That night I had a dream of utter horror I saw blood and flames and I heard Marc yelling out in pain I tried to help him but I couldn't I wasn't strong enough to break the glass. I heard him say my name one last time before the jeep exploded and I screamed and fell to my knees just crying out in pain for losing him. I felt some one shaking me and saying "Luna Baby wake up"

I woke up with Marc looking at me worriedly. I sat up and wiped my face. I feel all shaky and I was in a cold sweat. "Luna?"

"What Marc?"

"Are you okay? What did you see?"
"Marc I saw what you told me you saw this time it was me that was trying to break the glass to save you"

"Luna, things are going to be okay I promise you one day someone is going to come back into your life that you have missed and he is going to be there more than I have and could have Baby I make that promise to you okay and you know I keep my promises to you I always have and always will till the day I die"

I got out of bed and went to the window the weather had turned for the worst the rain was falling down in heavy sheets I couldn't see the next cabin. The thunder clapped and shook the house and the ground. Lightning flashed and danced in the sky.

Marc came over to me and hugged around my waist from behind. "Luna lets go back to bed please I am really tired and you help me stay asleep"

"Okay I will lay with you till you fall asleep okay and if I don't I will just snuggle with you until I do okay"

"Deal" he said letting go of me and holding my hand.

We laid on the bed and snuggled me with my head on his chest like always and him holding me tight.

With in no time marc was out like a light he is right I put him to sleep like the best sleeping pill out there.

I laid there listening to his heart beat and breathing trying to fall asleep but I don't know if I am going to go to sleep after that nightmare. I closed my eyes and just thought back to all the fun and sad times we have had and I am going to miss him when he is gone. I wonder who he was talking about that was going to come back into my life who have I lost?

I drifted off to sleep and I didn't have a nightmare after that. When we woke up it was still raining and it was worse.

"Morning Baby" he said sleepy

"Morning Marc" I said stretching and yawning

"Did you sleep better after we talked?"

"A little bit, hey who were you talking about last night who is coming back in to my life who have I lost?"

"If I told you it wouldn't be a good moment you would be waiting for him to just appear you know that right?"

"Marc you know I hate surprises "I whined

"Yeah yeah"

There was a knock on the door "Luna open up it's me Ricky!"

"Who is Ricky?" he asked

"Ricky has been my big brother from when I was in High school"

"So are you going to let him in?"

"Do I have too?"

"Yes you do"

I got up and opened the door He is soaked from the rain. "Luna we need to talk"

"What do we need to talk about?" I asked concerned

"About what happened the last time I was here"

"Marc you remember Ricky you helped me fix him up"
"Ah , You're my wife to be big brother"

"Yep he said smiling "

"Hey babe can you give Ricky and I a minute to talk "

"Sure I am going to take a shower and try to find some food but the rain needs to stop"

The minute he said that the birds started to sing and the sun was shining.

"Well I guess I am going to go get food" Marc said and left

"So why are you here?" I asked folding my arms over my chest

"I needed to talk to you again I was a fool the last time I was here"

"How do I know that you're not high and you're not going to remember what you are saying"

"Sis I am not high I don't do that anymore I got clean for good I spent time in jail."

Yeah I heard that from Zoe she told me. She spent that day with me and she freaking cried for a while. Do you realize what you put the two of us though?" I said trying not to cry.

"Sis come on please just let me talk"

"I am all ears "

"Okay the reason I said you wouldn't care if it was me you fixed up is I didn't think you would want to see me after I hurt you like that. Do you know why I was high all the time?"

I shook my head no
"Well let me tell you I was afraid sis I was afraid that I was going to snap at you and scare you and make you feel like you couldn't come to me and talk to me I was terrified that I was going to lose my little sis the one person I knew I was going to have for the rest of my life. I know you sis you are always going to be there for me no matter what . You have checked on my from the time I met you, you made sure I was alive and you helped me when I was stoned out of my mind you were there . I have been the one that hasn't been there for you that makes me the world worst big bro and you know I am going to change that I am going be here for you no matter what just like you were there for me"

"Bro it feels like it was my fault that you did all that crap"

"Why Luna it isn't your fault"

"It just feels like it"

"Sissy, just think the people I thought were my friends got me doing all that crap the one person I needed to keep away from all that I ignored and pushed away. You did what you thought was right and it was right sis. I just didn't listen to you at all and ignored you. I put you though hell and hurt you but you came back and stayed with me and helped me sober up. You are the reason I got clean you showed me how real people act and feel and what they are supposed to do and not be stoned out of the fucking head."
He sat down on the bed and put his head in his hands. I thought back to the first time he caught me cutting he did this same thing. I heard him sigh a heavy sigh like he didn't know what to do or say next. I sat down on the bed next to him.

"Hey bro haven't we been through this before but with me cutting?"

"Yeah we have and I don't know what to say next I am out of words to say next is that a bad thing"

"Well let me say something and maybe you might get ideas"

"Okay so what do you have to say now sissy"

"Well I miss you like heck and where is my hug"

He turned to face me and hugged me tightly this is the first time I have hugged him in a long time that he didn't smell like pot or cigarettes or anything like that he smelled like the clone

I gave him a long time ago. "Bro I did what I thought was right to take care of you and do my best to get you out of that situation but I kept trying and trying but you wouldn't listen to me. I wanted to give up many times but I knew if I did you would have given up too and then you would have seen that you didn't have anyone else in the world that cared about but the idiots and you would have fallen deeper and I would have lost you for good and I wouldn't have you now and you would either be dead or in jail and I would be freaking out even more" I said in a breathless rush and I started have a freak out.

"Shh sis chill out you got me now and I am not going to let you go or do anything else that would cause me to lose you."

I felt tears starting to well up in my eyes. I felt a truth in that he was saying and I am happy that I got my brother back I need him more than ever. Maybe this is what marc was talking about.