It only takes twenty minutes after their parents go to bed until Blaine has Cooper pressed against his bedroom wall and is kissing him. Hard. Though Cooper wants to be upset about Blaine's admission earlier in the night, he can't bring himself to care, at least not when he's kissing him like that. Blaine's hands are at his hips, holding their bodies flush together as they kiss and Cooper can't help but think that he's the only one who has seen his brother like this. And he hopes that it stays that way.

It doesn't take long before Cooper is pushing Blaine back onto his bed and pulling his shirt off, littering kisses all over his chest and stomach. After a moment, Blaine leans up to remove Cooper's shirt as well, and then his lips attach themselves to the older Anderson's neck. Cooper can't help the small whimper that escapes his mouth and he feels Blaine smirk against his skin before he continues kissing and biting.

Cooper's hands eventually find their way to Blaine's pants and he fumbles with the button of them before popping it open and sliding the fabric down his legs, leaving him in his boxers. He then resumes kissing down Blaine's chest, his stomach and his hips until he's level with his boxers. He glances up at his little brother for reassurance and when Blaine nods, he slips those off too, leaving him naked in front of him. It isn't until Cooper places a couple of kisses up his length that Blaine stops him.

The older boy glances up from between his hips, a confused look on his face, "Everything okay?"

Blaine nods immediately. "Y-yes. I just… I mean…" His next words come out rushed and nervous, "I understand if you don't want to because we've never really talked about it but… I-I want you to make love to me, Coop."

Cooper's eyes go wide and he's sure that his mouth is hanging comically wide open but he can't help it because his little brother – his gorgeous, perfect little brother – just asked if they could have sex. He somehow loses his ability to speak and Blaine takes it as a bad sign and starts rambling again, "It's fine, we don't have to… I mean I know it's kind of a big deal and-"

He's cut off, though, when Cooper quickly slides up his body and kisses him softly. "Yes," He finally manages to mumble against Blaine's lips, "Yes, I want to."

Blaine then pulls away, looking at him worriedly, "Are you sure?"

He nods, "Definitely. Just… we don't have any…"

"I bought lube," Blaine blurts, catching him off guard, "I was planning on asking you earlier, but mom and dad came home and it wasn't right and… Yeah."

"Condoms?" Cooper asks, the reality of the situation hitting him. His brother wants the same thing as him, and has obviously thought about it, which causes his stomach to flip flop nervously.

"I-I didn't get any… I mean I didn't know…" Blaine trails off, obviously embarrassed because of his inexperience and Cooper kisses him.

"It's okay," He says reassuringly, "I've got you." Blaine nods a couple of times in response, visibly nervous and Cooper kisses him again, "Are you sure? I mean, we don't have to if you're not re-"

"Yes," Blaine cuts him off, "I'm ready. I want this."

And at that, Cooper nods and goes to undo his own jeans. Blaine's hands are there in an instant though, and he's looking up at him through lust filled eyes, "Let me." So Cooper gulps and nods and watches as his little brother unbuttons his jeans and slides them slowly down his legs along with his boxers.

Once both boys are naked, Blaine reaches into his bedside table and grabs the lube and hands it over to Cooper shakily. He watches as his older brother pops the cap open and spreads some on his fingers, ignoring his cock. Cooper then pushes him up the bed a bit so there's room for the two of them, then spreads his legs. "I want this to feel good for you," Cooper breaths out, his voice hushed, "So if I hurt you, let me know, okay?" Blaine nods in return and Cooper begins to circle his entrance a couple of times, his heart racing because holy shit I'm about to take my brother's virginity.

Part of the situation is terrifying to him because the last thing he wants to do is hurt Blaine, but at the same time it feels right, like it was meant to happen. Cooper's free hand finds Blaine's and he laces their fingers together before pushing a finger into him, causing him to hiss a little with the initial pain. "You okay?" Cooper asks, concerned.

Blaine squeezes his hand in return, "Yeah, j-just keep going."

With Blaine's words, Cooper begins thrusting his finger, just slowly, letting him get used to it. Once he sees that his brother's face is no longer screwed up in pain, he adds a second finger. His heart practically skips a beat when Blaine's mouth falls open and he lets out a whimper, and he immediately begins searching for that place inside him-

"Fuck, Coop," Blaine whines when he finds it, trying to keep his voice hushed because their parents are sleeping down the hall and the last thing he wants to do is wake them up. It doesn't take long before Blaine is tentatively rocking back against his hand. "M-more, please Cooper," He finally manages to get out, and Cooper obliges and adds a third finger.

After a minute, the three fingers aren't enough though and Blaine is thrashing on the bed a mumbling something to Cooper and he isn't even sure if his brother understands him until he feels the fingers slide out. He whines at the loss, but Cooper sooths him by kissing his chest.

"You're sure?" Cooper asks one last time because he doesn't want it to be a mistake.

Blaine just simply nods, "Yes. Please, Cooper."

And with that, Cooper pops the cap open again, pouring some of the lube onto himself and jerking himself a couple of times. Blaine watches him through half lidded eyes, and that sight alone is almost enough to make him come but he stops because there's no way he wants to do that now. Not until he's inside him at least. He positions himself, pulling Blaine's legs up a little bit, then leans down to place a soft kiss on his lips. He keeps kissing Blaine's lips, neck and chest as he pushes inside slowly, trying to make it as good as possible for him.

Blaine buries his face in the crook of Cooper's neck as he gets used to the sensation and Cooper stills for a moment to be sure that he isn't hurting him. After about a minute, Blaine takes a deep breath. "You can move, Coop," He breaths, his voice ragged. The sound of it makes Cooper's heart flutter and he has to gather himself before he starts moving.

The feeling of Blaine is better than he could have ever imagined and it takes all that he has not to moan loudly as he pumps in and out slowly. As he thrusts, Blaine's hips arch up slightly, causing Cooper to brush across the spot he had found with his fingers only a few minutes before, and Blaine lets out a strangled moan which he quickly silences with a kiss.

"I wish you could be loud," Cooper whispers against his lips, and god does he wish that he could hear his brother moaning his name, "But mom and dad…"

Blaine groans in protest but manages to smirk against Cooper and say, "Next time."

Just the thought that Blaine already wants a next time drives Cooper nuts, not to mention turns him on even more. He picks up the pace, pumping into his brother faster and soon Blaine's breath is coming out quick and ragged and he knows that he's close. The thought sends a tremor through Cooper's body and his hand comes around to wrap around Blaine's cock, pumping in time with his hips.

It doesn't take long before Blaine is coming hot in between the two of them and the sight of his brother's face sends Cooper over the edge. He goes to pull out, but Blaine grips his hips and stops him. With a strangled moan, he comes inside of Blaine, his head pressed hard against his chest.

They lay like that for a moment until Cooper finds the strength to pull out and roll off of Blaine. They're both breathing heavily, both unsure of what to say, so Blaine wraps his arm around Cooper's waist and nuzzles against him, "Stay in here?"

Cooper smiles and nods, "Of course."

The two boys awake early the next morning to the sound of Cooper's phone ringing in his pants on the floor. Cooper almost falls out of the bed at the sudden noise and he groans when he realizes it's his phone. He stands, despite Blaine's protest, and crosses the room.

Thankfully, it's a good phone call. Though most people wouldn't consider it good, Cooper can't help but be a little happy when it's a director cancelling an audition because they found someone else. It means he gets to stay home with Blaine until mid January, and the thought of being there for a couple of extra weeks thrills him.

Christmas goes by fine, despite their father making a few comments about Blaine and his "choice" of sexuality when they have family over. Everyone is used to it, though, so it's nothing new. After Christmas is New Year's. Their parents are out for the night, and Cooper and Blaine drink together while watching New Year's Rockin' Eve. They have sex again that night, and Cooper is absolutely thrilled that their parents are gone.

The first week of January goes by in a blur and Cooper is dreading going back to California. He wishes he could take Blaine with him, but knows it isn't possible and he hates it. One Wednesday, a few days before he is due to go back, Cooper, Blaine and their mother sit around the dinner table. Their father is out, thankfully, and for once things feel like a normal family. Cooper learned a long time ago that their mom is much more at ease when their father is gone, so he's not surprised when she's nothing but smiles at the dinner table.

"I've been trying to convince Blaine to join the glee club at his school," She says, smiling at Cooper as they eat.

He raises his eyebrows then looks over at Blaine, "Why didn't you say anything? You should totally do it!"

Blaine sighs, "I don't know… I mean, all of the weird nerdy kids are in glee club… Nobody likes them, and I already get picked on enough as it is…"

"Hey," Cooper protests, "I was in glee club in high school. Does that make me uncool?"

Blaine laughs, "But you went to Dalton. They're like rockstars there."

"There's also a no tolerance bullying policy there," Cooper stresses, "I don't understand why you don't want to go there."

"Because I don't want to take the easy way out," Blaine says quickly, glancing at their mom "Besides, it's expensive…"

She smiles in Blaine's direction, "I think there's more to it than that." When Cooper raises an eyebrow in confusion at her, she grins even wider, "You didn't tell him, Blaine? Oh, there's this boy at his school who asked him to this dance that's coming up on Friday."

Cooper's heart drops. He glances between their mom and Blaine, who looks like a deer in the headlights, "W-what?"

"Yeah," She says, smiling obliviously, "I'm just glad that he has someone who understands him there…"

But I understand him, Cooper thinks to himself.

"It's just as friends, mom," Blaine saves quickly.

"That's not how you made it sound," She says teasingly.

Suddenly, Cooper is unable to eat any more. "May I be excused?" He asks, "I don't feel very well."

She looks at him, worried for a moment before nodded, "Of course honey. Let me know if you need anything."

At that, Cooper stands and takes his plate to the kitchen before heading numbly up the stairs.

Blaine has a date to a dance.

The thought is almost enough alone to send Cooper to tears but he stops himself because he refuses to cry over his brother.

Blaine had mentioned kind of liking a boy a few weeks ago, but Cooper had blown it off after how good things had been going. He was convinced that Blaine wouldn't want to be with anyone else but him.

I guess that's what I get.

He kicks himself for not having a discussion with Blaine about what exactly it is that they have. Of course Blaine had a date. They never established what each of them wanted. He had probably just assumed that it was okay.

Cooper is sitting in his room, moping for a few minutes before there's a knock at his door. He's not surprised. He knew that he and Blaine would have to talk after that. "Come in," He calls hoarsely.

Blaine opens the door and steps cautiously inside before closing it behind himself. He stands there awkwardly for a moment, just staring wide eyed at Cooper before taking a deep breath. "Coop, listen-"

"It's okay," Cooper interrupts, "I get it Blaine."

Blaine shakes his head, "But-"

"We should have talked about this a long time ago," Cooper says, cutting him off again, "We haven't really established what we are, and we obviously both want different things out of this…"

"W-what we are?" Blaine stutters out, "I didn't know that we could really label something like… this."

And suddenly Cooper sees the doubt in Blaine's face that was there the first time they kissed. The sight absolutely terrifies him. "Yeah…" Cooper starts, "I mean, I didn't- I didn't know that you wanted to date anyone else… So that's why I'm surprised." It's a lie, but he hopes it works. Truthfully, Cooper isn't surprised. He's heartbroken. He had hoped that Blaine felt the same way about what they had that he did.

"I-" Blaine starts, trying to find the right thing to say. He sighs, "Cooper, did you really think that we could actually end up together?" The question shocks Cooper and when he doesn't say anything, Blaine continues. "Look, I like what we have. A lot. But realistically, it's not like we could ever tell anyone about us. It's not like we could hold hands in public or get married or something… I-I just want a normal relationship."

"Normal?" Cooper repeats, "Is this about dad? Do you really think that you getting a boyfriend will suddenly make him accept you?" The question is harsh and Cooper immediately wishes that he could take it back, but he can't.

Blaine swallows hard, "I'm not talking about dad, Coop. I'm talking about me. I want to be able to introduce a boyfriend to my friends. To mom. Did you see how happy she was? I can't do that with you."

The last words hit Cooper hard and suddenly everything is spinning. "Please leave," he manages to get out, causing Blaine to look at him weird which makes things worse because Blaine doesn't even know what he's doing wrong.

"Coop?"

"Go. Please." He says, stern, and though his eyes are closed, he hears the door shut as Blaine walks out of the room.

He isn't even sure what he's doing when he starts packing his suitcase, all he knows is that he has to get out of there. Things had seemed too good to be true, and now Cooper knew that they were. He wanted to be with Blaine, and only Blaine, and obviously they didn't want the same things.

It doesn't take long before all of his things are packed and he's stopping himself from crying as he walks out of his room. He makes his way down the stairs, where Blaine and their mother are sitting in the living room together. They both look up when Cooper gets to the bottom of the steps and their mom raises her eyebrows, "What's going on?"

"I-" Cooper glances at Blaine, who looks back at him guiltily, "I just got a call. I have an audition tomorrow. I've got to go."

"Oh…" She sounds disappointed, but stands up to hug him, "I love you. Fly safe, okay?"

Cooper nods against her, "Love you too, mom."

When they pull apart, she turns to look at Blaine, "Aren't you going to say goodbye?"

Blaine's mouth hangs open, speechless, and Cooper clears his throat, "We already did."

"Oh, okay. Well good luck sweetie. Call me."

Cooper nods then heads out the door. He gets in the car and decides to head to a hotel in Lima or somewhere that isn't too close to their home where he can stay for a few days before he actually heads back to California. He's due to go back on Sunday, but he can't bear to be around Blaine any longer. He feels stupid. Stupid, because he had actually let himself believe that he and his brother could have a normal relationship. Blaine had obviously known better and Cooper wishes that he hadn't been so foolish.

He finds himself wondering what this boy looks like. If he and Blaine are going to dance together. If they're going to kiss on the porch at the end of the night before Blaine goes inside. He tries to shake the thoughts from his head because he finds it ridiculous that he's actually jealous of a sixteen year old boy, but he can't help it. He wants to be the one to do those things with Blaine.