Gokudera smiles softly as Phoenix.
"Sorry I'm so rusty. I haven't played since my mom died…Well, unless the other day counts…"
That was rusty! God, I want to see what it sounds like with a little practice out into it." Phoenix looks at Gokudera in slight awe. "I…I think you pushed her back…How the hell did you do that?"
"What! Nah…I messed up in a few parts for sure." Gokudera looks confused. "What do you mean I pushed her back? The old Phoenix?"
The girl nods.
"Hayato…that was…I have no words to describe it…The only thing I can even think to say about it is that…You looked like my Dad when he would play."
"You're dad used to play the piano?"
"Yeah…He used to play Mozart to get me to go to sleep." He laughs slightly. "I've never seen anyone play like him…until now."
Phoenix smiles at him and Gokudera smiles softly in return.
"What was your favorite piece?"
"I love Requiem…But out of all the classical…My favorite would be Beethoven's Fur Elise. My Dad would play that for my Mom when they thought me and Nicky were asleep…My mom would dance around the apartment while my Dad played…"
Gokudera takes in the sight smile and gets up and walks over to Phoenix.
"Fur Elise was one of the pieces I learned as a kid. It's one of my favorites to."
Hesitantly sits down next to her.
"Maybe you could play it for me sometimes…" Phoenix hesitantly leans against Gokudera's shoulder. "I…I really am sorry Hayato…I…I don't know…I was a different person…I guess…"
The silver-haired teen wraps his arm around Phoenix's shoulder and pulls her closer to him.
"I'll play any song for you. Any one you want." He rests his head on top of hers. "No, I understand…I too used to be a different person before I met Juudaime. I'm sorry that I wasn't more understanding…"
"No…You reacted just the way I thought you would. You found out that your girlfriend was ready and willing to kill you and your best friend and you reacted the way anyone would…I'm still sorry…"
Gokudera places his hand over hers.
"I'm fine now. I forgive you and I hope you'll also forgive me…"
He brings Phoenix's hand to his lips and kisses it gently.
"Forgive you for what? You didn't do anything wrong." Phoenix tucks her legs to the side. "You never do anything wrong…You're always so…amazing to me and I…I just pushed you away…"
"I always fuck up. Don't say I don't because I do." The Italian teen frowns. "I always hurt you in some way. Like with my reactions…And pushing me away is natural. I do the same with everyone else. But with you…you're something completely new for me. So I'm always scared I'm going to screw something up."
"You don't...What hurts me is that fact that you are this amazing person and I feel like I'm holding you back...or that you're going to get killed trying to protect me and I know I'm not worth it...
I've never really cared about what others thought of me...Foster Care gave me a really thick skin but with you...it's like...I need to prove that I'm worth all the effort you put in...and then I remember I'm not and I say something that I know is going to make you mad and I...
I know that I'm not worth all the things you do...I'm not worth you turning yourself in...or taking the torture...or fighting Reaper...and keep trying to tell myself that you think I am but I know I'm not and..."
Gokudera eyes widen and he quickly tilts her chin up and his green eyes meet her blue ones.
"You are worth every single fight! Every bit of torture I go through and whatever amount of pain I have to suffer, it's worth it! You're the best things that's ever happened to me Aydan. Stop thinking you aren't!"
Phoenix curls into a ball by his side, resting her head on his lap.
"But I'm not…I'm broken and…half dead inside…I'm the reason you're even here…"
Gokudera strokes Phoenix's hair.
"That's fine. You won't be broken forever. I'm sure about that. So for now, let me just help you and let me love you."
"I'm trying...but I can't let you waste your time on something that can't be fixed.I have eleven years of baggage weighing me down...And I don't want to take you down with me..."
"I'm not wasting my time. Everything I do, every second I spend on you, it's worth it."
The girl traces a flower on Gokudera's knees.
"Even if it gets you killed?"
Gokudera nods.
"Even if I get killed it'll be worth it."
"I'm not going to let that happened…but…Thank you…I'm not used to someone caring about me…"
Gokudera bends down and kisses Phoenix cheek.
"Well then, I guess I need to get you used to it."
Phoenix turns her head and catches Gokudera's mouth.
"Good luck with that."
Gokudera smirks.
"I think I'm doing a pretty good job." His hand travels down her side. "Your body sure is getting used to my love."
Phoenix closes her eyes and sighs before siting up and repositions them so that she is laying against his chest.
"Well I don't know why that is…"
Phoenix laughs slightly and Gokudera grins.
"I'm surprised we haven't had about 20 little brats running around by now."
Gokudera laughs and wraps his arms around her.
"That will never happen. I'm stopping after four."
"Only four? Damn and here I thought you wanted a whole football team."
"Oi! Just because I'm Irish does not mean I want to have a bunch of kids!
"Hey, I'm not saying it's because you're Irish. I have pretty huge family too. Sure, I'm only one of two but I have a shit load of cousins."
"Lucky! Both my parents were only children."
"Whatever you say Babe"
Gokudera rests his cheek on top of Phoenix's head and holds her tighter.
"There it is again."
"There what is again?"
"You're annoying ability to change the subject and lift my mood…I really don't like that."
"What do you mean? I'm just continuing the conversation. No hidden agenda, I just like seeing your smiling face."
Gokudera grins down at Phoenix and she pecks him on the lips.
"Well just keep talking and you'll see a lot of it…unless Reaper decides to show up."
"Don't even mention that asshole right now."
"Aw, but if he did show up I could fight him...Hell I may even beat him...That would be fun."
"I'd rather kill that motherfucker with my bare hands."
"See I was thinking acid…or…rabid animals." The girl grins. "Or maybe both."
"I say more medieval torture methods."
"He gets off on that stuff. My ways…" Phoenix looks up at she hears a knock on the door. "Speak of the Devil and He shall appear…Damn."