Disclaimer: I don't own the characters of Star Trek or Harry Potter. They belong to J.J Abrams, Gene Roddenberry and J.K Rowling

Warnings: Slash (malexmale pairings), threesomes, AU, violence, angst, sexual situations, anxiety disorders, badly written accents, etc.

Pairings: Established Spock/Kirk, Sulu/Chekov, Scotty/Uhura, Future Spock/Harry/Kirk

19. Trauma

"You do realize that how you've been acting recently is more than what it seems. That it isn't just normal stress or anxiety," McCoy stated as he worked on his PADD. Harry sat nearby going over vaccines and various medicines they needed replenished. Looking up from his work, Harry frowned, "Yes… I'm a doctor as well Leonard and I've known about it for some time."

"PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. An anxiety disorder than usually develops after a person is exposed to a terrifying ordeal in which grave physical harm occurred or was threatened," McCoy recited.

Harry nodded, "Symptoms come in three different categories: Re-experiencing Symptoms, Avoidance Symptoms and Hyperarousal Symptoms. Re-experiencing Symptoms include nightmares, flashbacks and frightening thoughts. Re-experiencing symptoms may cause problems in a person's everyday routine. They can start from the person's own thoughts and feelings. Words, objects, or situations that are reminders of the event can also trigger re-experiencing. Then there's Avoidance Symptoms which include feeling emotionally numb; feeling strong guilt, worry or depression; losing interest in activities that were enjoyable in the past; having trouble remembering the event or even staying away from places, events or objects that are reminders of the experience."

"Things that remind a person of the traumatic event can trigger avoidance symptoms. These symptoms may cause a person to change his or her personal routine. For example, after a bad car accident, a person who usually drives may avoid driving or riding in a car. And finally there's Hyperarousal Symptoms which leads to the patient being easily startled, feeling tense or on edge and even having difficulty sleeping along with having angry outbursts," McCoy finished.

Harry didn't appear bothered. He found out he had PTSD when he was nineteen after he had gone to one of his professors who was also a doctor, explaining of his night terrors and the shifted feelings of his emotions. His professor explained that his symptoms were very much like many PTSD patients he met in the past and felt it was best that Harry sought professional help.

So once a week, usually on Saturdays, Harry found himself with his psychoanalyst Julia Richards. For nearly a year he spoke with the kind and understanding woman, giving her the muggle version of his past; the death of his parents, the abuse he suffered at the Dursleys, Sirius' death, the death of his friends during a bombing at his school and the struggles of his life trying to raise his son while working toward a better future for themselves.

She listened patiently and helped him work to maintain his PTSD, explaining that while it never really went away Harry could do things (he refused to take the drugs) to help control it. She had been a life saver and after that, Harry seldom had any sort of trouble with his PTSD, until recently. But considering the circumstances, it wasn't surprising.

"You realize as Chief Medical Officer and your boss that I have to make sure that you're taking the proper steps to ensure your recovery," McCoy explained. Harry nodded in understanding knowing it was the truth. But he could also see the genuine concern for his well being in his eyes and it made him feel a bit better knowing that he had someone who cared besides Teddy.

"And you also know that I'm going to have to tell Jim and Spock too although they might realize it already. Might explain why those two are dancing around you as if you're going to break instead of just asking you if you're okay," McCoy huffed rolling his eyes.

Harry laughed, "They're only worried and I kind of understand how they feel. I was like that with my friends before…" He trailed off. McCoy eyed him before softening his voice as he inquired, "You wanna talk about it?"

Harry chewed on his bottom lip for a moment remembering the advice Julia gave him before he left for the Enterprise. He saw her in his mind's eye hands on her hips, her dirty blond hair pulled back into a bun as she gave him a serious look. Never forget that you'll have friends, that you'll have people to care about you. So talk to them and let them in, that's what she had said.

Sighing, Harry nodded, "Okay."

McCoy set his PADD down knowing he could work on it later as Harry made himself more comfortable. He paused before speaking, "I was just over a year old when my parents died on Halloween night…" And as Harry spoke, he found himself feeling lighter which pleased him for now he knew he had at least one other person to count on. He would have to thank Julia the next time he talked to her, maybe have some flowers sent to her bless her kind heart.

IMPORTANT! Just to let you know, I will be leaving for Houston this coming Thursday to visit my family and to see my brother's graduation. Plus I will be helping a cousin with her catering business since I wish to open a business of my own. I'll be gone for threek weeks so I decided to update every day for the next few days. I'll also update DFI III and hopefully put up the first part of Shinobi of the Fellowship since I'm almost done with it. Anyway, please review! Thanks!

~Seth