Do you every get that feeling that even when you think things are right,
They're still terribly wrong?
Like you know that how you want things isn't going to end up that
way?
I've been feeling that a lot lately.
And trust me, it's not good.
~Chad
CPOV
I never really understood the significance of everything around us. Everything plays a huge part in our daily lives. We may not know it now, but sooner or later it'll be gone, and too late.
I absentmindedly kicked a rock, and slowly walked out of the woods. This was where me and Sonny always used to come and goof around. Sometimes, we would wear our swimsuits under our clothes, come, and swim for hours. No one would ever notice our absence, they were used to it. It was a special place for us.
I looked up and smiled at all of the birds flying freely in the sky. They looked so calm, so at ease. Like nothing could affect them. I would give anything to transform right now and fly out into the open sky.
It would be magnificent. The rush of air, my hair flying madly around, the feel of everything under me.
As I walked along, I slowly reached Condor Studios. Just being near here and I already felt a pang in my heart. All because of one girl. One simple little sunshine who managed to board my emotions on a rollercoaster. They rolled up and down, side to side, and right side up. All without her noticing.
My phone vibrated in my pocket. I Took it out, and looked at the text. It was from Devon.
Where are you, man? ~Devon
I sighed, and put it back into my pocket. I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone right now. I walked into Condor Studios, and straight to my dressing room.
I passed by the huge posters of all the shows on the lot, right in front of the So Random poster. There, right in the front, an angel was smiling at me. She had the most delicate hair, with luscious chocolate eyes. They pierced into mine, sending shivers up my spine.
I shook my head, and kept on walking. How could one girl do this to me? I was Hollywood's heartbreaker, not the broken. Chad Dylan Cooper never gets hurt by a girl. Never. Not even some small-town girl from So Random. It was impossible. And just because her laugh sent the whole room shining, or how I secretly loved her acting, or how when she skipped into a room, she also sent my heart skipping-
NO! I couldn't think this way. I had to forget about her. That was the only way.
I got to my dressing room, and opened it with the key I put under the rug. No one knew about that key. That way, I wouldn't have any intruders or stalkers.
I walked in, shut the door with my foot, and plopped down on the couch.
But as I did that, my left arm throbbed, and I winced. I rolled up my sleeve, and looked at all the healing cuts and bruises.
How could I have been so stupid? I let one girl get to my head, and I start cutting myself? I MUST have been an emotional wreck. Two years ago, if someone told me I would be doing this. I would have laughed in their face and called them crazy.
But now, I'm sitting here, cursing every moment I had with that pocket knife. I had to also thank Tawni. If she didn't take it from me, who know what would have happened.
My cell phone rang again, making me jump. I sighed, and picked it up, while rolling down my sleeve.
"Man, where are you? Didn't you get my text?" Devon exclaimed.
"Oh, yeah. I was just gonna reply." I lied. That was one of the perks of acting.
"Sure." He responded. Of course. I couldn't lie to him. "Anyways, we're throwing a party for Sonny in the commisionary. You should come. Given the way you guys have been kind of distant, this would really do you some good."
"Distant? I don't know what you're talking about."
"Oh, just shut up and come over here." He said, and hung up.
Just great.
I got up off the couch, and looked into the mirror. I was wearing a blue button down shirt with beige pants, and still had my perfect hair. I grabbed my cell phone, and walked over to the commisionary.
SPOV
I stiffened, and went back to pouring Tawni's strawberry (it had to be pink) frozen yogurt. I tried to ignore the pained feeling I felt inside of me. I mean, Skylar was just some guest star. Sooner or later, he'd be gone, and so would all my memories of him. I hope, at least.
I finished pouring Tawni's choice, and went to mine. Hmmm… Mango-peach… watermelon…. Vanilla…. Sunshine!
They had a flavor that was named Sonshine! How cool was that?!?
(A/N: I know…. Sunshine is a weird flavor…. I couldn't think of anything! =)
I finished, and set it down on the tray. I turned to go and eat with my cast mates, when suddenly I bumped into someone, sending the entire frozen yogurt tray onto them.
"Oh my gosh, I am so sorry!" I exclaimed, getting napkins and trying to wipe it off their uniform. Wait- wasn't that a Mackenzie Falls uniform?
"It's OK. No harm done." A velvet voice said. I bit my lip, and looked up. With that kind of voice he had to be cute-
"AHH!" I screamed. Skylar looked at me, amused.
"What's wrong, Sonny? Can't handle all of this?" He asked in a cocky way, like Chad. I rolled my eyes.
"There's nothing to handle. And if you don't mind, I would rather be with my friends than be here, talking to you. So excuse me." I said, pushing past him.
"Sonny, wait." He stopped me, lightly grabbing my elbow. He spun me around, our faces merely inches apart. I scowled.
"Skylar, let go." I hissed. I looked up and saw determination written all over his face. Just great.
"Not until you hear me out." He demanded. I huffed, and looked away from him.
"I'm sorry. I really am. I never meant for all of this to happen." He began. I still refused to look at him.
"Look, I didn't know it would get this far. It was only a harmless prank." He lightly grabbed my chin and made me look at him. "I never intended to hurt you. I'm truly sorry."
His Hazelnut eyes pierced into mine, sending butterflies whirling in my stomach. No guy has ever been this close to be, begging for an apology, and deeply sincere before.
But then again, why would I forgive him? He nearly messed up my life, and my friendship with Chad. He tore my heart into a billion little pieces, and I still haven't been able to pick all of them up yet.
And on the other hand, why wouldn't I forgive him? Sure, he caused a lot of trouble, but he didn't mean to. Like he said, it was only a harmless prank. And he sounded so sorry, like he really cared…..
I sighed. "Fine. You're forgiven." I said. His eyes lit up. He smiled, and our eyes locked. "Thank you so, so much. I won't let you down. And more importantly, I will never, ever hurt you again." He said in the most caring voice. I smiled back at him.
He began to lean in. I froze. This was Skylar right in front of me. Why did I keep picturing me and Chad in the same position? And more importantly, was Skylar trying to kiss me?
I froze, and decided I needed to stop him before he got the wrong idea.
"No, Sky-"
"What the HELL is going on here?"
CPOV
I walked into the commissary, and was hit by laughter, music, and everyone on the lot. It really made me smile. This was the first time we all did this. Wait-CDC is not getting touchy. Nu-uh. Never. Hmph. Chad Dylan Cooper does not smile for other people's pleasure. Yeah. That's right.
"I walked up to Devon and Trevor, who were on the left side of the room.
"Hey." I greeted them. They looked up from their conversation-which was very hushed- and smiled at me.
"Chad. Nice party, eh?" Devon asked, smirking at the room. He was right. The whole commissary was transformed into this cool hip party. They even added colored lights.
"Yea. Who set this up?" I asked them. Devon fidgeted, and Trevor suddenly seemed interested in his cup of punch.
"I said, who set this up. Now answer me." I demanded. Chad Dylan Cooper does not take no for an answer. And he definitely doesn't approve of his friends ignoring him.
They looked at each other, nodded, and turned to me. "You see, Chad. Skylar was feeling really bad about what he did, so he came up with this idea to have a welcome back party. Everyone in the studios had a grudge on him, and he was mostly ignored." Anger built up inside of me. That guy has the nerve to throw MY SONNY a party after what he did to us?!?
"But if it makes you feel better," Trevor began. "He was known for the guy who messed up the best two actors in the studios. Even almost fired him, until our director told him that he was needed for only one more episode."
One episode. That was it. And then, he'd be gone. I let out a deep breath. I could live with that. It's not like he could do anything worse than what he did before, right?
I looked around the room, spotting Portlyn, Tawni, and Chastity near the back, whispering and looking at the frozen yogurt machine. I was about to turn and see what they were all over, but Devon grabbed my shoulder and turned me around.
"No need to look over there, Chad. It's just a machine. Nothing there." He quickly said. He motioned to Trevor, who came to the other side of me.
"Yea, Devon has a point. Let's just sit down and act cool, like we are, right?" He said with a grin. "You are the best actor of our generation, am I right or am I right?"
Something was off. Why were they acting like this? NO ONE distracts CDC.
Come to think of it, where was Sonny? This was her party, anyways. Wait- I couldn't think about that! I had to forget about her.
I gave them weird looks and turned around before they could stop me.
When I did, my heart froze. I felt like a volcano erupted inside of me. Because right there, right in front of my eyes, the person I truly hate most was about to kiss the person who I truly love the most. I pushed passed everyone else and made my way to the back furiously. As I reached there, I saw Sonny hesitate, but she didn't push him away.
"What the HELL is going on here?" I exclaimed. Sonny quickly turned around and saw me. "Chad! It's not what it looks like!" She cried.
"Really, because I find that very hard to believe!"
She looked back at Skylar and pushed him away, coming over to me. "You don't understand, Skylar apologized." She explained.
"Oh, so he apologized, huh? And you forgave him?" She looked taken aback, but then turned angry.
"You know, Chad, sometimes people apologize because they are trying to FIX what they had done. And that's what Skylar is doing. He isn't evil. You know that." Sonny lectured me. But none of what she said had any effect of what I was feeling right now. Skylar stood behind her smugly, shaking his head at me. I clenched my fist.
"Playing the jealous boyfriend, Chad?" Skylar teased. "That doesn't seem to fit right for you. Maybe the third wheel would do you good." Anger flared up inside of me. I stepped forward, only to be stopped by Sonny.
"Stop!" She cried, sending a cold glare to Skylar. "Can we just forget about the past and look into the future?"
"Nope." Skylar said, popping the 'p'. I sighed as Sonny looked at me, pleading for me to say yes.
"Please, Chad?" She asked with those cute brown eyes. I looked back at Skylar, who crossed his arms, waiting for my surrender.
Psh. Like that was ever going to happen.
"What's going on over here?" Devon asked. I turned around, and saw him with Trevor coming toward us.
"Nothing." Skylar said. I snorted, and put my arm around Sonny.
"Come with me. Lets get out of here."
As we walked by people stared at us, having seen the whole incident.
"Oh, so now you want to talk to me!" Sonny hissed when we reached the hallway. I glared at her.
"Hey, I'm not the one who almost kissed a guy who put you in a coma for two freakin' weeks!" I cried. She sighed.
"Chad, I swear I was about to push him away-"
"I bet you made that decision when I stopped you, right?" I interupted, folding my arms and leaning against the wall.
"Oh, so now you think you can control me?"
"I'm not the one who went from one guy to another in less than three days!"
"What are you talking about?!?"
"Oh you know exactly what I'm talking about." I said, getting closer to her. "First Nico, and now Skylar? Who are you gonna go to next, Grady?"
She stared at me, wide eyes. Suddenly, she started laughing. "What?" I asked her.
"You- thought- I l-liked Nico?!?" She said between giggles. I made a duh- face.
"Chad, Nico's going out with Portlyn!" She said, controlling herself. I froze. "Huh?"
"Well, they are obviously going out, and she isn't ready to tell everyone yet! He's hurting! I felt sorry for him. That's all."
Wow, Chad. Fall in love with a girl and accuse her of liking two guys? This is even worse than being tied down in the first place.
"Why do you care?" She asked, raising her eyebrows. I shifted nervously from foot to foot. Shoot.
"I-Uhh, didn't want you getting hurt. I mean, obviously everyone knew Nico was going out with Portlyn." I lied. She raised her eyebrows again, accepting my horrible explanation.
"Fine." She said.
"Fine."
"Good."
"Good."
"Good."
"Good."
"Good."
"So, we're good? I asked uncertainly. She gave me one of her breathtaking smiles.
"Oh, we are so good."
Tawni popped up from out of nowhere, and spotted us. "There you guys are! I've been looking for you everywhere!" She cried. Sonny raised her eyebrows.
"Tawni, we're right next to the door." She said, pointing to the commissary door merely a yard away from us.
"Ohh… well, you see… let's get back to the party!" She said, grabbing our arms and leading us back inside.
I spotted Skylar still in the back, flirting with a meal or no meal girl. Wow. Who could ever think about another girl when Sonny's in their life?
Did you ever sense a feeling of warmth?
Acceptance?
Love?
That's how I feel when I'm around my friends.
I love it.
I truly do.
~Sonny
Hola people of the world! (I'm not Spanish)
Sorry it took me so long to update... i have 4 tests and 5 projects due the week! I'm surprised I survived!
This monday and tuesday i have the ELA.... thats bad newsss
but..... here's the good news!
YOU HURT ME, CHAD is going to be updated soon!
I've been working on it... it may have a twist, idk yet! Possibly a two or three shot!
please review ideas! it'll take me shorter to update!
There is going to be a huge conflict in this story... don't think I've gone soft! I may make like one or two chappters happy, and then the mood drastically changes!
10-15 reviews please! Write conflicts if you have ideas! (it could involve other characters, too!)