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I've been officially appointed to watch over Chrona. For reason's he didn't tell me, father decided to take their room of video surveillance. Now it's my responsibility to check on them every day. I'm a bit worried the site of my eyes might scare Chrona, it seems I gave them quite a fright a few nights ago.
One thing that comforts me is Chrona's night time episodes are less consistent now. It's like another world blinds them and for several minutes they cannot return to reality. I'm tempted to try talking to them again; maybe it might help my goal of getting Chrona to come to class. It might be selfish, but I want to get them out of that room. I know leaving is the last thing they'd want to do, I know everyone wouldn't be very keen o having someone like Chrona around, but I just want to see them in the sunlight. I wonder what effect the light would have on them, would it light up their entire face, make them squint from the brightness, bring exhaustion upon them?
The other day I heard someone mention Chrona, apparently they had been their one day, almost a year ago, when Chrona came to class.
"Do you remember that person who used come to school every now and again, the one that never said anything and was always by themselves?" they had said.
"No, was that before I can here two years ago?" a friend of theirs who stood beside them answered.
"No, it was last year. I just realized I never even knew if they were a boy or a girl, it's not really important anyway, you probably didn't even notice them."
I guess I'm not the only one who doesn't know Chrona's gender, but I never really thought that mattered very much. I always thought gender was just a small aspect of a person anyway, it doesn't affect you're symmetry or anything else particularly important. The only real concern is pronouns; using plurals might get confusing if I even talk to anyone other than my father about Chrona.
One the other hand what if people give Chrona a hard time about their gender if I can even get them to come to school…
The last thing I want is people picking on them when they're already emotionally fragile. Maybe I should ask dad about this, but I'm afraid he might laugh at me because I can't tell what Chrona's gender is. What if even dad doesn't know what that kid is? Then I might have to ask Chrona themself…
In the end, I decided the best option was asking my father.
"Wazzup Kiddo!" my father's obnoxious voice came out of the phone.
"Hello father, I have a question about Chrona." I told him calmly
"And your question is..?" I took a deep breath and considered how to phrase what I was going to ask.
"No matter how hard I try, I still haven't been able to figure it out- What is Chrona's gender?"
"That's a good question," father paused as if thinking about how to answer, "Physically, they are neither male nor female, mentally I don't know if they see themselves as even being fit to have a gender."
"But…" I hesitated, "If Chrona comes to class won't everyone want to know if they're a boy or girl?" I asked worriedly.
"And that Kiddo, is precisely the problem."
Chrona's POV~
The boy across the hall keeps looking in at me and I don't know why. At first I thought he might be a pervert, but who'd bother to try peeking at someone like me. I don't understand why he's still here, why he keeps looking at me, and why he doesn't hate me. There's something about his eyes that I can't get out of my head, but I don't know what it is, it's a warm feeling, something I've never felt before.
Because of that boy I started sleeping again, after he told me to get some sleep I just felt so very tired for some reason. I still get nightmares, but sleep has become almost like food, if I don't eat, I'm hungry; if I don't sleep I'm tired. It's not like it matters what I do anyway.
"Chrona."
It was that boy again! But what did he want now! I was afraid, and I didn't know how to deal with him talking to me.
"AH!" I ended up screeching in fright as I turned around to meet his golden eyes.
"Don't be afraid, I'm not going to do anything that might hurt you." He told me gently.
"I-I-I-I-I don-don't-t-t kn-know h-how to d-deal with you!" I was shaking before I knew it.
"That's okay, I just want to talk to you," he paused. "You don't even know my name do you? Let's start by introducing ourselves then." My eyes widened, why would he care to introduce himself to someone like me?
"My name is Death the Kid, my father runs this school. Please address me simply as Kid." What was I supposed to say now? I don't know how to deal with conversations!
"Well? Aren't you going to introduce yourself?"
"I-I'm sorry," I paused for a moment, not sure what to say. "My name is Chrona. B-but you already knew that." I felt dumb being unable to say anything more than that.
"Very true, but now we've met properly. Do you feel any more comfortable talking to me now that you know who I am?" He was right, now that I knew him I felt a tiny bit less scared to speak to him.
"Y-yeah." I wanted to ask him why he bothered getting to know me, but I didn't know how…
"Would it be alright if I come in? It's a bit awkward talking to you through the door." Could I deal with seeing someone close up and talking to them after three months of isolation? It wasn't like conversations were a frequent thing before that anyway… "It's okay if you don't want me to, I can just stay out here in the hall way if it would make you uncomfortable." Kid reassured me.
"The door's unlocked. You can just come in, I don't mind." It took nearly all my courage just to tell him something that simple. Kid softly opened the door and spotted me in mr. corner. He smiled with the same warmth in his eyes as before and started to walk towards me. That's when I felt myself start to cry.
Panic set into Kid's eyes, for a moment I thought he was going to just leave. I was wrong. Instead he knelt down beside me. I didn't deserve this, and I must have been inconveniencing him so much…
"It must be scary for you to be around other people after being solitary for so long." He remarked quietly. I felt horrible, why did I have to cry at a time like this? If I kept crying all the time people might really hate me.
"Can I ask you a personal question?" Kid asked me. How was I supposed to respond! I don't know how to deal with stuff like this!
"You don't have to answer if you don't want to…" Kid coaxed, I gave him a small nod.
"Why did you start isolating yourself in the first place?" I could hear the concern in his voice, the concern I didn't deserve. Part of me didn't want to respond, but the other part knew that Kid was someone who deserved answers. If he was bothering to talk to me theleast I could do was tell him what he wanted to know…
"…n't matter.." I tried, I really did, but that was all I could force out.
"Sorry, what was that?" I took a deep breath.
"It doesn't matter… Why I never leave here… it's just… If I… It doesn't matter…" I wanted to say more, but my mind kept going blank like someone was erasing my thoughts like chalk on a chalk board.
"Of course it matters Chrona, it may not matter to everyone who was in your classes, but I certainly care about it." But wasn't that a lie?
"You're… Lying, aren't you…" I hesitated. "It doesn't matter and never will! Just… just leave me alone! I don't deserve this! I'm just another little thing that doesn't matter!" I yelled at him. Great. Now I'm sure he hates me.
"I'll leave you for now," He started to get up then turned and looked straight into my eyes. "Tomorrow I want to talk to you again, Chrona. I'll keep coming until you realize that you're not insignificant, until you realize that you are just as important as everyone else!"
I wish he wouldn't lie like that.
That's it folks. The end of chapter 3. Please review! if you want the next chapter reviews are the way to get it!
