rapes and things like that but I think it might be too close to home. I don't think I could keep my cool around suspects.

I'll be getting some real space this weekend as my mom has to work and is going away with her charge for the weekend and coming home the Monday evening. I'm going to have the place to myself for a whole weekend and I cannot wait. I'm not even doing anything exciting like having a party or anything but it's just going to be nice for me to have some real space from people. My mom still treats me like this victim who can't handle things. I know she's my mom and she's just looking out for me but she's overbearing and I think she's trying to make up for lost time. She dumped me at St Vlads the second she could and she never visited or anything. I used to spend the holidays with Lissa's family.

Maybe she's finally realised that she should have done more as a mother and is trying to make up for it now… I don't know but space is definitely what I need right now. We don't really talk much. She talks at me a lot but we don't have a two way conversation. Last week we had an argument. A bad one. She was ready to drive up to St Vlads and tell Kirova what really happened with Jesse and then she wanted to go and see his parents. I know she's a person who follows the rules and everything but I managed to calm her down and talk her out of it in the end. She tried to make me feel bad and said if he did it to anyone else it would be my fault because I kept it to myself. We haven't spoken since but we have argued a lot. To be honest I think this is more about her conscience then anything else.

Sometimes I think I'm a little too hard on my mom but then I think about everything from the past. I know they say you should let go of your past and all that but it had a bigger impact on me then I think anyone believes. I was literally abandoned by her and my father clearly didn't want to know… neither of my parents really had the time for me and I had some anger issues because of that. I know a lot of Dhampir children go through the same or similar things but everyone reacts to things differently. I don't think Mason is to upset he doesn't see his father and he is raised by a single mother who also dropped him at the academy as soon as possible. He's forgiven her and the two of them are actually quite close now. I envy Moroi because they don't have to put up with half this shit.

Moroi get to be raised by both their parents, they don't have to train at school to become bodyguards… they can do whatever they want. They can marry whoever they want and have children with the person they love. They get it so much easier then us Dhampir and sometimes back in the day when Lissa would complain about some argument she had with her parents or how her brother was so overprotective or if her daddy didn't give her what she wanted. Of course things are different now and she won't ever see her parents or brother again. I'm lucky my mother is still alive and I can see her most days, I guess no one has a perfect life. Not even a princess.

"Rose, are you sure you'll be ok this weekend?" My mom asked as I walked into the living room. She was sitting on the sofa and flipping through a magazine.

"I'll survive" I replied and sat down opposite her "I just don't want a phone call on Monday telling me you're extending your trip" I told her.

"I promise I'll be home Monday night" She said with a smile.

"Good" I replied.

"Have you heard from Dimitri this week?" She asked.

"Yeah he wrote the other day. It seems that I'm just a distant memory at the academy. Even Lissa has moved on and she doesn't really mention me or anything anymore" I told her sadly.

"I thought that's what you wanted" She said.

"It was but… she was like my sister and I miss her. I don't know how but she's blocked me so I can't get in her head and see how she is. I'm relying on what Dimitri is telling me to be the truth" I explained.

"I don't think he would lie to you" She told me "I know I'm not on board the Dimitri and Rose relationship train but I want you to know that I have my reasons. I know Dimitri is a nice man and you're an amazing young woman but I don't think you two are suited for one another" She said.

"Well you clearly weren't suited with my dad… whoever he is… so let me and Dimitri work things out on our own and if it is a total screw up then fine. You can tell me I was wrong but until then, let me figure it out" I bargained.

"Ok"

"Am I ever going to get his name?" I asked.

"Probably not and trust me when I say that it's for the best" She told me.

"Why?" I questioned.

"He's not a good person" She answered.

"Well he can't be all bad, you did sleep with the man" I argued.

"Rose! I'm not getting into this right now. I've told you that you don't need to know who he is because he is a bad man. He will let you down and he will ruin your life. No good will come from meeting him" She told me firmly.

I knew it was no point arguing with her. We have had this discussion so many times and I keep getting the same answers. Maybe if she told me why he was so bad it would help me understand but she would never tell me. There was never anything else to add apart from 'he's a bad man'. Of course I was thinking of some pretty bad things. Surely it can't be worse then what I'm already thinking.

My mom left a few hours ago and we left on bad terms. We had a huge argument last night that rolled into this morning and she stormed out and I slammed the door behind her. I don't even remember what we were originally arguing about but 15 years of anger came out. I said some things I didn't mean and so did she… I think. Last night I told her I wish she wasn't my mother and she replied with 'I wish I had never given birth to you'. I used to think that she never wanted me when I was little and then hearing her say it just… well it destroyed me. I told her I hated her and slammed my bedroom door in her face. She was banging things around all night. This morning was just as tense and bad as it was last night, well it was probably worse. We didn't argue or even speak.

We just pretended that each other wasn't there. When she walked to the front door she opened her mouth to speak to me but then changed her mind. I was hoping she would say sorry and then I would apologise and everything would be ok-ish between us again. Instead she grabbed her case and walked out the door and I made sure to slam it on her so she knew I was pissed.

After the disastrous morning we had I went back to my bedroom and laid in my bed. Which is where I was now. I hate arguing with my mom, she's the only one I have but we are so similar and we clash because of that. We're both strong and independent women, we say what we feel and we don't back down in any fight or argument until we win.

I heard the door knock and debated on not answering it in case it was someone from school. I didn't feel like socialising. The door knocked again but louder. I groaned and muttered a few curse words before getting out of bed and going to the front door.

"Hello Rose"

I hope you all had an amazing Easter!

I am so sorry for the delay in posting but I've had some computer issues which have thankfully now been fixed but I won't bore you with the details. I hope you enjoyed this chapter, if you haven't already then please do read my other stories. Also please review, favourite and follow my stories and me as well... I love that!

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