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I slam the diary shut, not wanting to read anymore. The words float around my head, but I don't cry. I cried when I wrote that. If you look hard enough, you can still see the tear marks on the page, smudging the words. I can still remember how I felt at the time.

I had come home after the incident with Emmett's friends. He had helped me clean my wounds and I had thought about cutting when I was in the shower. I didn't, but I can remember the urge to reach out for my razor. I can still feel my fingers itching to grab it and put it to my wrist.

I snap out of my thoughts and bury my head in the pillow, willing the pain to go away.

Chapter fouteen.

Now:

The rest of the week at school is somewhat uneventful. People still stare at me, but Alice, Angela, Ben, Jasper and even Edward don't let me out of their sight. Alice obviously told Angela and Ben what happened to me, because when I see them next Angela breaks down, sobbing about how sorry she is for me. I brush her off, telling her that it isn't her fault.

Although no-one has said anything too bad to my face, I can't help but see the glares Rosalie shoots me all the time. So do Alice and Edward; they both glare back at her and tell me to ignore her - easier said than done. Emmett has decided to pretend I don't exist, both at home and at school. Renee asked him to call me the other day - I heard it through the walls. He simply said 'Isabella who?' and Renee all but ripped his head off. It was kind of funny, if I'm honest. Jasper, Ben and Edward haven't spoken to Emmett either and I feel so bad. They shouldn't lose their friends because of me; I'm not worth it.

Edward. Hmm. He is so frustrating. Every chance he gets, he asks me if I have made my mind up yet. I want to yell at him to leave me alone, but I don't want to hurt his feelings in any way. My sense of trust is being stretched into several different directions right now. Everyone wants me to trust them, but I know that I can't. If you give out your trust, it will just get broken in the end; you get broken in the end.

I do want to trust Edward and I want to be able to trust Jasper and Ben, even Angela. They all have been amazing for the past few days and I couldn't ask for better people to be around me. But, I can't trust them, not yet anyway. Especially Edward.

Alice thinks that I should trust them. She thinks that I should let more people in. 'You let me in and I didn't hurt you'. I can still see her pouting as she said it, her hands on her hips and her eyes matching that of a puppy. I rolled my eyes at her and told her I would think about it, which made her clap her hands and bounce around. She really is mental.

Eric, Mike, and Tyler haven't been in school lately. Maybe they think Charlie found out what happened and he is looking for them. He doesn't know, I haven't told anyone. I'm sure that Renee will find out sooner or later, but I haven't seen Charlie in person for days now. I hear him come home at night and leave in the mornings, but other than that, it's like he doesn't exist anymore.

Renee seems sad. When I get home, her eyes are puffy and red and she quickly goes to her room, muttering about washing and cleaning. I know that something is going on with her, but I can't figure it out. My mom and I are close, so if it is anything serious, I know she will come to me if she's in trouble. I just know she will.

I haven't looked in my diary again since then. I want to throw it away, just get rid of it. I nearly have a few times now, but every time I do, I realize that I could throw it in Emmett's face one day; show him exactly how I feel. There is some pretty dark stuff in there; maybe he could understand what I felt - what I still feel now.

"What the fuck?" A voice roars.

I jump up from my bed and run down the stairs as quickly as my body will let me. I run down the first flight of stairs but when I get to the second, leading down to the ground floor, I freeze. My eyes take everything in, but my mind can't comprehend it all.

Emmett lies on his back on the floor, clutching his nose as blood pours out of it. Glancing quickly to the door, I can see Edward being held back by Jasper. Both guys are seething and the anger in their eyes is scary. Jasper sees me first and he smirks at me before nudging Edward. He also looks up and the glint in his eyes tells me that he about to enjoy what he is going to do.

"What the hell is going on here?" I finally ask, my voice shaky. My mind is still trying to catch up with everything, but I think I know what is going to happen.

"Well, hello there, little lady," Jasper drawls with a wink and I blush, even in this strange situation. "We're here to teach this young man how to treat his sister, and others around him, properly." He finishes by kicking the bottom of Emmett's shoe. By this time, Emmett is sitting up and looking at Edward and Jasper like they have gone mad. Maybe they have, who knows?

"What are you going to do to him?" I whisper. They hear me and look at each other, big grins on their faces.

"You know, explain to him how to be a decent person and a good brother, show him a lesson," Edward answers brightly. What the hell? They surely can't be serious about all of this, can they? Renee and Charlie aren't home and I know that I won't be able to stop them both.

"Just don't get blood everywhere." I shrug and go down the rest of the stairs into the kitchen. Edward and Jasper burst out laughing and Emmett grabs my ankle as I walk past him. "Let me go," I hiss.

"You can't let them do this to me." I look down into the eyes of my brother. For him being such a big-built guy, he certainly looks scared. I want to laugh in his face and tell Edward and Jasper to leave all at the same time.

"Why can't I? You told Rosalie." Recognition comes to his eyes and he almost looks regretful.

"I tell Rosalie everything," he hisses, his anger coming out. His grip on my ankle tightens slightly, but not enough to cause pain.

"You didn't need to tell her that though, did you?" I kick his hand off of me and continue towards the kitchen, his pleas for them not to hurt him, follow me.

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"I can't believe you guys did that," Alice breathes and shakes her head, her eyes not leaving the screen. Jasper and Edward do some weird handshake thing from their seats. Jasper leans back on the couch again, putting his arms around Alice, and Edward sits up straight from his place next to me.

"I'm just pissed that I wasn't there to help!" I look over and am shocked to see Angela with a scowl on her face. I expected Ben to say something like that, but definitely not Angela. "What? He deserved it! No offence, Isabella!" she exclaims.

"None taken." I smile.

"If we'd have known you wanted to join in, we could have called you," Edward chuckles.

"Well, make sure you do next time," she huffs and Ben kisses her forehead, before pecking her lips. I smile and turn my attention to the screen.

"Your comment was classic, Iz." Jasper just about manages to get out through his laughter which makes Edward start laughing and I smile with them.

All of this was Alice's idea. We had already arranged for all of us to get together and watch movies and stuff, but her idea was to invite Edward along, too. She said it was so I didn't get bored when the couples started to do 'couple-y' things. I cringe just to think about it.

I don't exactly mind him being here after what he did for me, but it's still awkward. I know he's expecting an answer from me and I honestly haven't had the time to think about it properly. If I give him an answer now, I might regret it. I'm so confused!

"Hey, Ali. Mind if I smoke?" Edward gets his packet out of his pocket, leaning towards me in the process. I inhale deeply, my senses being filled by his amazing smell. His eyes meet mine and I can't look away. He must feel the same tug because his eyes don't move and if anything, he leans forward some more.

"No. Go outside, Edward. God!" And just like that, the spell is broken. I blink and move away from him, tucking my legs into my chest and wind my arms around them. He stands and goes over to Alice's balcony, just to the left of the television. I watch him out of the corner of my eye as he paces around the small space, a cigarette hanging from his lips. His hands find their way into his hair and he tugs on it, looking somewhat distressed. As if he can feel me watching him, he looks over and I look away immediately, blushing the colour of a fire truck.

I sneak a peek at him and he gestures with his head for me to join him. I can feel the blood leave my face and my eyes widen. He wants me to stand outside with him? Why? Is he being serious? He gestures again, but this time he uses his hand.

Slowly, I stand and walk over to the sliding doors. I can feel every pair of eyes in the room on me, but I don't care. I go outside and immediately shiver from the cold. Edward must have noticed because I have to stop him from taking his jacket off. I have the extra fat to keep me warm.

"If you want an answer, I don't have one for you yet," I mutter, hoping to stop the questions from starting. He exhales, smoke floating from his lips up into the darkening sky.

"That's fine," he mutters and takes a pull on his cigarette. He notices me looking and offers me one from his packet. I hesitate then shake my head no. Obesity will kill me; I don't need to add cancer on to that. "Do you think you will ever be able to trust me?" I take in a deep breath and lean against the railing, looking out into the forest surrounding the Cullen home.

"I don't know, Edward. The people I trust always end up hurting me. I don't think I can take anymore hurt." I look over at him and he takes a step forward so he is leaning on the railing next to me. Soon, I'm surrounded by his unique smell and cigarette smoke. It's strangely a good smell.

"I promise not to hurt you. Please, just give me a chance." Looking in his eyes, I see nothing but honesty. The wind picks up and I shiver, making me look away from his amazing emerald eyes. "We should go back in. It's getting colder." I nod and follow him back through the door.

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The rest of the night goes smoothly. We all end up falling asleep watching a movie and Esme calls all of our parents, telling them we will be staying with her for the night. Of course, our parents don't mind, so we stay.

When I called Renee an hour ago, she said she would be here in five minutes to pick me up.

I look out the window with a sigh. Where is she? As if God answers me, Renee pulls up in the driveway, and she doesn't make a move to come into the house. With a quick goodbye to everyone, I go out the house and climb into the car.

I can see Renee's swollen eyes and red cheeks. A few tears are still rolling down her cheeks and she sniffs loudly. Putting my hand gently on her arm, she pulls out the driveway and speeds towards home, sniffing and wiping at her tears the entire way.

When we arrive, she gets out the car and I follow her into the house. She heads straight into the kitchen and busies herself with different things. I sigh and sit at one of the chairs.

"Do you want to talk about it?" She stops what's she's doing and her shoulders slump, her whole body shaking with the force of her sobs. "Mom?" She turns and walks over to me, falling into my arms as I stand up.

"It's so awful!" she cries and I rub her back, my heart hammering in my chest. What the hell has gotten her into this state? Has something happened to her that I didn't know about?

"Mom, you're scaring me. What happened?" She pulls away and I hand her a tissue. She blows her nose and sits down, I follow suit, sitting down opposite her and taking her hands in mine.

"It's your dad and I." My blood goes cold and my heart picks up speed. "We're getting a divorce."

Who saw that coming? Please don't hate me. I know its short and I am sorry.

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