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Chapter 4

Brooke had been in hospital now for the last twenty four hours and they still wanted to keep her in for another night to bring her blood pressure down she tried to explain to them she didn't like hospitals but with the doctors and her Nan telling her she had to stay in she really didn't have any other option.

As soon as Victoria landed at Heathrow she booked a taxi to take her to Barnet Hospital. After her mom rang and told her Brooke was in the hospital she knew she needed to be there Brooke needed her right now. She thought about telling Lucas but she couldn't if she did Brooke would never speak to her again Victoria was actually felling bad for Lucas as much as she should hate him for what he did to her daughter he seemed really hurt and lost without Brooke in his life.

"Mom where is she" Victoria asked as she ran though the hospital doors and saw her mom talking to one of the nurses.

"Victoria I should have called you back she's ok come this way Brooke is probably going to yell at me for worrying you but you needed to know" Penelope said as she hugged her oldest child.

"Mom what are you doing here" Brooke asked shocked to see her mom walk through the door.

"Mom called me she was so worried, Brooke why did you come to England" Victoria asked as she hugged her daughter she'd never been so worried in her whole life.

"I had to mom apart from Tree Hill this is the only place I feel safe and loved" Brooke cried as her mom held her even though they've been through there problems in the past Brooke loved her mom and now they were close like they should have been all these years.

"Mom was really there for you growing up wasn't she" Victoria asked already knowing the answer.

"Yeah I don't know what I'd do if I lost her. Mom did Nan tell you what was wrong" Brooke asked needing to know how much her mom knew.

"No I rushed straight here to see you I was so worried I can't lose you Brooke I know I haven't been the best mom to you and I'm going to spend the rest of my life making that up to you" Victoria cried as she held her it killed her the hurt and pain she caused her daughter all these years.

"Mom I'm ok it was just the stress of everything that's happened I should be going home to day" Brooke said hoping the doctor did let her go she didn't really like staying in hospitals.

"By home you mean here with Nan" Victoria asked already knowing the answer she knew Brooke couldn't go home with everything that's going on.

"Yeah I can't go home right now mom and I'm not sure if I ever want to. Mom please tell me Lucas doesn't know where I am" Brooke asked she really couldn't handle it if he found out.

"No, no one knows I came straight here Brooke I'm going to stay in London for a while Millie can handle the business right now you need me here" Victoria said Brooke needed her more than the business did.

"Ok mom please don't tell Millie where I am I really don't want anyone to find me" Brooke sighed she needed time to digest everything. Eventually she knew she'd have to return to Tree Hill it was her home and her life was there but right now all she wanted to do was be with her Nan. At least until the baby was born and then she'll decide what she's going to do.

Lucas didn't really know what to do anymore he'd been looking for Brooke for days now and he still wasn't any closer to finding her. He'd been to Victoria's house every day since Brooke left and now it didn't seem like anyone was home he couldn't blame Victoria for leaving he could tell she was getting annoyed with him coming over all the time but he had to find Brooke he needed her in his life. These past few days had been the worst days of his life.

Lucas couldn't take it anymore so he decided to go to Tric to have a few drinks to try and numb the pain he knew it wouldn't help but he couldn't think of anything else to do his world had ended. He should be married right now to the love his life instead he was at a bar drinking shot after shot just so he could forget at least for a couple of hours.

"Lucas what are you doing" Nathan asked as he made his way to his brother he'd never seen him like this he couldn't believe it when Chase called him to see if he could help.

"What does it look like I'm doing" Lucas mumbled as he took another shot of whiskey Chase had tried to stop him but this was his mothers club and if he wanted a drink he was going to have one.

"Come on Luke this isn't going to bring Brooke back" Nathan said as he sat next to his brother.

"She's not coming home have you not heard she left me, and I can't find her anywhere where is she Nathan" Lucas yelled as the tears streamed down his face.

"Luke we'll find her I promise come on bro let's get you home" Nathan said as he helped his brother up Nathan knew exactly how Lucas was feeling he'd lost Haley for three months during the first year of marriage. Lucas was there for him then and he was going to be there for him now.

"What am I going to do Nate I can't live without her" Lucas cried he'd never felt this much pain in his whole life.

"She'll come back Luke I know she will she's just hurting right now" Nathan said as he was driving Lucas home he thought about bringing him home with him but he knew he couldn't Haley was still mad at him for what he'd to Brooke.

"I can't live without her, how could I have been so stupid why didn't I just tell Peyton I loved Brooke and I would never do anything to hurt her if I could just go back and tell myself what an idiot I was being I wouldn't be in this mess right now" Lucas cried.

"Lucas tomorrow I'm going to help you, you can't live like this and if Brooke comes home to this it's not going to look good is it. I'll be over in the morning with Jamie and we'll do something with your hair" Nathan said as he helped his brother to the bed he didn't know what Lucas was thinking with the hairstyle it didn't suit him at all.

Brooke was allowed home now she thought about telling her mom about the pregnancy but she couldn't it was too soon and she didn't want anyone to know at least until she'd had time to digest the information. Her Nan told her she wouldn't say anything until Brooke was ready for people to know but she hoped it be soon because she hated lying to her daughter.

"You know this used to be my room" Victoria smiled as she helped Brooke to her bed.

"I know Nan told me when I was younger. When I moved here when I was six she said I could make the room my own I hope you don't mind" Brooke asked she knew it had been years since Victoria had been home.

"No I don't mind Brooke you know I'm sorry about what happened I should never have abandoned you" Victoria cried.

"I know mom and even though I was mad at you I couldn't understand how any mother could do that to her child but it was the best thing that ever happened to me if you hadn't I wouldn't know Nan and I couldn't live without her" Brooke smiled she'd forgiven her mom and she hoped one day her mom would forgive herself.

"We'll I better go help mom with the diner, you get some rest and I'll bring you some food" Victoria smiled at her daughter it felt strange but good to be back home it had been so long since she's been home and with Brooke being here it would give her the chance to make things right with her family again especially her mom.

"Victoria is Brooke resting" Penelope asked as her daughter came in the kitchen.

"Yes mom I told her I'd bring her up some diner. Mom I never said this before but thank you for taking care of Brooke all these years I just wish one day she'll love me as much as she loves you" Victoria said as she sat next to her Mom.

"Victoria Brooke loves you she always has even when you wasn't there for her, her heart is so pure she doesn't have a hurtful bone in her body that's why it hurts me she's in pain right now" Penelope sighed as she put the potatoes down the food could wait she needed to talk to her daughter.

"Mom it kills me the pain she's in and I know I've caused her a lot of pain first by leaving her here and then taking her away from here for Tree Hill if I had left her here she wouldn't be hurting right now" Victoria cried.

"Victoria the five years Brooke lived here were so special to me and the summers she always came to visit meant the world to me but as much as I loved having her here you are her mother and I know it kills you the hurt you've caused Brooke. But I knew eventually you would see what your missing and be a mother and I was right" Penelope cried as she held her daughter it's been so long since she held her she wished they'd had this talk years ago.

"Mom as much as Brooke needs you right now she does need to come home her life is in Tree Hill" Victoria said.

"I know and she'll go home in her own time when she's ready she'll know but right now she's too broken and we have to help heal her" Penelope said and started on the food again.

"Mom as much as I hate to admit it, the only person who can heal her heart is Lucas until she can forgive him or finally let him go she'll never be able to move on" Victoria said.

"And in time she'll see Lucas to sort everything out and if he really knew her he'd know where she'd be I expect him to figure it out soon enough and if and when he does its up to Brooke what she does" Penelope said as finished the diner.

Lucas had tossed and turned all night and he couldn't sleep it felt different without Brooke snuggled up to him. He heard the door go and he knew that was Nathan and he really hoped he had some fresh coffee with him because right now he needed something to keep him going.

"Lucas we need to talk" Peyton said as she made her way through his bedroom.

"Get out, you've ruined my life" Lucas yelled as he heard her voice he didn't have to look up to see who it was.

"Lucas please" Peyton said as she made her way over to him.

"You don't get it do you, do you have any idea what you've done I've lost the love of my life because of you I hate you and I never want to see you again I wish you'd just stayed in LA because I don't want or need you here you've ruined my life" Lucas said as he turned over he couldn't look at her one second more.

Peyton couldn't believe what she just heard she knew he was sad with Brooke leaving but to hate her because of it she realised what she'd done so she left. Haley was right she should never have come home because right now she really had no one.

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