Skylar was smiling and whispering words to her, while Sonny lay there under him with a pale face and a frightened look. I clenched my teeth, and pulled Skylar off of her.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?" I yelled at him.
"Who the hell do you think you are? I just saved her, and your only interested in your pride?" He spat in my face.
So I did the only thing I could think of doing.
I punched him.
And that's when all hell broke loose.
He looks at you like you are his prey.
But in reality, you are a beautiful, naive girl.
I'd do anything in the world for you.
But him, he'd jump right onto a ride with you.
And when he gets bored, he'll push you right off.
"Chad!" Tawni screamed at me.
Skylar looked up at me, lightly touching his bloody lip. He sent daggers with his eyes towards me, and I sent them right back.
"This has been going on for too long." He said, and came closer to me.
"You don't think I know what you're doing?" I said to him. "You're trying to get close to her. And with me out of the picture, you'll have her all to yourself." I shook my head. "Just sick." His eyes widened and he hurled me to the ground.
My body collided with the floor. Ferguson and Devon rushed over, but I put a hand up to stop them. Skylar looked down at me, hatred oozing out of him. "You're sick." I told him. "You just play around with people until you get sick of them."
His eyes widened, and the next thing I knew he was throwing punches at my face, chest, neck, anywhere he could see. I blocked most of them, but the pain that went through my body only made me stronger.
And angrier.
"CHAD!" Sonny screamed. I pushed Skylar off of me, lifting myself up. He came up to me and grabbed my collar.
"Just wait." He snarled. "So help me God I will do anything to get Sonny. And that includes getting rid of you."
I scoffed. "Oh, really? And what makes you think you'll get her so easily?"
His eyes showed a challenge. "She never loved you, and she never will."
I pushed him away from me just as the other guys came in. They pulled me and Skylar apart, but nothing could change what had happened.
"Cut it OUT!" Devon yelled at us. I looked over to see Sonny looking at me, frozen. I wanted desperately to hold her in my arms. To tell her that it'll all end soon.
But Skylar's words haunted me deeply.
"She never loved you, and she never will."
CPOV
Tuesday morning
(The next day)
8:15
Mackenzie Falls Set
I sat in my chair next to the director, watching a scene between Chastity and Devon take place.
I sighed and ran my hand through my hair in frustration.
Last night, Sonny was gone before me and Skylar calmed down and the guys let us go. I wanted to talk to her and explain why I got so mad. I wanted to tell her everything.
But lately, a hole has formed in our relationship. I used to tell her all my problems, but right now she is my problem.
I don't know why, but she seems to have me on a hook. Her every movement leads me in the same direction. Her every feeling affects me.
And right now, I feel like crap.
"Hey" Portlyn said as she slipped into the chair beside me. I nodded and mumbled a good morning to her.
She sat silently, tapping her nails against her arm rest.
Bart ran by, holding a donut that was due ten minutes ago.
It was funny how everyone else seemed the same as my whole life was going downhill.
"Sonny was really shaken up." Portlyn said, looking at me. I bit my lip and turned to her.
"She just didn't know what to do. I thought she would cry, but she didn't. I thought she'd run, but she didn't. She just stood there, frozen. And then the weirdest thing happened." She paused and looked at me, as if choosing her words. My eyebrows furrowed. "What?"
"She just looked at me and told me to take her home. Her face looked dead. It was as if her soul got ripped out of her, and her body was just there with us. And on the drive back, she didn't say a word. She hardly looked at anyone."
"It was as if she wasn't even there."
SPOV
Monday night
(Yesterday)
11:31
Tawni's car
I watched all the buildings flash by as we drove home. It was funny how one night could change everything. I mean, one minute you could be having the best time of your life with your best friends, and the next your almost hit by a car and there's a huge fight. I bit my lip and leaned my head against the window. Tiny water droplets fell down the window and disappeared. I suddenly wish I could be like them. Their life was set; there was no question about it. Soon, they'd turn into clouds and rain back down again. They didn't have to worry about problems.
Or fights.
Or love.
Seeing Chad and Skylar brawl made me realize something. Maybe my life isn't what I thought it would be. Maybe they were just hiding the fact that they hated each other to make me happy. Or maybe, like always, I was too naive to see it.
That's what I hate about me. I never see the big picture. I always look at the beautiful parts of it, focusing on what's great and beautiful. The problem could be right in front of me, and I'd never know it. I just needed a slap in the face.
Too bad Chad had to get it instead of me.
I closed my eyes and I thought of all that's happened in the past few months. The big fight with Chad, me falling into a coma, waking up, thinking everything was fine, another fight with Chad about Nico, and finally, tonight. I bit my lip, trying not to think of the truth. But I had to.
All of everyone's problems were because of me.
I'm the route of Skylar's lie to Chad.
I'm the reason everyone got so depressed.
I'm the one who told Nico to go after Portlyn.
I'm the one who started the fight between Skylar and Chad.
I'm the one who ruined everyone's lives.
I opened my eyes and looked around the car. Everyone was talking quietly, still shocked at what happened.
From that moment on, I decided something.
The only way to get everyone happy again is for me to be out of the picture.
Permanently.
CPOV
8:20
Tuesday Morning
Sonny's Dressing Room
I knocked lightly Sonny's dressing room door, and pushed my hands into
my pockets.
"Come in." Sonny said in a soft voice. I opened the door and shut it behind me. Sonny stared at me from the couch with those big brown eyes that I just loved. I had trouble not melting right there.
"Hey" I said, going over and sitting down next to her. She kept her eyes locked on me the whole time.
"About what happened last night." I began. She looked down.
"Yeah. Last night."
"I just want to say I'm sorry. I had no right to go and explode like that."
She sighed and looked up at me, and it was then that I noticed her red-rimmed eyes. "Sonny? Were you crying?" My heart literally broke inside. I made an angel cry. I reached out to put a hand on her shoulder, but she leaned back.
"Last night, when you and Skylar fought, I realized something." She whispered. I had to lean in to hear her. "And what is that?" I asked her. Her eyes filled with tears. "I ruined everything."
"What?" I asked, astonished. How did Sonny ruin everything? She was too naive to even see that Skylar liked her.
"I'm the one who overreacted when you said you hated me. And then I got into the car accident, and fell into a coma. And-And- I just can't take it! I'm the one who told Nico to go after Portlyn, and now both of them are hurt. I'm the one who was too stupidly blind to see the freakin' light, and that caused you and Skylar to get into a fight. You almost killed yourself trying to save me. It's just my idiotic mistakes that get people into horrible situations! I'm horrible!"
She got up and walked over to her vanity, resting her arms on the table and leaning forward.
"Sonny!" I cried, standing up. "What the hell are you talking about? You really don't see how much everyone loves you!"
"Yeah!" She said, facing me. "They love me enough not to blame me for anything. But I know what they're thinking, Chad! Heck, I know what you're thinking! I'm the route of all this! Without me, everybody's lives would be back to normal!"
"You actually think that we would like it here without you? Sonny, you've got to believe me!" I went over to her and cupped her face. She tried pulling away, but she was standing against her vanity. "Sonny, you don't realize how much I care about you. You're just gonna throw all of that away because you think I'd be better off without you?"
"You are-"
"No, I'm not! Sonny, when you were in a coma, I tore myself apart! I felt that it was my entire fault! I mean, I tried to imagine my life without you, but I couldn't! You literally wake me up in the morning, Sonny!"
"Really?" She asked me, her eyes filling again. "Because I think that if I died, everybody would be better off."
She pushed away from me, but I grabbed her elbow, pulling her to me. She pulled back, but I grabbed both her arms. She struggled, but then froze.
"What's that?" She asked me. I looked down.
Crap.
The cuts.
I quickly pulled away and pulled my sleeves down. Tears began falling down her face. "Chad, what the hell is THAT?" She screamed. I sighed and looked at her.
"You tore me apart, OKAY?"I cried. She looked up at me.
"You-You cut yourself?" She mumbled in a heartbroken voice.
"I told you Sonny, It tore me apart seeing you on that bed. You were lifeless, as if every breath was taunting me. Every time I'd look at you I'd prepare myself for what I thought would happen. But I just couldn't! And then, I say the knife, and I just-" I paused and took a deep breath. "I don't know why, but I felt that if you were in pain, then I should be, too. I cut myself because I didn't want you to go through this alone, so I tried to feel what you were feeling. But then Tawni found out, and she took away the knife, and-" I couldn't say anything else. Sonny was frozen, but then realization crossed over her face.
"OH MY GOD!" She screamed, running her hands through her hair. "I'm a monster! Get away from me, Chad! Get the hell away form me! I can't take it anymore! I'm just ruining you life!"
"Sonny! Sonny!" I yelled, pulling her into my arms. She sobbed, and we just stood there together, a broken girl in a broken man's arms. Every sob that broke through her was a crack in my heart. How could I have been so stupid to cut myself? It only made things worse. And now, on top of everything, she finds out I cut myself because of her-I can never forgive myself.
Eventually, her sobs became quieter until they became eventual hiccups. She broke away from me, her beautiful long brown curly hair tangled.
"Chad, please go-"
"No, Sonny! You need me, more than you think. I'm not leaving you. Never." I softly played with her hair, and she looked up at me.
"Chad, you have to promise me something. I mean, if you want to stay friends with me, you have to do this. Or else I can't be friends with you."
"Anything." I said quickly.
"Promise me you won't cut yourself anymore."
I smiled slightly. "That was established the first second I saw your chocolate brown eyes open." I said. Her lips turned up slightly and she wrapped her arms around my waist. I wrapped my arms around her, savoring the moment.
"Good, because Chad Dylan Cooper doesn't cut. Not now, not ever."
PORTLYN'S POV
TUESDAY MORNING
AFTER CHAD LEAVES
MACKENZIE FALLS SET
I pulled out my phone and dialed Nico's phone number, number four on my speed dial. It rang a few times, but no one answered.
"Hey! It's Nico, leave a message, and preferably, a joke!"
"Hey, Nico." I whispered. "I just want to talk to you. Can you meet me in the cafeteria at twelve? It'll really mean a lot to me."
I sighed and shut the phone. I needed to talk to him. I needed to get everything straight with him. I thought about it a lot last night, and I finally figured out why I was scared to be with him. I-
"PORTLYN!" My director yelled. "Your scene next! Get into makeup!"
I got up and went over to my makeup crew. Sometimes, I wish I could have control of my own life. All I want to do right now is run into Nico's arms and let him hold me.
But sometimes, things don't work out that easily.
TEEN GLADIATORS STUDIO
TUESDAY MORNING
9:30
"Did you hear of that fight last night?" Rick asked his fellow gladiators. Their muscular bodies and good looks usually made people melt, but to them it was just a perk to being in the show.
"Yeah, I heard Skylar got the crap beaten out of him." Jake laughed.
"So, what are we going to do with Zora?" Nick asked. The other two boys yolled their eyes.
"She's eleven." Said Jake. "What can she possibly do? We'll win with just one little prank."
Suddenly, the lights went out
"What the hell?" Yelled Nick. "Who turned out the lights?"
Nobody answered. They all got up and stared searching the walls for the light switch.
"Jake! Got off my foot!" Rick yelled.
"Not until Nick gets off my arm!"
"What? I'm not touching anyone!"
"Then who's that?" Asked Jake, scared.
He felt something slimy all over his arm. He reached out to feel it with his other arm-
"SNAKEEEEEEEE!" He screamed. The other two boys screamed.
"ZORA! You win! You win the prank wars!" Yelled Jake.
Up in the vents, Zora laughed menacingly (in a cute way) and crawled off.
"Nobody messes with Zora." She whispered, her next prank already formulating in her mind.
SPOV
SO RANDOM HALLS
AFTER CHAD LEAVES SONNY TO GO SHOOT A SCENE
9:32
I walked in the So Random Hallway, trying to ease my mind of all of the pain. I suddenly saw Skylar walk right past me, but I hurried away, trying to avoid him. After a while, I walked calmly, until I heard footsteps behind me. I turned around quickly, and saw Skylar. I screamed, but he covered my mouth and pushed me against a wall. I bit his hand, and he quickly pulled it away.
"OWWW!" He yelled. "What was that for?"
"Next time you want to get my attention, try coming up to me like a normal person!" I hissed at him. He came closer. "Get away from me." I hissed again.
He rolled his eyes. "I'm not going to kidnap you or anything." He said.
"Then why are you here?" I asked him. He looked me in the eyes. "I want to apologize. I'm truly sorry about what happened last night. Chad was a jerk."
I glared at him. "No, you were the Jerk. You always have to get everything your way!"
"Hey, I saved your life!" He said, his voice rising slightly. I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. I was so sick of all this fighting.
"Yeah, well, thanks." I said awkwardly. He smirked. "Now, you owe me." He said. My eyes widened. "What?"
"I saved your life, so now you owe me." He repeated. I stared at him, trying to cover the fear inside me.
"Go jump off a cliff." I told him, and walked away.
"I saved your life!" He yelled after me.
"You also ruined it!" I yelled back, walking off to rehearsal.
PORTLYN'S POV
TUESDAY AFTERNOON
12:00
COMISSARY
I sighed nervously, my hands shaking. Every second that ticked by came
closer to the minute he would walk into the room. I took a deep breath and
attempted to calm down. This was just Nico.
No, it wasn't.
It was Nico.
The boy who stole my heart.
12:03
He's going to walk through that door….now!
12:06
He's probably running a little late. No biggy.
12:15
Where is he?
12:20
I sighed and took the last gulp of my coffee.
12:25
I'm just making a fool of myself by waiting here.
12:30
I wiped the tears off my face and quickly walked out of the commissary. I shut the door to the cafeteria.
And to my heart.
There is no glass heart without a few cracks.
There is no frown without a smile.
There is no hug without two people.
You need two people to mend a heart.
You just have to learn how.
I owe all of you a million sorry's!
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