AUTORS NOTES: This took longer than I thought, even though I was almost finished with this chapter.
It might be possible for me to publish two or three chapters in the course of the week.
Fun little fact: this is the chapter that started this fic. For fun, I'd thought to write a little drabble thing for someone. I liked it so much, it turned into this fic.
I don't own Glee or the characters. How much I'd like to, I don't.
One last thing: I hope you enjoy this chapter :)
Blaine knew in the back of his mind he was wrong. But does he even love her? Yes, he had feelings for her, but there was something missing. Was Kurt the missing puzzle piece? Was Kurt the one who would make him happy? Who would make everything worth his while? His all that would matter?
That last class was something different. One more time, just once more, he wanted to dance with Kurt again. Not in his dreams, but in reality. Have the feeling of being alone with him, to dance with him.
So Blaine said he needed to go by a colleague for some paperwork he forgot, but that he first needed Kurt's help with something. That she should get home, and he'll take the bus. His wife went home without him, not knowing this would change everything she ever knew. He felt something more than he has ever has felt with him, it felt like home.
This time, for once, he wouldn't let his mind lead him, but his heart.
Kurt pulled Blaine close, telling him to try and lead. The music started, and Blaine felt Kurt's hips move. Blushing, he concentrated on his feet. These feelings weren't real, his wife hadn't touched him in so long, it was all just because of that, he tried to tell himself. But deep down, he knew he lied. And he wanted it to be real. Because that would mean happiness would be there for him. Love would be there for him.
"I know your shoes are very pretty, but when you dance, always look at your partner." Kurt said, giggling a little.
Blaine looked up. The smile on his face was magical, as were his eyes. Light blue as the sky, and limitless as it too. That shade of blue was so easy to drown in, to fall in, and never look back. Looking in those eyes made everything go away. There was no outside world, it was them, their bodies and the music.
This wasn't like his dream any more. This was so much more. This was reality.
Dance is all that he wanted. He knew that was the only way to be with him. By dancing and forgetting the world. Forgetting all his trouble and only think of their movements, their love.
The music went on, as so were their bodies, moving simultaneously on the beat. The moves came automatically, neither of them payed any attention to it. All they could see were each other. The world didn't exist.
There were no words, but their eyes spoke.
I love him, his eyes, his smile. This is what I've missed, and I won't let it go.
His heart has spoken. Blaine was in love. And that was what he was missing.
Soon, something would take him away from this. Life would spilt them in two. For now, they'll just dance. Even if the music would stop, they would dance on to the beat of their hearts. Would the earth stop, the sky lose its colour, they would dance on. They'd dance on the waves of their love. Until the end of times, they would dance on.
He wanted to wrap his arms around him, hold him close, and kiss him. Kiss him as if it was their last kiss.
Kurt slowly went closer, like he was reading Blaine's mind.
Closer and closer he came, until their lips almost touched.
"I.. can't.." Blaine's said hesitated. Their lips were so close he could feel his breath on his lips. He could see every inch of his beautiful porcelain skin. This was all he ever wanted, but this wasn't the way to get it.
His heart screamed to him to kiss him, but his mind was just a little louder.
"I'm so sorry."
Blaine pulled himself apart and ran towards the door, holding in his tears. He made his promise and is a man of his word, but was the promise of loving her not already broken?
"Blaine, Blaine, wait!" A voice said behind him.
He stopped. As much as he thought he loved his wife, his love for Kurt was so much stronger.
"I see how you look at her, and how you look at me. I can see you once loved her, or thought you did. But the way you look at me is so much more than that. It is more than love. I don't know what it is, but I can feel it too. This is special. Don't run away from it."
Blaine turned to look at him. Tears were streaming down his face. He walked over, eyes also filled with tears.
"The love I explained never existed to me. I thought I'd never be able to have that or something even like that. But this, this is the way I've always thought it would be like." Tear after tear streamed down Kurt's face as he said it. This was a part of his heart. There words were love.
"I know. I don't know what this is, but you are the cause of it. I love you. More than I ever thought possible. But I can't do this. I am not a cheater. Even though I'm not in love, I am married.
Someday. Someday we will be together. It is meant to be. But not when I am married. She feels it too, I know. She knows I don't feel the same as she does.
I have feelings for you, but I also care for her. She has a right to know, from me, not by rumours. I'll tell her, I promise.
We'll be together, we'll be able to dance all we want. And I'll be able to love you freely, to love you without something in my brain saying me I'm doing something wrong."
Kurt stepped closer, Blaine let him. He liked having him close.
Blaine opened his arms, embraced Kurt, pulling him close.
With his head on Kurt's shoulder, arms on his back he whispered:
"I promise..."
