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Theia's POV
How bazzare, I started out this morningso on edge to go talk to Reid and tell him... well, I guess I don't know what I was going to tell him. My feelings for him are... confusing to say the least, hell it's confusing that I even have feelings for him at all. I must have tried to get up the courage to actually knock on it for at least twenty minutes, or to me, twenty lifetimes. But this isn't how my day ended, no, I didn't grow a pair and knock on the door. No... I ended up with my ex. My hook-up's "brother". Awesome.
Sitting at the table with Caleb, again. A bad dejavue moment at it's finest.
"Why are you so charming and sweet now?" I thought to my self, anger rising.
"And our first kiss." I felt my lips push together in a tight line at remembering the weight of his warm lips on mine.
Flashback
"Caleb!" I squealed happily "Don't confuse me!"
There we were, walking in the grass, somewhere, I couldn't keep track of where I was. Caleb had me by the shoulders and keep spinning me around in circles to the point of I couldn't tell up from down.
"Oh what now?" he taunted talked a step away from me, watching me stumble.
"Caleb!" I giggled holding my arms out "Where are you?" I started to get frightened of where I was and how I couldn't hear anything. "Caleb?" My voice shook slightly and I stood still to listen or his foot steps, finding nothing.
"Here," he said sweetly. I heard light footsteps walking close to me, right in front of me. I felt big arms around me, one around the small of my back the other seemed to cradle me, hand hooked around to hold the back of my neck. "I'm right here, honey."
I rested my head on his chest completely giving in to his hold, like I had a hundred times before. My thin arms slinked their way around Caleb's neck high over my head. I smelled his cologne, a musky, wood like smell, very bold in tone yet mild in scent. Perfect.
"Are you smelling me again?" he laughed and tightened his grip possesivly around me
"Maaabye..." I giggled
"Maybe? Maybe!" squeazing me even more forcing my head to tilt up in attempt to get away. He gently pressed his forehead to mine "Why would you do that huh?" I blushed, hard.
"I don't know, maybe it's because I like it when you're close enough for me to smell you." I tilted my head up, pushing his forehead away from mine, creating a tension filled void longing to be closed again. "Caleb-"
"Shhh, just let me hold you."
And we kissed.
"I didn't forget." I said coldly "Then Sarah moved in. I definitely didn't forget."
"You know that's not how I wanted that to happen." he pleaded as if he wanted me to suddenly change my mind or him.
"Well that is how it happened. I've made my piece with you, so why the sudden interest. "Please just leave me alone, please" I begged in my mind, trying to hold myself together.
"I've thought about it a lot and..." he paused, taking my hand in his "I've missed you." I sucked in a sharp breath and stiffened abruptly "I miss the way you blush when you're nervous." I laughed, remembering how he used to tease me about it. "See? That! That's another thing I miss." he gripped my hands tighter and pulling himself into me. "I miss how you laugh out of pity, seriously I'm not really that funny." He put on hand on my thigh and his other he place lovingly on my face and I tried my best not to cuddle into it. "And I really missed waking up with your face on my face with you wrapped in my arms."
"Caleb... no more." I pushed his hand away from my face gently "Why are you doing this?"
"I just wanted to talk to you." he sounded a little crestfallen
"You want to talk after Sarah moved away. You can't have her anymore so, what, am I your backup plane?" I felt my anger rising and my blood started to boil. "I'd like to go back to my room." I began to stand and took quick but hesitant steps on the edge of the walk way to keep my barings.
"Wait," I heard his fast footsteps behind me "that's not how I meant to say that. Just go on a date with me. Please, Theia." My pace faltered in surprise as my mouth hung open.
"I... I don't-"
"Just one date, as friends." I didn't know what to say. I paused for what felt like years and he paitiently waited for my answer. I sighed.
"As friends. Now, just take me back to my room would you?" I gave in, coffee or something like that won't hurt.
"You got it." I heart the lightheartedness return to his voice as he counted his damn lucky stars!
We walked back to my room, he tried to make small talk and I through out a few "Mhm"s, "I see"s, and "Exactly"s. My main focus though was hiding my rage face. Why rage face one might ask? BECAUSE I HAVE RAGE AT MYSELF.
"You ok, Theia?" asked Caleb
"Exactly."
"Uh, what?" Opps.
"I mean, I'm cool. I'm totally fine!" I grinned trying to hide my mistake.
"Oh, well, that's good. We're at your room." He seemed to hesitate at my door waiting for something. "Can I get a quick good bye kiss?" he asked meekly
"Caleb.." I drawled with a dull haze in my tone
"Right, right, so wednesday?" He laughed off my mild regection
"Yeah sounds good. I'll talk to you later." I smiled and opened my door, stepping inside.
"Yeah, you deinitally will." I laughed lightly at the extra attention he gave me as we parted.
I closed my door, turned around, reached my foot out or my bed and found it. I pressed myself up against the door in preparation and counted in my head...
1...
2...
3!
I leaped face first on to my bed and screamed into my pillow
"MMMMMMHHH-and I KNOW it's about-AAAARAHHHHHH. I NNNMMMEEH AHH MEERR. FFUUUCKING SONNNS mmmof MIPSWICHTTT. It's a SSSTUUPID NAMMME ANNYWAY." I raised my head, realizing my roommate might be here. "Heidi?" I asked
Scilence
I flopped my face back on to my pillow "SHHHE SAID SHHHEE'D BE HEEREE. MAAAAAAAAAHHH." I rolled over and breathed rapidly having screamed myself red in the face, at least I assume. Anyway, my breathing settled and I sat up to think about Caleb.
"Man... I really liked him." I huffed "He seemed like such a nice guy, so real and kind. Then that other fucking girl decided that she was gonna be Little Miss 'Oh I'm so much fun! I'm so different then every one else around here! I'm gonna sink my well manicured nails into some one's MAN'." I seethed but stopped "Now that's not fair to her. I never really got to know her. I never even gave her a chance, I was too jealous and let my petty broken heart stop me from maybe making friends with her, maybe they were in love in a month. Who am I to know?" I sighed "Well shit," I said allowed, to no one in particular when my mind started comparing Reid and Caleb "At least Caleb's genuinely interested in me."
I got up out of bed and started to walk to the bathroom to run some cool water on my face when a quick three knocks interrupted me.
"There you are Heidi, I thought-" I opened the door "You said you'd bee here when I got back!" I laughed but there was silence on the other side the frame and it took me by surprise. "Hello?"
"Hey." Came the reply that was paired with two arms taking me by the shoulders then sliding down to my waist as I heard the door shut just before I was pressed against it. My spine went rigid and I felt my eyes shoot open. I put my arms in between who ever this man was just before I remember the feel of these arms and that rainy summer day smell that accompanied the person that just consumed me into their limbs.
"Reid?" I breathed
"Yeah," he took my wrists one at a time and moved them from between us. "Miss me?"
My mind went blank, my mouth hung open and my words seemed to run together like dripping pain. He pulled me into him so possessively, so border line demanding of me it seemed selfish, as if I wasn't to be shared. He pressed the brow bone above his left eye to the right side of my head and brushed the hair that was there behind my ear. He kissed the oh so sensitive skin there. My breath hitched audibly and Reid seemed to hear it. His motions became hastened as he hurriedly moved his hands across my back, down my back side, to my legs, and up again.
"Reid!" He sharply pressed me up against the door, kissing me roughly. My patience became short with him and I squirmed away with pushing arms and kicking legs assisting me in my escape. I shoved him hard to create a good amount of space, enough to where I don't think he could touch me if he reached out and tried to. "What are you doing?" I waited or a response but heard nothing, "Why are you here?"
"Why do you think?" He sounded exasperated
"Well I wouldn't know!" I shouted back "Why are you in my room? What gives you the right to just barge in here, assault me, and then get mad at me for not being cool with it?" I heard him suck in a huge breath of air and I waited for the screaming match to really begin. It didn't come.
"Why were you outside my room today?" my face must have conveyed confusion "I saw you outside my room. You waited there didn't you-"
"I wasn't waiting for anything. I hadn't even knocked yet." I bit back
"You wanted to see me." He concluded yet there was no hint of his usual smugness
"So what if I did?" I laughed bitterly "You've been avoiding me or days. I'm blind, not ignorant. I was going to tell you that what ever this was, it's done." I raged, not really thinking about the words I said.
"So what if I've been avoiding you? It's not my responsibility to be your perfect man! And I didn't know this was anything! Not since you had lunch with fucking Caleb at the stone tables." I was shocked but didn't back down from him.
"What are you stalking me now?" I shouted, hands on hips.
"No!" he yelled taking a stepping toward me.
"Then WHAT?" I threw my hands in the air.
"I WAS..." I heard him blow air out harshly, take a step back and forth as he seemed to sway in attempt to defuse his anger. I on the other hand remained insanely hot blooded. "...God damn it, you!" he mused irritatedly "You are the most infuriating woman I have EVER met." His voice quieted in to a border line cazed whisper with his hand gripping the sides of my face with shaking hands "I was jealous, alright? Jealous. It's an emotion that a man can feel, for example, when the girl he's tiring to get with decides she's going to go out with one of his best friends. I. Am. Jealous." my mouth hung open in utter shock.
"Oh, hey guys! What's-uh...what's goin' on?" Entered Heidi, but I didn't have time to respond to her.
"Not done yet." Reid took my hand and brushed past Heidi on our way down the now stirring halls thanks to our rage filled, uh, "conversation." He lead me to his very familiar door and opened it.
"Hey bro-Holy shit did you kidnap her?" incredulously asked Tyler
"No." spat Reid "You need to leave."
"Wha-Hey!" I heard a rolling chair do just what it was designed to, roll right out the door. "Dude!"
"The blonde chick is alone at Theia's." he informed and slammed the door behind him.
There was a silence, not awkward but not comfortable. it was like a preparation of what was yet to come may it be another round of arguing or slightly more civil.
"So..." I paused waiting for him to say boader line anything.
"So what?"
"Why?" I bluntly asked
"Why what?" he chuckled
"Why am I here?"
"Why are you here what?"
"Bite me, Garwin." I glared at where his voice came from and heard an 'ok!' come from that direction "Stop." I put up one hand in a halting motion "I wanted to actually talk to you about not doing what ever happened in the elevator again."
"Did you really need to tell me that if you thought I was avoiding you?" he asked, I involuntarily tilted my chin down and to the side in attempt to physically avoid the question. "Seriously, i you were as nonchalant about this as you want to seem, you would have just let me keep not seeing you and brush me off if I ever wanted to try and get with you again. So, you wanted to see me-" he abruptly changed his finishing line "I mean, talk to me." I laughed lightly at his poor choice of phrase.
"It's alright." I forgave him "Yes, I did want to talk to you. I don't like being ignored."
"So you wanted to talk about what exactly?" he continued
"What happened."
"Go on."
"About what you said, and what we did.,,and what I said I'd do." I felt my face grow hot in embarassment
"What?" he laughed "We kissed, we touched, we got a little hot and heavy and you said you would sleep with me. Big deal." I was appalled
"Big deal?" I stormed quietly "You're right, this was pointless. I'll be the mature one and end this now so I can leave." I reached for the wall in attempt to find the door.
"No you won't." he said softly "I don't want you to."
"You don't want me to. That's thrilling, really, but I feel like a fool." I slid my hand across the wall and found the colder, harder surface I was looking for. "I should have known better." I hushedly whispered as my hand found the door knob, my back to him.
"No..." came a sweet murmur from right behind me. I felt the door have a new pressure placed on it.
"What are you doing?" I said tiring to hide my shivering skin from him.
"Right now? I'm trapping you here, with me, hands on either sides of your head. Right now, I'm smelling your hair, it smells flowery like lavender and cotton, not like tropical and fruity and it doesn't make me cringe like mace. Right now, I'm remembering the way you feel with my hands on you... it's nice." I closed my eyes and pictured his words in a pretty painting.
"I ment-" I inhaled clearly audibly
"Now, I'm feeling your sides, enjoying the way I get to put my face in your hair." He narrated all of his actions "I like..." he slid his hands down my legs "how your thighs shake when I put my hands on you." I arched my back and lifted my chin, resting my head on his shoulder "Oh and that... I love that."
"Reid," He paused his advances "I need more then physical care, so... I'm going to go back to my room." I started to reach for the doorknob only to have a warm hand fall on mine in protest.
"And you don't think I can give that to you." he stated "You think Caleb can..."
"I didn't say that." I defended, not knowing if that's really what I meant or not.
"But that's what you thought." he tightened his hold on me and rested his head in the crook o my neck "Why don't you think I can do that for you?"
"I...you just, never seem to want anything else from me. You haven't asked what music I like, what classes I take, you haven't even asked how old I am... You don't really want me. You want parts of me." I sad trying to hide to sadness in my voice
"I... don't really do that kind of thing." he defended
"Then why would you ask me how I thought that-" Reid interrupted me.
"I don't like to get attached."
"Well, that's what I need." I rallied all my strength to my voice and prayed he understood my message "I need someone to take me on a date, not like Nicky's but to dinner, or coffee or maybe the park. I need to know the person I'm with is with me. You're not that guy Reid, I really want you to be, but I don't think you could do that for me. I'm going on that date with Caleb because it's real and he wants people to see me with him, he was always proud of me for some god forsaken reason. I need that, I don't know if I want it, but it's what's best for me."
Reid didn't say anything as I shook his limbs from me and opened the door, muttered a quiet good bye and let with out another word. I didn't go to my room, I wandered down the middle of the corridor hoping to get wildly lost, fall in a hole and die before I started crying.
Oh, too late.
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