A/N: Okay so I am a horrible writer and I am taking AP classes right now so yeah but it doesnt excuse my neglect I am soo sooo sorry about not writing. I have been writing this since the NCIS episode where gibbs gets shot and goes back through his life. I hope u like it and the next real chapter will be up soon it is half way done.
I curled up against G's chest thinking about how much I loved my life, my boyfriend, my family, and my friends. I had everything I ever wanted in my life. I closed my eyes and breathed in the aroma of G.
I looked around sitting up and staring as I saw everyone frozen around me. I looked from the faces of my friends to Paige to G and even further back into my past. I saw my ex fiancé standing with Logan and other navy buddies. I got up and walked around the room looking from familiar face to familiar face. I turned and saw a face I knew well, the only person that was moving. My mom.
"Mom" I said staring at her standing there in the clothes she had worn the night she had died. I glanced behind her and saw my sister and brother standing with my father and our dog. I hugged my mother staring behind her at my family.
"Dear, we've missed you" she said holding me close to her like I would disappear. I hugged her for what seemed like hours before letting her go and running over to my father and siblings pulling them all into a hug. I was crying by this point when my mother walked me over to where Paige was standing.
"You have to go with your Paige now but we will see you soon, I promise." Paige started moving almost instantly when my mother said her name. She hugged me quickly before leading me out to the kitchen.
"So what do you think" she questioned smiling and pouring two cups of tea.
"Umm well, It's cool I guess but why and how" I said staring at the hall where everyone was talking and sitting on the ground.
"Well you have been questioning life lately and this will show you everything you need" she said sitting back and waiting for my reaction.
"So sci fi BS right" I said leaning forward.
"Does it matter" she said simply.
"Well all powerful one what should we do" I said glancing at the hall one more time.
"Well I thought we could start when you joined NCIS or we can talk about when you slept with G, your choice" she said looking at me seriously.
"Okay umm let's start with NCIS" I said sitting back waiting for something to happen. I blinked and everything was different. I was sitting in an office dressed in nice clothes and a pair of black heals. I looked around and noticed the sign was in German. I glanced down the hall and saw a group of men dressed in black coming toward me. I got out of the chair and slid over the cubicle wall and into the next cubicle. The man sitting there was staring and I covered his mouth shaking my head. I looked out into the hall checking to see if it was clear before sliding out and running toward for the stairs.
Everything froze around me and Paige came around the corner. "Ohh come on this is the best part" I said glaring at her.
"Yes but what would have happened if you had gone for the elevators or you hadn't noticed the men" she said pulling me over to the elevators.
"I don't know" I said sighing and leaning up against the doors.
"Well think about it, you would have never met that guy from N CIS and those guys" she said pointing at the guys frozen outside my cubicle "would have taken you and tortured you before dumping your body in the river. You would be dead neither of us would have ever met the team. But if you had gone to the elevator and lived where would you be? What would have happened?"
"Okay, well I don't join NCIS, or at least the part that would have brought me to the team. I wouldn't have reconnected with Logan."
Everything around me started swirling and I was sitting back at the desk, I got up and followed my exact steps till I got to the hall that led to the elevators. I turned and ran for the elevators pressing the button and sliding in when it opened. I leaned against the wall and closed my eyes breathing deeply. When I heard the beep I opened my eyes and watched the door slide open slowly. I stepped out and looked around in awe. I was standing in the middle of NCIS headquarters. I looked over and saw Tony, Ziva and McGee all working on their computers as well as Gibbs coming down the stairs with a piece of paper in one hand and a coffee in the other. I walked over to where Paige was sitting and looked at her questioningly.
"Welcome to your outcome, Gibbs called you and asked if you could help them with a case, you said yes he said thanks and you all never looked back" she said motioning to the desk. I went around and looked at the pictures on the desk. There were pictures of all of us, one of Gibbs and I, one of Ziva and I and one of McGee and I. There were a few of Tony and me, all of which were Tony holding me or hugging me and there was one of us kissing. I looked at Paige in shock but she shook her head and pointed to my hand. I looked down and saw a shiny diamond ring on my finger. At that moment everyone started moving.
"Hey Christel how was your weekend" Ziva said smiling at me from behind her desk. Tony got up and walked over to me before pulling me into a hug and a quick kiss.
"It was great Ziva" I said simply sitting down slowly still getting used the thought of Tony and me.
"Ziva McGee we have something to tell you" Tony said smiling down at me.
"Yeah we saw the rock when she came in Tony, its nice and congrats" McGee said smiling over at us before going back to work. I was loosing it as I got up and walked past Gibbs and toward the bathrooms. I got to the bathroom and locked the door behind me. I had never wanted to be with Tony the rest of my life, I hadn't ever wanted to get married. I felt sick and I looked around the bathroom noticing Paige leaning up against the closest stall.
"Wow I thought you would be happy, you never ruined anyone's life and you didn't add to the team, nothing really changes, well except Tony and Ziva" she said smiling.
"Why do I feel so terrible then" I said glowering at her.
"Think about it, you think you would marry Tony if you weren't in love with him" she said looking at me.
"I would but only if I was… NO no I'm not, I cant" I said stammering.
"Welcome to motherhood" she said walking over to me.
"I don't like this make it stop" I said closing my eyes. I opened them again and I was sitting at my desk next to Deeks and Kensi. They were frozen, great. I turned and saw Logan sitting at Paige's desk with his feet up. He got up and walked over.
"Hey sis, so let's say you did come here and you did stay but you and G didn't happen. Who would you b with, who would balance your crazy out, what if?" he said as everything started moving around me. G and Sam walked in talking and Kensi and Deeks were discussing the finer points of Kensi's driving.
Hetty walked in and stopped in front of me with a file "an undercover mission miss Devries." I looked at it and noticed similarities to a case I had worked on months ago. I couldn't remember the ending but I remembered G had helped me out one of the nights he was at my house. I smiled at him and he looked away going back to his paperwork. A man walked in, he was wearing a suit and tie. He turned and walked over to me leaning down and kissing me slowly.
"What are you doing" I said a little shocked.
"Babe what's wrong" he said staring down at me looking concerned. I got up and made a beeline upstairs noticing G's satisfied smug face. I shut the door of the kitchen and turned to see Logan laughing hysterically.
"What was that for" I said glaring at him.
"It shows you that life would suck without us" he said smiling "we got to get back though someone wants to show you what would have happened back in the day. Come on." I closed my eyes again keeping them closed until I heard a voice I knew well.
"Hey baby" my ex fiancé said smiling at me. I got up and walked over to him letting him pull me into a warm hug. I had missed this. I felt a tear slide down my face slowly.
"You're dead" I said looking up at him.
"Yeah I am but what if I wasn't what if I hadn't joined the military or if you had gotten placed in the same battalion with me what if neither of us had been interested in the military."
"We would be married or dead either way" I said thinking about it.
"Let's go with married because I don't want to be dead" he said smiling at me. I closed my eyes and imagined living with him. When I opened my eyes I was in a king sized bed with a warm body pressed against me. Just a dream I thought as I turned and saw my ex fiancé laying next to me. I shot up in bed and looked around at the lavish well lit bedroom I was in. I got up and slid out the door walking down the hall toward the stairs. I heard a door creak open behind me as a little girl with brown curly hair and blue sparkling eyes stepped out carrying a stuffed bear.
"Mommy" she said rubbing her eyes.
"Yes sweetie" I said hesitantly not knowing what to do. She ran over and hugged my leg before smiling up at me.
"Mommy can I help you" she said motioning to be picked up.
"Umm sure kiddo come on" I said picking her up and walking downstairs. I walked down the stairs grabbing a couple of the more dangerous toys and throwing them in a basket at the bottom. I carried the girl into the kitchen and set her on the counter looking through the cupboards. I grabbed the cereal and went to find the milk. I pulled two bowls down and grabbed two spoons petting them next to the little girl.
"Mommy why is daddy still sleeping" she said looking at me questioningly.
"Well I don't know but I think we should wake him up" I said putting her on the floor. She ran toward the stairs and I followed almost laughing, it reminded me so much of when was little. We got to the bedroom and I opened the door following the little girl into the room and over to the bed. I flopped down next to him as she started jumping up and down singing some annoying little kids song. My husband? Rolled over groaning and pulling a pillow over his head. I smiled and pulled it off his head before kissing him slowly. He smiled and opened his eyes pulling me back into a kiss. I smiled and pushed away sitting up before grabbing the covers and pulling them back. He rolled over and wrapped one of his arms around me and the other around our kid.
"I'm going to go make breakfast you to relax kay" I said smiling and getting up. I walked downstairs and looked around in the cupboards. I turned and found Logan sitting on the counter.
"What are you doing here" I said whispering.
"I'm here because I wanted to let you know what happens next. High school sweethearts are less likely to stay together than normal couples" he said smiling.
"Wait what, no I am happy" I said glaring at him.
"You can't stay but think about it do you want him lying to you. He isn't the man you fell for in high school. He lies and cheats, G would never do that" Logan said shrugging. Everything around me started to disappear and I closed my eyes feeling a tear slide down my cheek. I opened them slowly and saw my mother sitting across from me.
"Hi dear" she said reaching out for my hand. I reached out and took it knowing what was coming next. I closed my eyes and felt everything change. I opened my eyes hesitantly and saw my family sitting at a long dining table in a fancy room. I looked around and realized everyone had aged a lot.
"So how is college going dear" my mom said looking at my older brother smiling.
"Well you know medical school it's a riot" he said smiling at her before going back to eating.
She turned to my sister and asked "How's the job at the law office going?"
"Ohh great I just closed for my boss yesterday, he was really happy" she said boasting.
"And how's my little star doing" she said turning to me.
"Uhh well good" I said turning back to my food.
"What why are you so shy tonight you usually tell us all about your job" she said looking concerned.
"Sorry I just, I just ya know" I said picking at the plate of food in front of me.
"Dear you have a dream job, you get to work for our country and you a CEO of a huge company, you always tell us about work. I mean after all it is the navy" she said staring at me.
"I ahh need to go to the bathroom" I said getting up slowly and walking down the hall. I got to the bathroom and shut the door leaning against it and looking around for someone to help me. Logan stood in front of me with his arms crossed and a look on his face that made me want to punch him.
"Yes" he said raising his eyebrows.
"Look I need a run down on my life here, I have no idea who I am or what I do. You gotta tell me" I said a little freaked out.
"Okay, okay so basic rundown, no one died in the fire your mom saves everyone and you all move to a nicer house in L.A., your sister graduated with a 3.8 GPA and went to a college in New York before going to Harvard Law and graduating top of her class. Your brother wanted to be a police officer and worked for a couple years as a cop in San Francisco until he decided to become a surgeon so now he is going to school and has an internship at your dad's hospital. Your dad is now the head of the hospital and your mom retired two years ago. You are a CEO of a major corporation that employs Navy men. Your company builds weapons and vehicles for the navy. You have never met Paige or me or your ex fiancé or any of the NCIS team. Everyone from your life is gone, but in about ten minutes you are going to have to go into the office so have fun." he said finishing his 'basic" rundown.
I got up off the floor still freaking out. I walked out and sat down at the table looking around at my family knowing this wouldn't last. A phone in my pocket started ringing in my pocket. I grabbed it and looked at the I.D. it was from my boss.
"Hey guys I gotta go, my office is calling" I said getting up and heading for the door.
"Bye dear we love you" mom said getting up and hugging me. I walked over to the door grabbing my keys and my jacket. I walked out to the line of cars in the driveway; the line consisted of a Ferrari FF, Spyker C12 Zagato, an Aston Martin one-77, a Lamborghini Murcielago, and a Pagani Huayra. I looked at my keys and saw it had a Pagani logo. Smiling, I started the car and looked around. I jumped seeing Logan sitting next to me.
"What the hell are you doing" I said staring at him.
"You need directions to the office don't you" he said smiling.
"Umm well I guess but you need to understand something, I am GOING to speed" I said smiling.
"Okay freeway, let's go" he said smiling. I felt like I was flying and it was amazing. I pulled into a parking lot and looked at the crowd of people talking.
"You may want to change into your clothes in the back" Logan said pointing at the pencil skirt and red button down dress shirt. I sighed and changed into the outfit and put on the black heels on. I got out and walked over to the crowd. I saw three news stations standing outside questioning people. I let my hair down out of the ponytail and fluffing it out. I walked toward the door ignoring the barrage of questions aimed at me. I got into the area where there was a body of a navy officer. I sighed and saw the old team looking over the body.
"Hey what the hell are you doing here" I said walking toward G and Sam.
"Whoa maam I need you to stay back" Deek's said stepping toward me.
"I am managing my company, I am the CEO, why are you here? I want the FBI here now." I said glaring at him.
"I'll take this Deeks" G said coming over "We have jurisdiction therefore we are taking care of this." He said gesturing toward the body.
"Great just wrap it up soon okay I am already sick of your BS" I said rolling my eyes and turning back to the manager. It was sad knowing they didn't know me and that they didn't care. I sighed and retrieved my thoughts staying strong.
"Well she is a bitch" G said turning back to Sam.
"Really well aren't we all professionals here, look okay I don't like you and you don't like me but I was interrupted at my family dinner so none of us are happy" I said glaring at him.
"Fine with me" he said turning back to the body. The owner of the company walked in with a few of the members of the board.
"Sir I am so sorry, did someone call you. I am going to fire who ever called you" I said glaring at everyone from the company.
"Don't worry about it, just do something about the crowds outside" he said motioning at the door to the outside.
"Yes sir" I said looking at the door as it flew open.
"Hello, I'm with the CIA and we are taking over this investigation" a guy said walking in, in a suit.
"Thank god someone who actually knows that they are doing" I said walking over to the guy.
"I'm the CEO, anything that you need just let me know, I am here for the entire investigation" I said smiling and shaking his hand.
"Hey this is a navy seal and therefore navy property" G said walking over.
"Yes well he was working for us and so we have the right to investigate his murder" the guy said smiling sarcastically.
"You will be hearing from our boss" G said glaring at the CIA agent.
"Well you boys play nice, I have to go out and do damage control" I said walking outside. I spoke to the press answering questions and making sure I didn't say anything. I walked back to my car and got in sighing and throwing the heels into the back. I turned and saw Logan sitting in the passenger seat.
"What the hell, you scared me" I said hitting my head against the window.
"So how is it going, are you enjoying it? It seems to be suiting you" he said raising an eyebrow.
"Yes I am I like it here, I mean what does it change me not being with the team they seem fine without me and I seem fine without them, look I love you and I would miss seeing but it's my family I can't say I would give this up to go back to my old life."
"Listen, think about this you will never know me or Paige, the team won't know you and you will forget them, Sammy and all of your foster families. Paige would be working at a dead end job back in Bellingham and she is married to a guy who drinks and hits her. I know it's not your fault but you moving all over saves her and you. Your ex, he goes into the marines and dies but no one really cares and everyone forgets him. I don't join NCIS and I wind up KIA which sends my mom over the edge and she goes to a mental hospital while my dad turns into a drunk and kills a couple and their 3 year old in a car accident. He goes to jail and my mom dies in the mental hospital. The team ohh the team as you saw there was no Dom. He died after being kidnapped and tortured. Kensi is hurt by that but she gets Deeks as her new partner and they work together through this case but then Deeks and Kensi get in a shootout and Kensi takes a bullet for Deeks she ends up so messed up she never works again. G and Sam stay at NCIS but they aren't the same because they were supposed to be there to help Kensi and Deeks. G ends up leaving NCIS and works undercover for the CIA. Sam works with new partners and then leaves NCIS to spend more time with the girls. Sam moves to another state and starts to work as an FBI agent. G never gets close to anyone again and he is forced to retire. He turns into an old crazy ex agent who never hangs out with anyone. See this is why you are important you may have wanted your family back but life works better when they die. None of this is your fault but you save us all from our misery, that's why you have met everyone because you saved us all. Oddly enough you are the reason we are all here." I wow in tears by the time he had finished and I threw my arms around him closing my eyes and crying into his strong shoulder.
I shot up in bed looking around the dark familiar room. I was panting and I felt tears drying on my face. G sat up looking at me questioningly. I threw myself into his arms and started crying again. It had been a tough night for me and waking up didn't help.
"Babe what's wrong" G said a little concerned.
"I had a dream it was sad. I never want to lose you ever" I said with my arms wrapped around him and my head resting against his neck.
"I will never leave you okay I love you" he said pulling me into his lap and hugging me.
"I love you too" I said smiling to myself. I did have a nice car in my dreams though…
A/N: I kno this was really long. I hope you enjoyed it and let me know what you think.