8 days ago..

I know you have to go to bed soon but would you like to skype with me tonight? - Callie

Please..? - Callie

7 days ago..

Did you fall asleep last night? I hope you have a great day, Battleship! :) -Callie

Hey, I haven't heard from you. Is everything alright? -Callie

6 days ago..

Please message me, when you get this I'm getting a little worried! -Callie

3 days ago..

Battleship.. -Callie

Yesterday..

I know I haven't heart from you, but I was hoping I would, since it's the weekend. Maybe we can finally skype? I hope everything is alright. Message me, I'm worried for you, Arizona. -Callie

Today...

Avoidance. Gosh, you're pathetic, Z! Just answer her. Arizona thought to herself.

I guess I didn't have one particular reason why I was ignoring, Callie. After realizing how much I liked her, it was physically breaking my heart and spirit to keep from answering her.

One reason I haven't answered was the obvious. Callie was obviously sex on legs, but I was just Arizona. What if she didn't like me anymore after we skyped? My insecurities over took my mind.

Another reason was because when I realized something or something major happens, I tend to shut down for a few days and process everything in my head. Quietness overtook me soul, and I literally would spend all day in a daze. Thinking. Thinking. And overthinking.

Most importantly, I missed my mom. I hadn't told Callie a lot about my mother yet. It was very hard to open up, and let someone know that you lost the person you loved the most. My mom was everything to me. She was my light, in this dark world. The adjustment I faced still after two years, shook my soul to its core. Sometimes, I truly wondered if I would ever recover.

Since realizing that I was gay, or bisexual, I wasn't sure yet because I still liked to look at boys. All I wanted was my mom. She would tell me, it's okay. She would encourage me to be myself. Instead though, I was stuck in this house with my father who was lost in the bottomless pit of the bottle.

I love my father, don't get me wrong. Our relationship had never been one for the books. I was a lot like my mom and at times I felt that he punished me for that. Before she died, I rarely seen my dad and even when he wanted us kids to come over, I would eventually break down and ask my mom to come and get me.

My dad has always been a solid man. Head strong. Stubborn. That's exactly why we constantly clashed. He was unable to admit when he was wrong and would constantly push me until I flew off the handle. His wife Kathy, was seeing a totally different side of him since my mothers death. I felt heartbroken for her. My dad was rarely home, and when he was it was only to sleep off the alcohol or push everyone's buttons. It was rare that I would see the man he used to be, even if it was just for a single moment in a conversation with him. Everything has changed.

I constantly wondered, will Callie even like me when she finds out what a dysfunctional life I come from? I wanted to talk to her and explain but now after eight days, what was I to say?

Just then my sister Riley came into my bedroom, flopping down next to me.

"Sup, Z?" She says.

"Hey, riles. Dad home yet?"

"Yeah, he and Kathy are eating something upstairs."

"Nice of them to fix us something, I ate pizza rolls again."

"I miss moms cooking!"

"Me too, Riles! Me too." I replied sadness overcoming my voice.

"Hey, Z.. You think momma is looking down on us from heaven? Or do you believe in that stuff? I want to, Z. I just don't understand. I know I'm young and you and Nelly got more time with momma. But I love her just as much."

"I don't understand either, Riley! But you know momma, would she miss watching her babies grow up? I mean come on, this was her dream. Momma is running streets of gold, and causing Jesus to get gray hair with Aunt Tina up there. Believe me. Momma is watching"

"I love you, Z! Momma would beat our back ends for dwelling on this."

"I love you, too Riles! She would." I paused and laughed. "But she would understand, even after 15 years of her granny being gone she still remembered and missed her."

"You're right. You're always right, Z!"

"Glad you learned that now!" I laughed, Riles cracked up too.

"Shut the hell up, Z. Anyways, how are you and your girl thing?" Riley asked, snickering.

She has never actually asked if I was gay or questioned me. Riley knew I would explain when I was ready and I appreciated that.

"I've been avoiding her! What am I gonna do?" I said burying myself under a pillow.

"You gonna be a woman, and answer that poor girl. She half way across the world, worried about your stupid ass!"

"Wow, thank you sister!" I said laughing.

"Look this is my only advice, Z! Stop acting like, Z. I know you get all emotional and bottled up, but for whatever reason that you're scared, stop it. I don't care who the person is, I don't care if it's Sara Ramirez herself, if she don't like you, for you. Then forget her. Now you hear me." Riley tells me how it is when I need it most. "Now you get your dirt eating ass up, and answer that poor girl before I answer her for you, and tell her that you're just being a pussy!"

"Damn Riles! You know how to make me feel special!" I laugh, again.

"If I ain't gonna put you in your place, than no one will! We ain't having this conversation again either, cause next time my boot is gonna go up your tush, for acting as stubborn as your father!"

"I hate you, Riley Marie!"

"No, you do not. You love me and would lost without me. I'm going upstairs to my own room, good luck sista."

"Thanks! Love you, homie." I tell her and then we fist bump, something we've done for years now.

"Love you, too Pussy!" She says laughing her ass off as she leaves my room.

"Ughhhhh" I scream into my pillow.

Grabbing my phone, I scroll through Facebook, Instragram, and finally Twitter. I instantly type in Calliope's url and check out her recent tweets.

It's so odd how the universe allows you to connect so well with someone, because right then I receive a message notification.

"Please answer me if you can.. " -Callie

"Hey Callie, I'm sorry I hadn't been on social media much. I've been so busy with school, and chores around the house. I'm really sorry." I reply. Lies, lies and more lies. You're pathetic, Arizona.

"I'm so glad you're okay! Sorry you're week was so busy. What are you doing?"

"Just laying in bed, what about you?"

"Just finished homework. You better not stop replying when I ask you this.. Would you like to skype?"

Well she can see right through me. Damn. "What if you don't like me after you see me?" I send the message quickly before chickening out.

"Let's just say I wouldn't find you attractive, do you really think I'd stop being your friend. Come on, battleship."

"Okay, let's skype."

"YES! Just add me and call when you're ready. calliecat87"

"See you soon.." I reply before freaking out. Oh gosh, my hair. My clothes. What if she thinks my room is weird. I throw my beanie on my head and log onto my computer. It's now or never.

*ring*

It's like time stops while this skype call rings.

*ring*

Then suddenly I seen a blurry image of the tan beauty that has overtook my mind.

"Hello there." I say.

"Hi." She replies, her voice is husky, sexy and her accent.. don't get me started.

"You really are beautiful, Callie." I blush, but the clearer the picture gets the faster my heart beats.

"Why were you so worried? Your are, too."

"Thank you"

"You're welcome. I didn't expect your accent to be so strong. I've also never heard a country accent in person though, just videos and things" She says.

"It's the country twang" I laugh and she gives me a huge smile.

"You're skin too, you need a tan" She laughs. "But then at the same time, it's so milky and sexy" She says. I blush. "Seriously, your neck is so long and I don't know, hot.."

"I.. I don't know what to say. Besides the fact that I'm so nervous and thank you"

"You don't need to be nervous, Arizona."

"Yeah but I'm just Arizona."

"My point exactly" She's smiles.

"Thank you, Callie."

"So how was your week?" I ask.

"Tsk, tsk. Wouldn't you like to know Miss. Avoidance?"

"I'm really am sorry for this week, Callie."

"I'm just pulling your chain! I had a good week, missed hearing from you though. Don't apologize again, I'm just saying."

"I miss talking to you, too."

"Why are you at home on a Saturday night?" She asks.

"What else would I do?"

"I mean you're sixteen, go to a party."

"I go, sometimes" I say. Lie. "It's really not my scene."

"That's what I'm usually doing on a Saturday night, but I promised my mom a while ago that I would have dinner with her and my grandmother that's in from Colombia."

"Well that's nice. Do you enjoy your time with her?" I say, leaving the party subject, I don't want her to know how much of a loner I am.

"I did."

"I'm glad."

The conversation goes on for, four hours, we talked a lot and I realized even more so that I could really love this girl. Her smile took my breath away.

"Goodnight, Arizona." She whispered, laying on her side in bed.

"Goodnight, beautiful." I say, ending the call.

Damn, I think. I'm totally screwed!

I grab my phone before shutting off my bedroom lights, texting Riley.

"I talked to her, thank you sis."

"Good job, pussy."

I lay in bed and laugh. What would I do with Riley?

"Love you, homie." I text and send the fist emoji.

That night while I fell asleep I thought of my conversation with Callie.

Mostly I thought about her smile...

A/N: Really enjoying writing this. Please, please review and tell me what you think. Also, Riley is almost the same age as Callie, something Arizona will struggle with. Hope you are loving it as much as I am. This story is based on something that occurred in my life, so it's very easy to write and connect. Thank you all for reading and reviewing. :)