Unfortunately I don't own twilight. However all thoughts, ideas, and mistakes are my own.
Bella POV
I still couldn't believe what was happening in front of me. Edward was here, on the football field.
My mind was racing a mile a minute. I could not believe my eyes.
I felt like I was suffocating. I started pulling off my scarf hoping it would help. I didn't know whether to cry or laugh at the irony of this. Someone had to be playing a sick game on me. God or whoever had to be laughing at me right now.
I can hear people chanting his name, "Cullen," over and over. It's drowning me. Slowly taking me under.
I take a deep breath.
"I have to get out of here," I say more to myself. There's probably a thousand people around me but I never felt more alone. And every single one of them is cheering him on.
"Bella," I feel a hand on my shoulder. I recognize the voice and realize I'm not alone. "Bella," Alice repeats.
Alice and Rose are here with me. They brought me here. What the hell were they thinking? How could they do this to me? They had to have known he was on the team.
"Bella, we honestly did not know. You know us better than that," I hear Rose respond. Fuck, I didn't mean to say that out loud.
"We can leave if you want," Alice suggests.
"I definitely want to leave," I confirm. I have no purpose being here. I didn't even want to come in the first place. And the after party, did they really expect me to show up to that party after watching my son's sperm donor play a fucking a game. A game. That's what everything is to him. And now I'm feeling pretty damn angry. I should just walk my ass right onto that field and show him we are no longer playing. This is real life buddy. This is my life. And he helped create the life residing in me. So therefore, I stand up and make my way down the bleachers.
Let's see how everyone feels when they find out he's a good for nothing bastard.
I'm not sure where this ballsy Bella came from but I'm liking her. And she's ready to give Edward Cullen a piece of her mind.
"Bella, what the hell are you doing?" Rose is suddenly in front of me.
"Umm ... what does it look it? I'm about to talk to that asshole."
"Bella you can't go on the field."
She must be crazy, "watch me." I'll be damned if I let this game continue.
"Bella .. Rose is right. Let's think about this. If you really want to talk to him … go to the party, I'm sure he'll be there." Alice suggests. And it seems like a decent idea, however I'm not sure I'll still have the balls then. "We can either continue watching the game or leave, but I won't let you embarrass yourself."
I think about it and she's probably right. I don't need the whole school knowing my business. I'm tired of letting this man ruin my life. And I won't let him ruin my night anymore than he has. "I know you guys want to stay" I state, "I'm sorry. I was just surprised to see him here but we can stay." And I hope they lose, I think to myself.
"Only if you're sure." I don't reply and head back to my seat.
They ended up winning the game, 36-27. I must admit Cullen is a pretty good player. Probably the best on the team. No wonder the crowd mostly wore his jersey. I figure he's pretty popular around here.
Just my luck. I sure know how to choose them.
But then again, what do I know about football?
"Bella, are you sure you want to go?" Alice asks for the millionth time. I think about it. Did I really want to go? No. But for some reason my gut was telling me to. I wanted to see him, wanted him to see me. Deep down I want him to recognize me. To see my stomach, see the proof of that night. Of course I want my son to have his father. Maybe seeing me would change things. Maybe I'm being stupid but it won't hurt to try.
"I'm positive, what's the worst that can happen?"
So much for a small together, this was a full out party. The music was blaring, red solo cups where be passed around, and everyone was body to body. I definitely didn't sign up for this.
"Everyone, hey, QUIET!" I see a guy with a microphone stand on a table, "The players are almost here, let's give them a warm welcoming."
Within seconds the front door opens and in come the players. Edward, Emmett, and Jasper are the first to walk in and the rest follow behind. My eyes are automatically glued to him. I watch the way he greets everyone, giving hugs and shaking hands, all with a smile plastered on his face. His hair is wet, obviously from a shower and I can't help but to admire his beauty. From where I'm standing I can see the deepness of his dimples when he smiles and the way his eyes sparkle when he laughs. He really is beautiful. I'd never have chance with him but I hope our son looks like him. Our son. Fuck. That's why I'm here.
Yeah, ballsy Bella had definitely left the party. Fucking scaredy cat.
I think about running and just going home but I feel Alice grab my hand and give it a reassuring squeeze. "Let's go say hi." Say hi? She wants me to walk over there and say hi? I can only laugh at the situation. Fuck it. I'm already here.
As we walk into the kitchen I see Rose and Emmett talking by the entrance. They each have a drink in their hands and it's obvious to anyone they're feeling each other. They don't even notice Alice and I walk in. We take a seat at the island and notice Jasper and Edward standing on the opposite side chatting with some girls dressed in miniskirts and cropped tops. I start to feel self conscious and question how I even got in this situation. I looked nothing like them. Those girls were gorgeous and I was just … Bella. I watch the strawberry blonde laugh at something Edward says and she playfully hits his arm. I think I'm going to be sick. I place my hand on my stomach as I feel my son kick. I forgot how he can feel my emotions or maybe he knows his father is nearby.
"Hey Jasper!" Alice interrupts them and gives him a smile. He smiles back and excuses himself.
I blush as he kisses her, it's a little more than a hello kiss. "Ahem," I say and they finally pull apart.
"Hey Bella, I wasn't expecting you here." He cuts his eyes to Alice, "I thought you said she wasn't coming."
"Well, she changed her mind."
"Guys, I'm right here." I remind them. They're having a private conversation with their eyes and I'm not sure of the issue.
"Jaz, you gonna introduce me to your friends," my stomach drops as I hear his voice. My body is on fire having him so close, he's standing right next to me. What the fuck? I refuse to look up. What the hell was I thinking? Why didn't anyone stop me, tell me I was crazy for coming here? I need ballsy Bella back.
No one says anything. The silence is deafening. I finally lift my head and look around. It's only the six of us in the kitchen now. Somebody please say something because I refuse to open my mouth.
"Umm .. well I'm E," he says breaking the silence.
"Right, this is my cousin Edward. Edward this is Alice and Bella." Jasper says as he points to each of us.
"Can I get you ladies a drink?" He offers as he points to the bar.
"Please," Alice sighs and I can't blame her. I could definitely use a drink.
"No thanks, I can't drink."
"Oh designated driver tonight?" He smiles.
"No bro, she's pregnant." Emmett finally decides to speak up. Seriously Em? I look up at Edward and catch him staring at me. I can tell he's trying to place my face and figure out how he knows me.
"What did you say your name was again?" He ask.
"Bella," I answer, not breaking eye contact.
I watch his Adam's apple move as he gulps, "well, congrats. I need a drink. Fuck." And he walks away.
"Edward, wait!" I hop of my seat and go after him.
Once I catch him I grab his arm and he turns towards me. And he just stares at me. I feel like he's praying I'll slowly disappear. We stare at each other for what feels like forever. And he suddenly pulls me outside. It's cold outside and I'm thankful I actually have clothes on unlike some people. I watch him pace back and forth as he pulls on his hair. "Can you stop? You're making me dizzy."
"Is it mine? What the fuck, you told me it was just a scare!" Oh, so he does remember me.
"You told me to get an abortion. I couldn't do that."
"So you just lie? What the fuck were you thinking?" We're face to face and he looks pissed. "What the fuck were you thinking?" He repeats and his voice sounds deadly.
"I … I … I don't know."
"You don't know? You stupid little b-"
But he doesn't finish and I see we have an audience. "Bro, this isn't the time or place." Emmett comes between us.
"Right, can somebody get me a fucking drink?" He says and walks away. Again he walks away.
I just stand there and watch him go. I guess the worst happened.
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