The amount of excuses I have prepared for you guys is unreal. But I actually have some pretty good ones for once. Hurricane Irene hit where I live, and knocked out the power for almost a week. I started school again recently and am still working. And my birthday just passed. Needless to say, I've had other things on my mind than this story. I'm not going to stop writing, but I think I've finally admitted to myself that I won't be able to update/ dedicate as much time as I originally planned and wanted to.
However, a chapter that took a while to get up is better than no chapter at all, to me at least. Hope you enjoy this chapter, and again, apologies for the long wait.
Disclaimer: I don't own iCarly.
Freddie POV
I looked from the unconscious body on the ground, to Sam, and then back again.
I don't know what made me act like that, so violent and so angry, but all I knew was I had never hated someone so much than in that moment.
I turned to Sam and shrugged my shoulders. "Well… we should probably start walking back before it gets any later."
She nodded her head but refused to make eye contact. We began walking down the street in silence, and it was killing me.
What had happened? I had never wanted to punch someone in my entire life until five minutes ago. It was so unlike me. And yet, in that moment it was exactly what I needed to do. And looking back, I didn't regret it at all. If the situation presented itself again, I would do the same thing, one hundred times over.
I opened my mouth to say something, but no words came out.
Sam spoke instead. "Thank you, Freddie." She sighed and then looked up at me. Her eyes were shining with tears that I knew she wouldn't let fall. "I really don't know what would have happened if you didn't come…"
"Sam…" I wrapped my arms around her and brought her into a tight embrace. "I'm so sorry for everything I said. I really am. I was such an ass."
She shook her head into my chest. "No, I really deserved it after what I did to you. After everything I've ever done to you."
She was vulnerable after what had just happened. I knew it because if the circumstances had been different, her immediate reaction would be to shove me away. But she accepted the hug.
I pulled away from her and lifted up her chin so she was looking directly into my eyes, and I was staring into hers. "Sam, I had no right to say what I said today, and I'm so sorry. If I could take it back, I would in a second. You need to know that."
She gave me a small smile and we continued walking. I took that as her way of saying she had forgiven me.
"So, Freddie… where'd you learn to throw a punch anyway?" She said in a somewhat serious tone.
"I wish I knew. That could have come in handy in my high school years. But at least now I know I have it in me to knock somebody out." I smiled proudly.
Sam laughed. "I'm proud of you, Benson. You probably learned it from me, anyway."
I chuckled at the truth of the statement, and we continued walking. We eventually reached the dorms. As we got closer to her room, I spoke up.
"Sam.. I don't want things to be weird between us. If you hate me, please tell me right now." I begged.
A huge grin spread up on her face. The one that I had hated hours ago, but was now thankful to be seeing. "Of course I hate you Freddie." She nudged me with her elbow. "But not any differently than I did yesterday."
I shook my head but laughed at the same time. "I wouldn't have it any other way."
Sam POV
"Sam, is everything okay?" My roommate Kayla asked me.
I had been laying on my bed since I got back to my dorm. I hadn't said more than two words to Kayla.
"Mhmm." I mumbled.
"Okay. If you want to talk, I'm here." She sounded concerned.
I nodded my head only to let her know I heard her, and then buried myself deeper into the blankets. I turned to face the wall and stared at the dull paint.
Today was just so weird. So much had happened, and it felt like everything was different than the way it was this morning. And that was probably because it was.
Freddie POV
"Dude, stop pacing. You're freaking me out!" Jake complained.
"Sorry, sorry! I just don't know what to do. I mean I punched someone today." I said.
"So what? It's pretty normal for guys to do stuff like that. Plus, from what you told me, the guy had it coming." Jake tried to reason with me.
"I know." I sighed, feeling more confused than I ever had in my life. "But it's so unlike me. I would never do that."
"Well you did it, so you must have had a pretty good reason." Jake stated.
"It's just when I saw the way he was hurting Sam, it felt like the right thing to do. And I think I'd do it again if I got the chance." I shook my head, trying to clear it.
Jake stood up and grabbed his jacket. "I'm going to meet up with some friends. I know you said you didn't want to come, but if you want to join us text me."
I nodded my head to let him know I heard him, but my mind was still focused on our conversation.
Jake was about to leave, but paused in the doorway. "Listen, Freddie. We just met and everything, so I don't want to overstep any boundaries or make any assumptions… but to me it seems like you really care about this Sam girl."
My opened my mouth to protest, to say something, but no words came. Jake left and shut the door behind him, and I was left speechless and shocked.
To hear someone else say that, and I knew it was true, was a lot for me to take in. Of course I cared about Sam. Deep down, I always knew that.
I just always thought it was in a sisterly way, she was someone who annoyed me but I put up with because she was in my life forever.
My mind flashed to the image of the man forcing himself onto Sam, and restraining her by holding onto her wrists. All the anger came back to me, and I realized if I ever saw that man again I would knock him out all over again.
I finally admitted to myself how much I cared about Sam. I just wasn't sure if it was in the way I always thought it was.
I don't even have an idea when the next chapter will be up. The only thing I can promise you is that it will be up as soon as I have the time to work on it. Your feedback, is as always, appreciated and taken into account. :)