I tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
so much more
I lay dying
and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am I too lost to be saved
am I too lost?

Dom slowly walked down to the infirmary filled with dread. How could this be? he kept on asking himself and was still getting no answers. He was still annoyed and feeling slightly proud from his fight with Neal. Each step took him a longer time than the one before and by the time he reached the infirmary, Dom was nearly waiting a whole two minutes to take each step.

He heard faint talking from inside the room and the ice sheet that had seemed to form over him shattered into millions of tiny pieces. Dom stomped up fast to the door and then stomped in and up to the lady and her son, Neal.

'How old is he?' Dom asked sharply.

'One, I don't know who you are talking about, two, I don't like the tone,' the woman replied and continued to read the book that she had obviously borrowed from Meathead.

'I don't care. How old is your son, Kel?' Dom asked, just coming straight out with it all.

'Well, if you really want to know, he is 2 and a bit. When were you planning on telling me that you knew who I was?' she asked the ending was said softly, with curiosity almost and Dom glared at the sign of softness. He was determined not to feel any.

'After you were going to tell me that you are Kel,' Dom replied sharply and Kel looked at him before looking down sharply. It was something that she would never regret.

'Well, what was I meant to do? Parade in here like I hadn't been missing for the past three years due to being kidnapped and say that I am your wife? I can see how that would have went down,' Kel scoffed and looked away to try and get rid of the prickly feeling that was starting to develop in her eyes.

'No, but you could have at least tried!' Dom yelled.

'Please, let's not, Dom,' Kel said softly and rested her head against her pillow once more. 'I can't bare to fight with you. One day I might tell you my whole story but not for the moment. After one has seen something like I have seen you can't really jsut turn around again and fit into your old life. It does take a while. That and I am not proud of some of the things that I did. Dom, please, forgive me! I am just trying to get somewhere in this life!' Kel started sobbing. What else could I do? she argued in her head. He probably hates me, and I don't blame him!

Dom's eyes narrowed and he looked away from Kel. He looked straight into the open eyes of Neal.

The open bright, sapphire colored, eyes.

He swore. 'Why didn't you tell me, Kel?' he yelled and stormed out of the room. There was no way that he was going to be willing to stay in that room when Kel had cheated on him.

Dom had assumed, that was his fourth mistake...

I am not updating this for a while because something has just happened and well, yeah. I can't find it in me to. If you have me on author alert then you will see that I am writing other things that are more suited to my mood at this point in my life...

I feel like I owe you all an explanation. Right the main thing I can say without ruining the last - ish chapter is that Dom is mentally refusing to see what is right there before his own eyes.

Aly