A/N = Heyyy
Im back from Austria! The skiing was amazing, I had a great time. I hope you all had a nice holiday as well and a great christmas and new years eve.
HAPPY 2011!
I didn't write a lot in the holidays, only 3 chapters, but I'll try to write more fast so I can update more often ;)
Btw today I had a dance competition and it went GREAT! Two finals, 4th place ballroom and 7th place latin. So Im in a SUPER mood right now and soooo happy but really tired as well and after uploading this chapter Im going straight to bed :D
Hope you enjoy it xxx
Chapter 22
Dougie's POV
'It's okay, Dougie, don't worry. I'm not going to hurt you,' Rick said sincerely, but I didn't believe him. I was too filled with pain, both emotional pain and pain from my still bare back. The wounds on my back seemed to have stopped bleeding by now, but they still hurt so much, it felt like my whole back was split open. Tears of pain were stinging in the back of my eyes. It all just was too much too handle. I couldn't believe this was truly happening to me.
I desperately tried to keep my tears back and hidden from Rick , while he was rummaging about in the first aid kit. He took a little tube with iodine and some tissues out of it, then closed it with a soft but stern thud. Even that little of a sound made me flinch and look away from him blushing. He draped a creamy-coloured towel, that I hadn't even noticed yet from around his shoulders, then looked around himself and back and me. He sighed annoyed.
'I forgot water. Great. 'I'll be back soon.' He said, then got back on his feet again and walked out of the room, leaving me alone to just stare out in front of me, trying to block out the throbbing feeling on my back. When Rick after a short while came back, he carried a small grey bucket with water and a little sponge. I whimpered at the sight of it, knowing this was going to hurt me.
'Don't worry, Dougie. I'll try to be careful.' Rick said when he noticed my fear filled gaze.
'I have to do this though. I have to clean your wounds so they won't get infected. 'Cause they sure as hell look nasty, and we can't have you needing hospital care, now, can we?' Rick said frowning, and I nodded, understanding I would have to go through this either way if I protested or not. I figured it would be better not to protest anymore, I was too tired. I didn't want to be taken care of, though. I didn't want him to look at me and talk to me. I just wanted him to do what he wanted and then leave me alone.
Rick took the sponge out of the bucket and made sure it wasn't too wet, before carefully dapping it on my back. I flinched at the cold and wet feeling, but the slight flinch turned into a small spasm of pain when he dragged the sponge over the long cuts on my back. I gasped, and had my eyes scrunched shut the whole time he was cleaning the wounds with cold water. I shyly opened them again when he put the sponge back in the now slightly reddish water and left it there for what it was, then started fumbling with the tissues and iodium instead.
'This is gonna sting a bit.' Rick warned me, before softly dapping the tissue, drenched in iodium, over my wounds. I gasped and screwed my eyes close again when the wounds started stinging horribly, and made me feel like the wounds were being ripped open again and shred to pieces by that iodium. Occasionally a groan escaped my lips and Rick seemed to notice, and care, for he from then on tried to be softer. When he was finally done with the iodium, after what felt like ages, he quickly cleaned the cuts again with the dirty water, then finally he was really done. I exhaled in relief. I was exhausted, and felt totally drained of all energy in my body, but still I felt too afraid to just let myself fall over and fall asleep, while Rick was still here. Plus, I was still in this incredibly awkward position, due to the way I was chained up. I thought back on how Jared had hit me over and over with his belt, and how the hard leather had harshly torn my flesh open. Then I thought back to the reason why he wanted to hit me in the first place. I had disobeyed him, when I was in Harry's strong arms. God, how much I missed those warm arms around me now. The only thing in the world I wanted right now, were Harry, Tom and Danny to put their strong and warm arms around me and to keep me safe from any more harm. I really hoped they wouldn't hate me now, after being hurt for my sake, and for me putting them through all this. Tom was in that nasty chokehold for quite a long while, and that was done by the man who was now cleaning my cuts nonetheless. Even though he was now suddenly acting really nice, I was sure it was just for his own sake. He couldn't really care for me, after what he had done to Tom. He had really hurt him. I just hoped Tom wasn't too upset now. I knew how he was, and I knew that he was upset and shocked really fast, just like me.
Danny must be quite shaken up as well, after having a gun against his head, by Jared.
Poor guys. I felt so sorry and guilty for doing all of this to them. They didn't deserve to be maltreated. They were everything for me. I would give away everything for them. I just hoped they would do the same for me and that they loved me enough to get me out of this hell really soon.
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