Summary: Kagamine Len is a "freak". At least, that's what his parents say to him. He is at odds with his own gender identity, unsure if his a male, or if he's meant to be female. Everyone that should love him, treats him differently and shows no love, only regret in his "birth". Because of this, Len is so scared for anyone to find out what's wrong with him. So afraid he hasn't been able to make friends. He just doesn't want people to realise he's not like the other guys.

Warnings: BL aka Boys Love aka Yaoi. Transsexualism. Smut.

A/N: I was pretty worried about this chapter because I didn't make Kaito's friends vocaloid characters. They're OC's simply because I didn't want to limit the characters to just "vocaloids". Besides I already have plans for Miku, Meiko, Gumi and Luka in later chapters. This is the same day as chapter three, so don't freak out over what happens. If you were worked up over a dream, you'd be pretty snarly... right? ...right?

Chapter Four

Sighing on his way back to class, Len was trying to figure out what he was going to do. He swore that since this morning, he'd kept his eyes away from Shion-senpai, to the point he was particular avoiding him. Maybe Shion-senpai had noticed, maybe he hadn't… no, he definitely hadn't. After all, Shion-senpai was once again surrounded by people; laughing and joking like he always did.

Yawning, Len tried to push it out of his mind. As real as it felt, it had been a dream… a very strange dream. It had been way too humiliating to think about, especially when Rin comment that her big brother wet the bed like she did. Maybe being young and naïve worked best in his favour; the last thing he wanted to explain to her why his bed was wet.

With a loud groan, he tried to shove that into the back of his mind as well. He was grown boy, fifteen years old to be exact, yet here he was, letting such little thing bother him. Since Len's eyes peered down at the floor, he hadn't be watching where he was going and slammed into someone's back, which made him drop to the floor as if he was dead weight. "Ouch!" Len whimpered, looking at his red hand before looking up to apologize. Instead, his face dropped and his voice vanished.

Shion-senpai looked down at him, his annoyed expression changed to one filled with concern when he realised who it was. "Len! Are you alright?" he held his hand out, offer to help Len up.

Len nodded, accepting the offered hand, fighting the blush that was beginning to bloom. "I-I'm sorry, Shion-senpai. I wasn't looking where I was going."

"No harm," Shion-senpai shrugged, frowning a little. "It was probably just as much my fault as yours. I'd just stopped dead in the middle of the hallway to answer a text," he stated, holding his mobile up to show Len. Some small part of him felt envious. Everyone had a mobile but him! I can't afford it at the moment. It'll have to wait, he told himself firmly. Then, watching Shion-senpai for a minute he remembered the dream and couldn't fight the blush, which seemed to make Shion-senpai rather curious. "Is something wrong?"

"N-No! O-Of course not!" Len laughed nervously. It was way too obvious because Shion-senpai's face dropped, looking unnerved.

"If-" he began when out of nowhere, someone whacked him over the head, startling him.

"Shion, dude! I was looking for you!" a guy jumped him, laughing. "Where were you all this… time…" his eyes focused on Len, then gave Shion-senpai (who was still recovering from the blow to his head) a confused look.

"Dude, don't just hit me over the head out of nowhere; if you were anyone else, I'd have gut you, Hibiki" Shion-senpai said nastily, giving him a dark look.

Hibiki, one of the five that hung around Shion-senpai gave him a woeful look before turning his eyes back to Len. "Kagamine…chan, right?"

"Y-Yes," Len muttered, looking away from them.

"He's in our class right?" Hibiki asked, turning to Shion-senpai.

"Idiot, he sits behind you!" Shion-senpai snapped. "Are you really that dumb?"

"Oh…"

Len stood there, feeling all awkward as they argued about it. He was about to excuse himself when a girl appeared out of nowhere, slapping Hibiki over the head in annoyance. "Hibiki, you idiot!" She snapped. This was Aiko, another of Shion-senpai's crew. Len recognized her well since she sat next to him, but they'd never spoken. She seemed scary, bossy and dangerous, but the minute she saw Len, her eyes changed. "Len-kun! Good timing. Sensei said we are in the library for history. Just thought to mention it since no one else would have."

Ok, Len lied. They had spoken. It was normally passing on messages from the teachers like this, but that was about it. "T-Thanks."

"You're welcome!" She said cheerfully. Maybe she wasn't as bad as people made her out to be. Len wasn't so sure just yet, however. "Anyways, Baka-ekey! You're working with me!"(1)

"Why?!" Hibiki complained loudly.

"Because no one else will! Katsu is working with some other girl, and since Ryu and Chi are dating, naturally they're working together. So you got stuck with me."

"What about Kaito?"

"Kaito's working with Len, right?" She said, smiling at Len who looked startled. "We pulled names out of the hat yesterday, remember, Baka-ekey! Len was late the other day, missed the bus right?" she winked at Len before continuing. "Since there were arguments about who was working with who; which is mainly Kaito's fault-"

"Oi" Shion-senpai growled out loudly.

Aiko just continued as if she hadn't heard him. "-because all the girls, except Chi and I wanted to work with him. So, we drew names from a hat. Of course, sensei was smart enough to keep Ryu and Chi together, since if he ended up with any other girl, there would have been a blood bath. So, while you, Baka-ekey, was sleeping, I drew your name from the hat, and therefore, got stuck with you. Kaito pulled Len's name out and it was done deal. Of course, every girl is now devastated because they ain't working with Kaito. They'll live however."

Aiko grinned at Len, looking satisfied that she had delivered her message, even though it was a little late. Len just stared at her, his mind trying to process everything. He wasn't that late to History that morning. Maybe ten minutes, at least. How did all that happen in ten minutes? He didn't bother questioning since Shion-senpai had nodded in agreement the whole time, except when she blamed it all on him, which had pissed him off. To be honest, he never thought Shion-senpai was the type of guy to get so irritated so quickly. He'd always thought senpai was a pretty calm, collected kind of guy. Maybe not?

"Anyways, off to the library!" Aiko grabbed Hibiki by the arm and began dragging him off in the opposite direction. Even after they disappeared, Len could still hear Hibiki's protests. Poor guy, Len sympathised, then glanced up at Shion-senpai, who was still looking down the hallways.

"I-I suppose we should move on too?" Len asked nervously, hating how Shion-senpai turned his whole attention on Len after he spoke.

"We probably should, or we'll be late."

"…So, have you decided?"

Len looked up from the book on his lap, staring at Shion-senpai who was scanning the webpage in front of him, scribbling down notes for their assignment. In the end, they choose to look at Greek Mythology, since everyone else was being a little be lazy and sticking to something with Japanese culture and history. Though a couple of other students did look at other things, most of the pages Len saw around on the computers were Japanese orientated. He wasn't sure what to say to Shion-senpai's comment, so he looked down at the page he had open, hoping Shion-senpai wouldn't press.

"Len?"

"Y-Yes…?"

"Did you think about it?"

Nope, no, absolutely not. He had too many other things on his mind, which he was still fighting to keep it out of his mind. "S-Sorry, I had… a busy night," Len answered, staring at the page until the words began to blur. When that happened, he began to violently rub at his eyes.

"So… you haven't decided?" Shion-senpai let out an exasperated sigh. Shion-senpai sat there for a moment before leaning back in his chair and staring at Len. "It's not hard to decide really? I mean, you don't have to be there the whole time. Besides, everyone going is from our class. There aren't any unfamiliar faces."

That wasn't true. He didn't know the people in their class. He only just happen to recognize Aiko since she sat next to him, and Hibiki, since he slept in class all the time and was dense and annoying. However, Len didn't know anyone else. He didn't know the names of any of the students; didn't even know the names of Shion-senpai's other friends. That was how shut off he was to the rest of the class.

"I know you're not good around people, but don't you find it boring having no friends?"

No friends… It almost felt like a kick in the nuts. It was took a lot of control not to raise his voice. "Just because you sit in class during lunch doesn't mean you know anything about me. I do have friends, just no one in our class. And if you say you thought I went out to eat by myself then you are sadly mistaken. Just because you all have your own perfect families that make you all nice food, some of us don't have that luxury and have to buy something to eat," Len snapped, feeling bruised. Ok, for as long as he could remember, he never really had friends. But the fact that people assumed he was a sore loser and a loner really pissed him off.

You can't trust anyone, after all. They're all the same. Two faced lairs. Shion-senpai looked at him, surprised by the outburst before mumbling something that sounded like an apology but Len ignored it. "How do you expect people to understand when you don't give reasons?" Shion-senpai muttered, keeping his eyes on the screen.

"Because I don't trust people, and I don't trust you either," Len snapped. He turned away to focus on his reading. "Besides, why should I tell people about my personal life, it's not any of their business?"

"Did you know that when they were pulling names out of the hat, someone else got paired up with you," Shion-senpai answered, sounding annoyed. "That person said they didn't want to work with you because you were arrogant and hard to work with. You don't talk, you don't acknowledge people. Absolutely no one wanted to work with you. That's why you're working with me, because I felt sorry for you. Maybe they weren't far off of what they said."

It was taking great effort to keep the tears down. Yeah, he figured as much. He knew it all too well that it was a coincidence. He wasn't that stupid. Didn't change the fact that it hurt to know the truth. "I don't care," Len answered, praying for his voice not to give away what he really felt. "It doesn't change that tonight you'll go home to a loving family and do whatever the fuck you want," he continued. "I'll go home to a destructive sister whose scared of every damn adult she sees because of the trauma she's experience. I go home to a sister who looks at me and remembers all the shit that happened before I asked to get removed from home. I go home to a sister who thinks she is a freak because of our situation!" He hadn't realised he was shouting until he noticed everyone had stopped talking. Fine, he didn't care. "So go home Shion-senpai. Go home to a family that welcomes you with open arms. Go home to a family that will have your dinner ready. Go home knowing you have everything you damn well want. I don't care anymore, I just don't care." Len slammed the book to the floor, stood up and turned straight at Shion-senpai. "But don't you dare judge me. If you fucking paid attention, you would have understood. But you don't. I'm arrogant? Then if that's the case, you're fucking ignorant!"

And with that explosion, Len bolted from the room, ignoring his teacher who called after him. He couldn't handle this. I thought you were different, senpai. Clearly I was wrong!

Everything was so loud. There was yelling, people talking. For a long moment, Kaito sat there, feeling stupid. Why did he say something like that? He was better than this. Finally, he began to recognise what was going on. People were angry, saying horrible things about Kagamine-kun again. People were calling him spoiled and rotten. There were so many assumptions, so many harsh judgments. They shouldn't have been directed at Kagamine-kun… they should have been directed at him. It was his fault Kagamine-kun had exploded. It felt as if they were words Kagamine-kun had bottle up... and it was Kaito's fault he'd exploded.

Maybe sensing this, Ryunnosuke stood up, his presence was enough to silence the group. People normally did shut up around Ryunnosuke since he was equally quiet as he was scary. "A lot of you don't know this, but two years ago, Kagamine-san came into class with a black eye and bruises all over his arms. Kagamine-san moved out of home because his parents were abusive, and with him, he took his little sister," Ryunnosuke spoke in a very quiet yet dark voice. "Out of everyone here, I was the only one who went to Middle school and Junior High with him. I should know, because I saw what he was going through. I saw him on the worst days, and on the moderately good days. Do you want to know what a good day was for him? Having money to actually eat, clean clothes to wear that weren't covered in blood. Days where the only bruises he had were old bruises. They were good days.

"Kagamine-san works to keep himself alive. Most days he doesn't go home until nine o'clock. His sister is home on her own for that whole time. Do you really think that he's spoilt now? Does spoilt involve being beat every night? No, it doesn't. When was the last time you saw Kagamine-san with a mobile? Never, because he doesn't have one. Has never had one. He doesn't have an mp3 or iPod. He doesn't have the gaming equipment. He doesn't even own a computer. How many of you could live like that? With nothing but what's on your backs? None of you. You wouldn't last five minutes without it, without your Facebook and Twitter accounts. Without YouTube or whatever social media you use! None of you would survive."

And with that, Ryunnosuke walked from the room with Chiyoko trailing after him, squeaking something about waiting up for her. The whole room was silent. No one spoke, no one dared speak. Not even the sensei who looked bruised. So, he knew about the abuse too?

Kaito jumped as someone rested their hand on his shoulder, and looked up to find Aiko there, tears gushing from his eyes. "I notice them… the bruises on his arms. They really light now, but they are there. Some look like large hand prints that had gripped him. I knew they were there…"

Kaito rested a hand on hers. "It's not your fault. I shouldn't have said anything."

"No, I should have said something sooner. I know where he goes for lunch. He goes to the roof, he meets up with a senior there. I've seen them before when I've had soccer practice. It's the only time I've seen him laugh and be happy, Kaito. The only time. I should have jumped in sooner, but I couldn't. All I could do was watch him break." She closed her eyes, sniffling. "How cruel could we be?"

Kaito sat there, not sure what to do for a brief moment before he stood up, deciding he had to go find Len. He needed to apologize. He didn't utter a word to Aiko, but he didn't need to. She followed him out, with Hibiki and Katsurou right behind them. Only once they were some distance away did they hear chatter return to the room before people began filing out, some yelling to look in certain places before everyone moved off. We're all responsible for this. He didn't shut us out, we shut him out because we didn't think we could handle him. We labelled him, yet didn't even try to get to know him. We just shut him out, excluded him from us.

…How cruel can we get?

(1) I was trying to work out a bad nickname for Hibiki. However, instead of writing "iki" at the end of baka, I choose to write it how it would sound "e key". That's why it's Baka-ekey, and not Baka-iki (which didn't look as impressive haha).

Also, notice it's the only time I will used "baka". I'm trying to avoid using too many Japanese words in this, only using the Japanese honorifics such as "san" and "senpai", even "sensei". Why, because one I'm not Japanese, and two, it doesn't make a whole lot of sense adding in Japanese words at random because they "sound cool". Personally, I feel it's unprofessional, and since I am, in my free time, attempting to write a novel for publication, I am trying to keep as much of my narrative work as professional as possible. After all, practices makes perfect :)

Anyways, I am really worried about this chapter. It doesn't feel rushed does it? I really wanted something to happen that would make them both clash. It wasn't that Kaito was trying to be mean, it was because Len took it wrong. You could say they were words Len had bottled up for some time and because of one thing that happened and one word said, he exploded. I should know this... I'm a person who bottles everything up =.= trust me, it gets you no where fast. Anyways, there is this whole scene that is meant to happen straight after this, but I excluded it. The story isn't mainly told from Kaito's perspective, so I want to limit the time you hear his thoughts. I felt this scene with Kaito and his thoughts were important, so that was why it stayed. Look forward to the next chapter :)