Important! While this is based on my life and the events that have taken place involving me, this is a Fanfiction and there will be fiction in the story. Enjoy!
This chapter will have the story of what happened to Bella when she was younger, so if it may offend you, skip this chapter and wait until the next. Thank you.
Last time:
"Really?" I ask.
"Really." He stands and takes my hand, making me stand and pulling me to the bed. He lies down and pulls me with him, making me lay next to him.
He holds me in his arms for a while, kissing my forehead and lips gently and looking into my eyes. Everything is so intimate and I can't help but wish we could stay like this forever. I want to stay wrapped up in him with no drama from school or from the bullies, or even from Emmett and my parents.
"I wish we could stay like this forever," I admit, looking up at him from my place on his chest.
"Me, too." He pauses and I can see that he is thinking about something. I ask him to tell me what is bothering him and he looks up at the ceiling, contemplating, before looking back into my eyes. "Bella, I feel very strongly for you. I don't know what it is, but I know that it's powerful." I want to laugh, but I hold myself back. Where did he get that from? A book? Alice? "I'm not joking," he groans and I giggle.
"Sorry, it just sounded really cheesy,." I admit, hoping he won't hate me.
"I know. I guess what I'm trying to say is, will you be my girlfriend?" I bite the inside of my cheek before kissing his lips once softly.
"Yeah, I will." His smile is radiant and his eyes are bright as he catches my lips with his.
Chapter twenty-nine.
Now:
Opening my eyes, I can't help the smile that spreads across my face when I see Edward still lying on the bed next to me. His eyes are closed and his breathing is deep and even, telling me that he is still sleeping. His hair is a complete mess where I ran my fingers through it last night. I can see his eyes moving beneath his closed lids; he's dreaming.
His red lips are pouted and slightly open; his breath fans across my face. Even though he has been sleeping, his breath is still sweet, making me want to kiss him some more. I wonder if he would mind me kissing him some more today. I know I agreed to be his girlfriend, but I have never been anyone's girlfriend before.
Reaching up slightly, I lightly brush my lips against his. I don't want to wake him but as soon as our lips touch, his eyes open and he kisses me back. Our eyes and lips are locked and it's almost like I can see deep into his soul. I break the kiss and lay my head on his chest. His hand runs up and down my back and I can feel goose flesh erupt on my skin. I smile and kiss just above his heart before looking up at him, my chin resting on my hands on his chest.
"Good morning." I smile. "Sorry I woke you," I add, slightly sheepish.
"It is and I don't mind. You can wake me like that every morning if you like." I grin and peck his lips with mine slightly. We lay in a comfortable silence for a while, not having to worry about getting up for school. Every time I glance at him, I see a content smile on his lips. It makes me smile seeing how happy he seems to be.
"Baby?" I look up him, my eye brow raised. What was that? Baby? I think I like it. "What? Don't you like the new name?" I shake my head, a smile on my face.
"No, I think I like it. I'll have to get used to it." He grins lazily and I giggle. "What did you want anyway?" I ask. The smile leaves Edward's face and I begin to panic. Please, no. Not yet. Just give me a few more days before he begins to regret all this. If he doesn't want us to be together, he shouldn't have asked me to be his girl last night. Maybe he was hoping I would say no.
"I'm not breaking up with you," he quickly tells me, seeing my panic. I breathe out in relief and apologize to him. He just shrugs me off, telling me that it's okay.
"Do you trust me?" I look at him like he has two heads and nod.
"Of course I do, you know that," I scold and he shrugs sheepishly and smiles slightly at me.
"Then can I ask a question?" I nod and he takes in a deep breath. "What happened to you? I mean, when you were little," he asks and I freeze. I know what he wants to know but I haven't ever told anyone other than my parents, Emmett, and the police. I never thought I would have to tell someone what happened to me.
"You don't have to tell me, I'm just curious," he soothes, rubbing my hair and back softly when he hear my breathing increase. I take in a deep breath, trying to calm myself down. He's my boyfriend and I already know I feel more for him than friendship. I don't know if I love him, but I know I like him more than I should. He should hear my story if he really wants us to be together.
"I went with Emmett and some of his friends to the park. Renee and Charlie were at work, but Mom said it would be okay to go. We had been there for a few hours when they thought it would be funny to run away and leave me all alone in the park. It was dark and I can remember feeling so scared. I was only ten," I pause and look up at him. His face is full of concern and I offer a small smile. After a deep breath, I continue.
"Anyway, I ran out the park and tried to follow them, hoping to catch up. I was just wandering around on my own, crying out for Emmett to come back and save me. I can remember thinking 'this isn't my brother; he would never do something like this to me'. I was his most favorite person in the whole world." I shake my head - how times change.
"I went down this alleyway, thinking they could be hiding in there. I soon realized it was a dead end and I turned to leave again, but there was a man blocking the entrance. I asked him if he had seen three boys run past and he said he had. He looked scary and I didn't want to talk to him, but he said he knew where Emmett and his friends were and I just wanted to find them and go home.
"I asked him which way they went and he got really close to me." I stop, taking a deep breath.
"You don't have to tell me. I'm sorry for asking." He kisses my forehead and I shake my head.
"If you really want to be my boyfriend, you should know," I whisper and he nods for me to continue. "I, um, I just thought he was going to tell me where they were. I can remember feeling so scared. He started to touch me and tell me that I was beautiful. I asked him to just tell me when they went and he promised he would. I begged for him to tell me. When his hands grabbed at my chest and behind, I panicked and screamed. The sound startled him and he let go of me. I was so scared, I just ran away." I breathe out deeply and feel tears starting to run slowly down my cheeks.
"I wasn't paying attention to anything on the way to the park, so I was completely lost. I didn't know the way home and I didn't know anyone that was around. We were still in Forks, I knew that, but it was nearly half an hour walk from home. I was confused and it was dark. I hated Emmett so much then for just leaving me all alone when he knew I was scared of the dark.
"I just started running in one direction and, finally, I recognized where I was and I ran home from there. Emmett was already home and Renee and Charlie were yelling at him franticly, asking where I was. They didn't even realize I had come in, they were shouting that loud. Eventually, Renee spotted me and she cried, running over to me and begging me to tell her where I was and why I ran off. I was so confused and I told her I didn't run off and that Emmett did." I think back on the way Emmett looked when I told on him. Thinking back, his hatred for me must have started there.
"Charlie was so upset with Emmett; I thought he was going to hit him. Charlie came over to me and I flinched away from him. The hurt on his face still haunts me. I felt so bad. Renee asked me why I was being silly and I told her what happened in that alley. Charlie really exploded then. He got on the phone and told the police to search for the guy. I told them what I could remember him looking like and they searched for weeks. They never found him." Edward sucks in a breath and his eyes widen when I say that.
"When I went to bed, I had a nightmare and Emmett came in with tears in his eyes. He told me he was sorry and held me all night long. I couldn't sleep again. I was so scared that the man would come through my window and hurt me. Emmett didn't sleep either; he rubbed my hair and told me he was sorry over and over.
"The next day, Emmett and I weren't allowed to go to school. He thought it was cool and played ball in the yard. I, however, had the windows shut and locked, the curtains closed. The door was shut and I had put a chair up against it, hoping no-one would get in. I hid under my bed for nearly two days, not sleeping or eating. When Charlie and Renee came home from work, they wouldn't leave me alone again. Renee made cakes and cookies and brought plates of nice treats to me every day.
"I was already slightly bigger than normal. I thought that if I wasn't beautiful, the man wouldn't come back for me. I knew that fat wasn't beautiful. I ate and ate, and didn't get out of bed for days - I gained more and more weight. When Renee stopped feeding me fatty foods and said I needed to cut down, I would go down at night and just eat chunks of butter. Emmett got the blame for it, so Renee and Charlie didn't think anything of it. I wanted to be fat, I wanted to be ugly." I shake my head and look away from Edward, not wanting to see his face.
"Emmett caught me one night. I was just sitting on the kitchen floor with a stick of butter and a bag of sugar. He asked what I was doing and I told him I wanted to be ugly. He rolled his eyes and told me I was too beautiful to get ugly. I can remember crying that I couldn't be beautiful, that I didn't want to be. After I calmed down, he shrugged and joined me on the floor with a big spoon, digging into my snack." I chuckle slightly at the memory. Emmett was so sick the next day and I was fine. I think my body was used to my new diet.
"I'm so sorry, baby," Edward whispers and I look up to see tears in his eyes. I shrug.
"Don't cry. Everything is my own fault. If I hadn't gone with Emmett and his friends, I would have been fine. They didn't even want me to go, but both Emmett and Renee insisted. I wanted to stay home and play with my dolls. I should have." Edward tightens his grip on me, pulling me closer and holding me to his body.
After a while, the tears stop falling and I just lay there, tracing patterns onto Edward chest through his black shirt. His body is completely relaxed and I find myself relaxing more and more as I lay against him. This is nice, this is peaceful. I wish that we could stay like this forever, curled up in bed next to each other, wrapped in each other. As if he can read my mind, his arms tighten around me, pulling me in closer to him.
I chance a glance up at him and his eyes lock with mine. My cheeks heat up and his crooked smile graces his face, his hand coming up to rub his finger against my cheek bone.
"You're so beautiful," he whispers, his finger still caressing my cheek bone. I smile and reach up slightly to cup his face between my hands. Understanding what I want, he leans down and his lips meet mine softly. His silky lips brush over mine for a few seconds before the tip of his tongue glides over my bottom lip, asking for entrance. I part my lips slightly and his tongue begins to explore my mouth.
Both of my hands move from his face up into his hair, clutching it between my fingers and pulling him closer to me. He responds eagerly, putting one hand on my hip and the other in my hair, pulling me closer until there isn't any space between the two of us.
All too soon, he pulls away, leaving us both gasping for air. His lips never leave my skin, though, and travel down my cheek to my neck. I lay still and pant for a few moments as he lays his head on my chest, his cheek above my heart. I know he can feel it hammering far too quickly in my chest, but I can't find it in me to care. My hand on his back tells me that his heart is beating the same way as mine.
"We should get up sometime soon," Edward sighs and I nod in agreement, my hands finding their way to his silky hair.
"Is it selfish to want to keep you here with me all day?" I ask rather pathetically.
"If it is, we're both selfish," he admits, smiling crookedly at me again. He leans up and captures my lips again, making my heart speed up.
Maybe, just maybe, this could work out between us.
I am so sorry it took me so long to get this out to you. I am now home and I have been for nearly a week now, but with unpacking and seeing all my friends and family, things have just been catching up with me. Plus, I had my prom a few nights ago, so I have been getting my dress and nails and hair and everything else ready for that.
My Nan is doing really well now, to those who was asking after her. She is still in a lot of pain because of the op, but she is on a high dose of morphine and is healing perfectly. Better than expected to be honest.
Anyway, enough about me. I am sorry I haven't updated in a while. I promise to try and get the next chapter to you quicker. I have the next three months off school and I hope to have this story finished before I go back so there won't be any long waits. Hopefully.
I would love if we got to 500 reviews by the next chapter and if we do, I might post another EPOV as well as a normal chapter. So, please can we try?
Thank you all for reading.
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