Gokudera is still sitting against the wall when the doctor from before comes up the elevator and sees him.

"I'm assuming that you didn't give her a chance to explain why she did what she did." He sighs. "So what is she doing? Drinking or throwing things?"

Gokudera looks up and quickly wipes his face with his shirt.

"S-She wasn't throwing things or even drinking. All she had was a knife but she dropped it when she saw me. What she was going to do with it I have no fucking clue."

The doctor become very serious.

"Boy listen to me. Did she threaten to do anything at all before you left? Even the smallest thing. You have to tell me."

Gokudera shrugs.

"She threatened to kill herself but I'm sure it was just shit she spouted to make me stay. I already told her not to do anything stupid."

"She threatened to kill herself and you left the room!"

The doctor runs to the room and Hayato hears him scream 'NO!' and a loud thud. Gokudera contemplates whether or not he should run to see what happened but decides not to. Even though he really wants to.

"I already decided that I wasn't gonna get involved. She's gotta figure out her own shit. I can't keep trying to support her if she won't even help herself."

The sound of the Doctor yelling at Phoenix reaches him then.

"You STUPID girl! How dare you do that again! You swore on your mother's grave, your MOTHERS GRAVE, that you wouldn't try something like that again!"

Gokudera hears a smack and Phoenix say.

"Lay off Blue. I got nothing left to live for, so why bother?"

"BECAUSE THAT BOY OUT THERE LOVES YOU! YOU HAVE EVERYTHING LEFT YOU JUST DON'T SEE IT BECAUSE YOU ARE SO DAMN STUBBORN!"

"Blue he hates me now! Can't you see that! I make one choice, one fucking choice, so that I don't have to watch him die! One choice to get him away from the torture for a while and he loses it! I don't want to torture people again Blue! I hate the very thought of it! But I cannot watch that again! Two seconds in and I was five seconds from my breaking point! I did what I had to, to keep my happiness...like he wants."

"Did you tell him this?"

"No..."

"Why not?"

"I don't know...I just lost my temper."

"You have got to get a hold on that thing Phoenix.

"I know Blue."

Gokudera, who had frozen at the realization that this Blue Bird was able to yell at Phoenix so viciously and still not have Phoenix retaliate, bangs his head against the wall as guilt starts to eat at him. He loved Phoenix but he didn't even give her the benefit of the doubt, didn't even think that maybe she was doing what he wanted.

"I really don't know her all that well after all..." Gokudera can hear Blue directing Phoenix to lie down on the couch and after she refuses Blue threaten her with something called 'Icing' and Phoenix complies. "Maybe this doctor can teach me a thing or two. It's obvious they're close..." Gokudera sighs and decides to get up, slowly walking to the room. As he stands at the door, Blue asks why she never stitched up her ankles and Phoenix's laugh sounds off, the tone laced with sadness and pain. "Listen to her reasons. Isn't that what the Doc said? Keep your mouth shut and let her explain. That ought to do it."

Gokudera takes a deep breath and enters the room. Phoenix has her legs propped up on the arm of the couch her eyes buried in the crook of her elbow. Gokudera can clearly see the clean stitches on her ankle before Blue wraps a bandage around it.

"Blue...I'm an idiot aren't I?"

The Doctor smiles at her kindly.

"Yes, you are, but your hearts in the right place. Your brain just needs to catch up." Blue looks up and sees Hayato. "But you may have to get it there soon."

Phoenix uncovers her eyes, gives Blue a questioning look, sees Gokudera and looks away sadly.

"Come to get your stuff?"

Gokudera shakes his head.

"Nah, not today. Sorry to disappoint."

He inches closer, looking at Blue and staying quiet until he finishes bandaging her legs. Blue smiles approvingly as Hayato just stands there quietly.

"That's it boy, just wait for her to tell you why."

"You never disappoint Hayato..." Phoenix gasps in pain and pulls her leg away from Blue as he lightly squeezes her injures. "God damn, Blue! What was that for!"

"Phoenix explain. I'm not leaving until you do."

He half pushes Phoenix off the couch and over to Hayato, looking at them expectantly.

"Hayato I...I'm sorry...I know you only want what's best for me...that you only want me to be happy...but all I want is for you to be happy. If you're happy...then so am I." She looks back at Blue and he makes a motion with his hand telling her to go on. "I couldn't watch...that. I had to stop it...anyway I could. So I offered up all I had left to give. I...just..." Phoenix sighs. "I don't know...Seeing you get hurt like that" She lightly touches his bandaged wrist. "I couldn't take it after a few seconds. I was a second away from my breaking point from the get go. I know you don't want me to do this, that you want me to be happy, but I am happy...here, now..." Aydan looks at the ground and says in a soft voice. "...with you. And that's the way it's always been. As long as I'm with you I can handle almost anything."

"That's my girl."

Blue thinks as he stands up.

"See, that wasn't so hard. Phoenix stay off that leg. Boy, don't let her jump off anything. It would be such a waste if she died."

Phoenix watches as Blue leaves.

"I'm glad Blue's here. He's the best doctor I've ever met." She looks at Hayato and sits down. "What I said before...I didn't mean any of it. Okay, well the jumping thing I did, but nothing else."

Gokudera bites his lips, still not trusting his voice but decides to sit next to her.

"I'd be happy if you just stop...hurting yourself." He grabs her hand and brings it up to his lips and kisses it. "I can't keep doing that Aydan. Going back and forth between me trying to help you and trying to get through this and you just keep getting in the way of that. I know you care and I know you're doing this all for me, but you're just making things worse. If you keep trying to save me, you're only playing into Reapers plans to destroy you. To destroy us."

"I can't watch him torture you Hayato! That's what's going to break me...not torturing someone else! I can handle my end of the deal just by knowing you are safe...but I cannot take seeing you hurt." She lightly kisses his banged wrists. "I just can't."

He sighs.

"I'm just...I worry, ya know? I mean, are you going to be okay? I don't want you to go back to how you were before. I know how you get when you...torture someone. I don't want that for you..."

Phoenix looks down at her hands, and only now does Gokudera realize that she doesn't see the pale skin but rather the way they look when they are covered in blood.

"Honestly...I don't know. I swore off physical torture after...after the last time. I think...as long as you're still here when I get back...I think I'll be fine."

She looks up at him and smiles slightly. Gokudera looks at her sadly and before he knows it, his lips latch onto hers and he's kissing her softly but passionately.