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Entry 8

I had an appointment with my psychiatrist today. I can't believe that I almost forgot about it. As it is, the only reason that I remembered was because during breakfast Prussia noticed that I had the appointment marked on my kitchen calendar. What I found kind of interesting was the fact that he didn't want to come with. Not that I'm complaining, as it is, it's probably best that he didn't come; if he thought that my ranting in my diary was bad I wonder what he would think of it live. It's just that lately every time that I need to leave the house he asks if he can come too. Maybe he's just getting some cabin fever; he has been staying with me for a while now.

I still liked the idea of getting him out of the house, so we decided that he could drop me off and pick me up for my appointment, while in the mean time he culd do something he wanted to do. He got pretty excited about this idea, and in a few hours he had dropped me of at the building and drove off.

Like the first meeting, she usually will start by asking me how things are going, if things are still hard for me, how my relationship is with Prussia and my family, if I still want to kill myself and some other things. I always wonder why she cares about all of that. Maybe she just asks those questions to all of her clients.

As it is, I always end up being truthful with her. It's kind of funny; she's always reminding me that I can tell her anything, especially when she can tell I'm fudging the truth. Then again, she does have kids of her own so she probably learned long ago how to tell when someone is lying to her. I can understand that, after all I had to learn that early on due to my providences. Lately though, I haven't been feeling the urge to lie to her about anything. Like my diary, I can usually feel safe telling her anything.

After she finishes her questions, she lets me talk about whatever I want to. Usually that ends up being about how things have been going with Prussia or about how much I've disliked this whole pregnancy thing and how I dislike myself for disliking it. Whenever I talk about that however she always tells me, "That's perfectly alright Canada. Not everybody likes being pregnant at first. But as it progresses and you see the baby for the first time, and then you may begin to feel differently."

This routine was followed at today's meeting and soon it was time for us to wrap up. After the meeting, I went down to the lobby and waited for Prussia to come pick me up. I didn't need to wait long, and after he picked me up we stopped for a later lunch.

During the lunch, we began to talk about what else we had coming up. It was obvious that he was excited about the world meeting next week, which only fed into my idea that he needed some time away from my house. I was happy that he was excited. It's hard for me to not be happy when he's so excited. Maybe that's why I don't mind him coming with me to so many things.

As for me going to the meeting, I wasn't so sure. It's being held in New York City, so it's not like it'd be that far of a ride for me, but I guess the bigger issue for me is simply the fact that I'm not so sure about going to the meeting while being roughly three and a half months pregnant.

When I told Prussia that I wasn't sure about going to the meeting, he looked at me like I just said that I hate beer. When I tried using the pregnancy excuse, he quickly came back by asking if it was really okay for me to then miss two plus meetings in a row; after all if I can't go to this one because of my pregnancy then how am I supposed to go to the meeting that will be later on in my pregnancy? Or to the meetings right after the baby is born? Stupid Prussia, using my responsibilities as a country as an excuse for me to go with him.

He's right of course. So after having him ask me a few more times to come with him I finally yielded. I guess I'll just have to make do with the awkward looks and conversations I'm bound to get into. On the bright side however, I'll be able to see some of my friends again and I'll probably be given a lot of attention. Hopefully it won't be too much attention like last time. Maybe some good can come out this.

With maple syrup,

Matthew (Canada) Williams

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