Gokudera stirs a bit as he leaves the world of dreams.
"Mmh..." He blinks his eyes open and rubs them as he turns his head to look at the girl lying next to him. He watches her for a bit while she stares at her scared wrists before talking, smiling slightly when she jumps.
"Did you cut often?"
"Sorry, did I wake you?"
Gokudera shakes his head.
"No. I just woke up from sleeping enough." He pecks her on the cheek, smiling as she smiles. "So...How often did you do it?"
Gokudera frowns as Phoenix covers her wrist with her other hand.
"Too often." She squeezes her wrist tight enough for her knuckles to turn white. Gokudera quickly places his hand on hers and tries to pull it away from her wrist.
"Not anymore, right?"
Phoenix allows Gokudera to pull her hand away and points to one of the redder scars, saying in a cold voice.
"I did it last week."
A hurt expression comes over Gokudera's face. "Why? Why would you..." He looks away to hide the pain. "Tch."
Phoenix looks at the ceiling with an uninterested expression.
"Feeling pain is better than feeling nothing."
She shrugs.
"No it's not Aydan...it's not." Gokudera wraps his arms around Phoenix and holds her close to him. "Please don't do it anymore."
Phoenix relaxes as he holds her to his chest, smiling slightly as his heartbeat soothes her.
"Well I don't feel anything anymore, do I? I only ever cut when I felt nothing and as long as you're here I won't need to cut. So the solution is for you to never leave."
She looks up at Gokudera and smiles. A smile that Gokudera gladly returns.
"Is that a marriage proposal?"
Phoenix laughs and moves up to peck Gokudera on the lips.
"No, it's not. I believe that's your job."
Gokudera lets out a short laugh.
"Well at least you know. I'm old-fashioned as fuck. So at least you understand that." Gokudera bites his lip. "But...would you? Want to, I mean."
Gokudera feels his face heat up as Phoenix doesn't answer right away.
"Yes."
She said suddenly before burying her face in his chest to hide the blush, a blush that was rapidly spreading across Gokudera's face.
"R-Really?"
"Well, why not?"
"I-I don't know...I thought you'd just slap me and call me stupid. I didn't think you'd actually want to."
He feels the tips of his ears heat up.
"I'll only slap you or call you stupid when you are being stupid." She shrugs and looks up at him. "This isn't stupid."
Gokudera smiles widely and kisses Phoenix's lips.
"Let's just take this one day at a time. But...I would too. Marry you, I mean."
He smiles awkwardly while trying to his blush, but once the blue-eyed girl kisses him back, he forgets all about his blush.
"We are a little young to be talking about marriage aren't we?"
Gokudera smiles softly as Phoenix rests against his chest again and wraps his arms tightly around her.
"So how long have you been awake?"
"I've been up for about..." Phoenix holds her wrist up to check her watch. "An hour."
"Did you sleep well?"
"I did actually, being by you sure does keep the nightmares away."
Phoenix smiles at Gokudera who is too preoccupied with this new information to notice.
"You...have nightmares?"
"You can't go through what I've been through without having nightmares."
Phoenix's tone is so full of pain that Gokudera automatically tightens his hold on her and shift his position so that his body is shielding her. His hand goes up and strokes her hair.
"It's okay. It's all over. I'm here for you now."
"Well like I said before, you are very good at keeping the nightmares away. You're just full of uses aren't you?"
"What are you talking about? I'm useless." Gokudera laughs as Phoenix slaps his chest lightly.
"You are full of uses."
"The only thing I'm capable of doing is reproducing." Gokudera smirks and Phoenix sighs slightly.
"And again with the sex...I'm going to hurt you, Hayato."
Gokudera freezes at the sound of his name, he had just realized that he loved the way she said it.
"You...You called me by my name."
"Yeah? So?"
Gokudera smiles and pecks Phoenix's lips.
"I like the way it sounds when you say it."
"You're such a sap for a guy, Hayato. You know that, right?"
Phoenix smirks at the shocked expression on Gokudera's face.
"What! N-No I'm not!"
Phoenix laughs at the blush spreading across Gokudera's cheeks.
"You kinda are, but don't worry. I love it."
"I'm not a fucking sap! I'm just saying that I like how my name sounds when you say it! Can't a guy just admit that without being called a sap! Jesus..."
The older teen laughs harder.
"You're so much fun to provoke."
"Oh shut up."
Phoenix smirks and they both go quiet as the green-eyed boy continues to stroke her hair. Eventually his fingers begin to go through her hair and he runs the thin long locks along his fingers, smiling as he does so. Phoenix just lays there and allows Gokudera to run his hands through her hair while she listens to his heartbeat, finding it to be incredibly soothing to the memories that were eating her alive. The red-haired girl finds herself slowly falling back asleep when an idea strikes her.
"Oh!"
"What happened?"
Gokudera's voice was filled with worry.
"Nothing...I just thought of an escape plan."
"I thought you didn't wanna carry me." Gokudera pokes Phoenix in the side, smiling as she laughs slightly. "But whatever, let's hear it."
"We burn the place down. And you're walking, at least until we can get a cab."
"I'm all for this right now, only one dilemma, Aydan. How the hell are we gonna make a fire that big? Reaper took away all my dynamite."
"There's a gas stove in the kitchen, all we need is a flame."
Phoenix smiles as Gokudera sits up, taking her with him.
"Why didn't we do this sooner!"
"Because you were hurt and I was high or drunk or going through withdrawal...Although I can see a small problem in the plan now..." Phoenix frowns as she shifts her body to a more comfortable position.
"Explain."
"Guards...with guns, and you can't exactly run right now."
"Last time I checked, there's a fucking window right over there Aydan. Wait...what floor are we on again?"
"The fourth floor. See the problem?" She sighs.
"Shit. How many guards are there exactly? Are there only two or did Reaper send more?"
"Yes, Hayato, there are only two guards for an entire torture house." Phoenix rolls her eyes. "And they are not Reaper's guards...or at least they weren't."
"I mean outside this room, dipshit. The others we can deal with as long as we can manage to kill off the ones outside."
"There's none outside the door. That's a rule...or it was a rule...I don't know. Well it used to be that the guards were stationed on the torture floors but not the apartment floors. I don't know how much Reaper has changed my rul-"
Phoenix shuts her mouth with an audible click as her teeth hit together.