A week later
Grace's POV
I'm sitting on the couch in Adrian's condo and I just can't help but to think how amazing my life has been lately. Especially, since I don't have to worry about boys. I swear they were such a pain in the ass. It seemed like they only wanted one thing; sex. Sure, I like having sex. It found it to be enjoyable but somehow, I always felt so guilty afterwards. Maybe because I went against my own beliefs? I can't exactly figure out why.
I have a feeling this summer will be memorable. I'm living with my best friend, Adrian, whom I have a lot of fun with. We spend every night talking, doing each other's nails, watching movies, and just pigging out on ice cream. Sometimes, we'll even pull all-nighters by just talking about random stuff. Adrian is such a nice person. Most people think she's mean but deep down; she's a sensitive person who has been through a lot. I don't blame her for being mean towards others. I'm sure if I went through what she went through, I would be mean to others.
Lately, I noticed Adrian acting weird. She doesn't talk about Omar that often or doesn't go out with him anymore. The other night, I overheard her having a conversation with him on the phone. I guess he wanted to go out with her but she said no. She said she wasn't feeling too good. I found that weird because she was feeling well that night. Something is going on with Adrian but I just can't put my finger on it. Perhaps she's tired of being used? I'm worried though. Maybe I should ask what's wrong with Adrian. I'd ask her right now but I have no idea where she went. I haven't seen her all day. Could she be out with someone else? I don't know. Maybe I should call her and ask where she went?
Right after I thought about calling her, I heard a car door slam outside. Could that be her? Before I could look outside, she walked in.
"Hey, Adrian!" I greeted "Where'd you go?"
She shrugged "I just went out for a drive. I need to get stuff out of my head. You know?"
I did know and that feeling sucks. Like, you have so much on your mind and the best thing you can do is go out for drive because saying at home makes things worse.
"Yeah, I know what you mean…" I murmured "Are you feeling better now?"
She walked by me and sat on the couch I was sitting on. She looked a little annoyed but it is probably because of how hot the condo is right now. Sometimes, I hate the heat. It makes the condo get so hot and we can't do anything about it. We practically walk around the condo in our bra and underwear!
"Eh..." She paused and took off her shirt "I'm feeling a little better."
I watched her neatly fold her shirt and set it on her lap. I didn't know what to say next. Should I ask her why she went out for a drive or should I change the subject? Part of me wants to ask her why. I don't like seeing my best friend look confused.
Adrian's POV
I wasn't feeling better. Of course I lied to get my way out of explaining why. Maybe that wasn't a very good idea. I mean, I've been meaning to talk to her about my sexuality but I don't want to scare her. What if she takes it the wrong way and decides to move back with her mom? I don't want that to happen! Do you have any idea how humiliated I would be?
"Adrian…" She softly said "What's wrong?"
Oh no…
"Nothing," I lied. She shot me a 'I know you're lying' look. "I just have a lot of things on my mind, okay?"
"Like…?" She asked "I'm sure I can help if you would just tell me what's wrong."
By what, overreacting and leaving? I didn't know what to say and I stayed quiet.
"You can tell me anything…" She added.
"Grace, I don't know if I should even tell you!"
"Oh…" I heard her softly say and noticed her look away. Shit. I hurt her feelings.
"Fuck… I'm sorry," I apologized "I didn't mean to say it like that. I'm just… I'm just scared. I really am. I don't know how to handle this."
That drive made me realize that I am not straight. Honestly, I think I am a lesbian. How do I break the news to Grace, though?
"Handle what?" She asked, looking back at me "Be honest, Adrian."
I swallowed hard and began panicking.