I hate seeing him like this in pain and I can't do anything about it.
"Marc just relax okay please keep breathing"
He grimaced
I got my mortar and pastel and I went to my drawer to get rosemary and mint and thyme
I started to grind them and when I could easily smell the mixture I went over to marc and put it close to his nose.
"Marc baby I want you to breathe in these herbs" I said
He started to breathe them in at first his breaths were quick and shallow and then after a while his breaths got deeper and slower that was a good thing.
"Marc how do you feel baby?"
"Sleepy I feel like this is all a dream like you didn't say yes when I asked you to marry me"
"Well Marc it wasn't a dream I said yes and I love you so why don't you go to sleep "
"I love you too babe" he said closing his eyes
I went out to go get some air and I looked up at the sky and it looks like night. Huge dark clouds and it smells like rain then the rain drops started to come down and then a huge crack of thunder shook the ground and rumbled in the trees. Then a brilliant flash of lightning went across the dark sky. I had to go back in because I am getting soaked so I went and took a shower. I let the hot water hit my back and my face just like normal the water turned cold. I got out and looked at the clock and it said 7:00 pm.
We were down at the pond all day then his headache hit him hard I got in my pajamas and went to bed and I put my arm over marc to make sure he was still breathing. I can't let him go if I let him go then I let my life go and I need him and he needs me I think he could do better than me but he won't see it that way. Don't get me wrong I am madly in love with him I just want him to be happy and not always getting hurt because of me and my screw ups. I just can't let him go but if it takes me leaving to keep him safe then I will. I closed my eyes to go to sleep but I don't fall asleep I just lay there close to my baby. Listening to his heart beat and to his breathing I just need to keep him alive. I get up and go to my closet and grab all of my cloths and get my duffle open and start putting my stuff in there marc moved. I looked back at him and started crying am I really going to leave him like this in the middle of the night just to keep him alive.