I paused considering if it was worth answering. He sighed and unwrapped my legs from my waist before lowering me to the ground. I slid out of his arms and ran over to the phone. I saw it was Paige and I picked it up "the world better be ending or I swear to god I am gunna kill you."
"Christel you should come into the office, we are having a meeting about the holidays without G" she said quickly.
"You know how I feel about the holidays; I hate them so you can leave me out of it."
"Can I vote for you then" she said sounding exasperated. I looked up and saw G leaning against the doorway.
"Yeah sure whatever, I gotta go" I said throwing the phone on the couch and walking over to G and jumping into his arms. He carried me back to our room kissing me the entire way.
********************Next morning***********************
I opened my eyes and rolled over curling into G's chest. He mumbled and wrapped his arms around me before dozing off again. I lay there for a few more minutes before I slid out of his grasp and walked over to my closet.
"G where are my jeans" I said sticking my head out of the closet.
"Did you check the dryer" he said still half asleep. I sighed and walked through the house to the dryer. My jeans were in fact in there but they were still wet. I walked back to my closet and kept looking for something to wear. I sighed deciding I would have to wear a skirt.
I walked into the kitchen 30 minutes later completely ready to go. G turned around and dropped his coffee.
"Damn" was all he could come up with. I was wearing a red mini tube skirt with a black crop top. He continued to stare as I walked over and kissed him on the cheek. I made my coffee in silence noticing how G was still staring.
"What" I said looking at him and then down at me. Was there something on my clothes? When I looked up g moved and grabbed my waist pulling me against him. He kissed me quickly lingering for a minute before he pulled me closer. I pulled away and looked questioningly at him.
"Do you see yourself I mean just wow with that little bit of tattoo showing in the back its just wow" he said rushed.
I blushed before getting out "should I change?"
"God no" he said picking me up.
"Work" I said more of a question than anything.
"It can wait" he said silencing my arguments with another almost hungry kiss. I felt my shirt slide off and I heard it land softly on the floor just as G shut the bedroom door with his foot.
I parked next to Deeks car rushing toward the door fixing my skirt and hair. I looked in the mirror that was in the hall and did some last minute touch ups to my hair. It was amazing that it was even still in place. I turned the corner to see Deeks, Sam, and Kensi all playing a mini game of basketball while Dom sat on his desk laughing at the antics every so often. Paige was sitting on the couch next to Nel talking about something while Erik was keeping score.
It was at that moment I saw it, the Christmas decorations everywhere. On my desk there was fake snow and a mini Christmas tree. I turned and looked at the big 12 foot tree standing fully decorated. I thought back on the conversation last night and shook my head. I thought they were talking about something small not this. It reminded me of how Christmases used to be.
I shook my head walking into the bull pen and straight to my desk. I ducked as the ball was thrown to Kensi and threw my coat on my desk grabbing the tree and setting it on Sam's desk then taking the fake snow and throwing it on Paige's desk. I went over to Hetty's desk dropping off some paperwork that I had done. Everyone was still watching me curiously when G walked in.
"What the hell is this" He said grabbing one of the stuffed Santa's that was on his desk. I flinched as he turned to Sam, I could tell G was furious.
"G come on it's the time of the season you gotta accept that" Deeks said putting an arm around Kensi's shoulder as if to protect her. I walked back over quickly putting my hand on his chest and looking at him in the eyes.
"Go walk it off" I said pointing upstairs.
"Fine" he said turning and walking into the gym. I let out my pent up breath turning to see everyone do the same.
"Really, you had to go there. God do you people have no feelings? We don't do holidays its just not what we do deal or go to hell, got it?" I turned and walked upstairs and straight to the gym sliding in and closing the door. G was pacing, I could tell he was furious and that I needed to calm him down. I walked over and stopped G with one hand. He glared at me before turning back to pacing
"G I don't like it either but they outnumber us" I said stopping him and making him look at me.
"So they don't have to rub it in our faces, I have no family I was in an orphanage during the holidays" he said staring at me.
"So was I, or a house that didn't want me. But we do have a family. The people down there want us for who we are and they love us. Plus even if we didn't have them this is the first holiday I know I wont be alone" I said hugging him before I kissed him on the cheek and headed for the door. He grabbed my arm and pulled me into his arms. I hugged him and let him hold me for a minute before I pulled away and walked to the door.
"Come down when you are calmed down" I said turning and shutting the door behind me. I walked back to my desk and sat down going to my paperwork. Deeks and Sam were staring at me while Kensi looked confused.
"He's fine I just had to explain everything to him" I said not looking up. Sam shook his head in amazement while Deeks stood there still in shock. Kensi shrugged and turned back to her work. I watched G walk slowly down stairs and over to his desk sitting down and going to his paperwork. I smiled to myself before going back to my work.
**********2 weeks till Christmas**********
"G come on just this once" I said glaring at him across the dinner table.
"No, I won't have a Christmas tree. I don't mind the office being decorated but not my house not this year" he said looking at me.
I sighed going back to my food and ignoring him the rest of dinner. Our waiter brought us the bill and G handed him his credit card wordlessly. I got up a few seconds later and walked out and toward the car. All I wanted was a little spirit at home something that said happy holidays but no. I stared out the window watching the cars and the city go by. We pulled into the drive way and I got out walking into the house still in utter silence. G walked in and threw his jacket on the couch and his keys on the table.
"Really" I said finally snapping.
"What" he said looking at me like I was crazy.
"Sure just throw your stuff everywhere, throw your jacket on the couch, your keys any old place. Let's just leave stuff all over the house. If I didn't go around cleaning up after you this house would be a HELL HOLE" I said by the time I was done I was yelling.
"Why are you yelling it's not that big of a deal" he said rolling his eyes and going for the TV remote.
"It's not just your stuff you act like i'm just spending the night. You asked me to move in remember, you wanted me here. You need to give me some say in the decisions, that's what a relationship is." Said getting even more worked up. I could feel my side throbbing but I wasn't paying attention.
"Ohh please, you run this house don't even pull this bull shit. Just because I said u can't have a Christmas tree doesn't mean you don't get a say" he said standing up and rolling his eyes.
"Don't roll your eyes I'm serious I don't ever decide anything around here. You act like I am just here as a fuck buddy and nothing else. Maybe I will go back to my apartment at least there I chose what I did and what décor I had up. I'm sure Paige would love to have me back." I said going toward where my keys were.
"Fine go ahead leave, I don't care" he yelled after me as I shut the door. I could see our neighbors in the windows staring at me. I sighed and got in my car dialing Paige.
"Hey what's up" she said over the phone.
"Can I come over" I said holding back frustration and tears.
"Yeah I have a bottle of wine and cookies" she said slowly.
"Dom's over isn't he" I said sighing.
"Yeah but I can kick him out it's not that big of a deal."
"No its fine, I'm just gunna go for a drive" I said starting my car.
"Ok be safe" she said hanging up. I drove down the road just driving. A couple hours later I looked around and realized where I was. I was at the cemetery. I parked and got out of the car wandering up the slope toward the plots I had visited days earlier.
It was cold and I was still in my black dress from dinner. I sat down on the ground between my mom and dad's grave.
"Hey mom, hey dad I know it hasn't been that long in fact it's been days but apparently my subconscious thinks I needed to come here. I got into a fight today with my boyfriend. He refuses to let me get a Christmas tree. It's fine I get it but I feel like I never get a say in my life now a days. I almost miss working undercover" I said slowly knowing no one would talk back but enjoying getting everything off my chest.
"Plus, he is ridiculous he leave his stuff everywhere. A coat on the couch, his keys on the table, plates and dishes all over the house it's frustrating. I just want to not have to clean up after him" I shivered and turned looking toward my car where my jacket was. I got up and walked back to my car grabbing my jacket and turning back toward my family. This overwhelming feeling of guilt rushed over me. I realized how wrong I had been trying to force G into something.
I started my car and drove toward our house. An hour later I pulled in and walked up to the door. I took a moment and a deep breath before opening the door. G was sitting there on the couch and he looked stressed and worried.
"I'm sorry" I said still standing at the door.
"No, don't apologize I was wrong. So wrong. I forget that no matter my past I have a family and friends now and Christmas is about family" he said standing up. I felt a tear slide down my cheek before I ran over and jumped into his arms.
"I love you soo much" I said hugging him.
"I love you too, now it's midnight and we both have work tomorrow plus we have to get a tree" he said setting me down.
"Ok" I said walking over to the door and closing it. I walked back to our room and grabbed my pajamas going to change in the bathroom. G watched me walk into the bathroom.
************Next Day**************
I walked into work wearing a red sweater and a pair of jeans. I waved to Erik upstairs and went to my desk smiling at my family. It had been a ruff few years but life seemed to be calming down. I watched as Sam and G talked about a case while Dom and Paige fussed about the baby.
"Hey Christy" Deeks said distractedly.
"Hi Deeks" I said going to my computer. A few minutes later I heard music coming from Deeks computer. It was Christmas music and I rolled my eyes turning back to my work. I walked over to Deeks music a few minutes later and tried to turn it off.
"If Hetty heard this she would kill us, it's a distraction" I said reaching for his mouse. Instead it clicked a different song, a much different song. I glared at Deeks remembering the stakeouts I had sung on to pass time.
"You should sing" he said smiling.
"Deeks shut up" I said glaring.
"No sing" he said ducking when I swung at him.
"absolutely not I am not giving you the satisfaction" i said turning away from him.
"Not even a little festive Christmas music? No Jingle Bells"
"Deeks I may not have killed you yet but you're pushing me right to the edge today"
He chuckled and turned back to his paperwork. I rolled my eyes and made to go upstairs to check in with Erik. He had mentioned he wanted to talk to me about something this morning and I was in no place to make him wait. As I headed upstairs nose down reading a file I bumped into someone. I hurriedly apologized without looking up and made to keep walking. Someone caught my elbow so I looked up. I looked straight into familiar blue eyes. Eyes I hadnt seen in a very long time. I gasped dropping my file "Gibbs"