A/N Hello, eveyone. I hope everyone is enjoying this. Let me know what you think.
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My heart is heavy as I watch Wes be injected. His first four fear are fear of heights, being factionless, being tested on in Erudite, and being dissected. The last three I am in. In one Wes stands by the sculptures outside of Erudite I am there as well. "I hate you, Wesley Roberts. I never want to see you again." The me in his simulation says in a monotone voice. "Don't do this Kaven." He says quietly. "That's not my name." Venom pours from the word of the simulated me. The fear of me leaving him. I am sadden that he thinks I would ever leave him.
He is in now in Dauntless in the pit across from the Chasm. I am dancing next to the Chasm when a faceless Dauntless runs by and pushes me over into the Chasm below. Wes screams and runs to the rail. He looks down and sees my broken body at the bottom floating in the now bloody water. Fear of not being able to save me.
He is pulled from this fear to another. He is now in the apartment I shared with Jeanine after my father's murder. He runs to my bedroom where I lay sleeping. Jeanine stands over me with a gun. "Hello, Wesley. I want you to kill her." My mother tells him.
"No. I could never kill McKaven." He yells at her.
She hands him the gun, "do it." He raises the gun and points it at Jeanine.
"Go to hell, Jeanine." He pulls the trigger. Jeanine falls on the floor by my bed. Fear of having to kill me. Seven fears.
I see Wes jump up from the chair in the room out of the simulation. "Kaven. Where is she?" I read his lips as he asks Four who stands next to him. Four turns to the glass and points to where I sit with Audi. He comes out white faced and sinks down between Audi and me.
I lean into him and put my head on his shoulder. "You will never lose me. You know I love you right?"
He wraps his arm around me. "Yeah, I love you too, Kaven."
For the next few names it is Four that comes out for the initiates.
Then Eric opens the door and calls "Audi Lovejoy." He turns around and goes back in his hands balling into fist.
Audi gets up and follows Eric into the simulation room. She ends up having eleven fears. Heights, never leaving Amity, peace serum, public humiliation, rejection, lack of control, being ignored, and the death of her little sister, Summer.
Audi comes back out ashen as she sits down with us. I wrap my hand around hers and squeeze.
We are down to thirteen initiates left when Eric walks out and looks over to me. I know it is my turn before he even says, "McKaven Blaine." Wes and Audi each gives me a hug before I stand up and go over to where Eric stands at the door. He steps back into the room letting me follow behind. I take a deep breath and walk over to the metal chair. I hop onto it as Four comes over with the serum. He has two vials, he quickly injects me with both. I close my eyes preying that it will work.
I open my eyes to find myself in the kitchen of the Erudite apartment we lived in when my father was alive. Only one thing happened in this apartment that I fear. I look around and see myself when I was six walk into the kitchen as the front door opens. My mother and father walk in. "God, no!" I cry out as I fall to my knees. I continue to shake my head as my mother hands my father the poisoned scotch.
As I watch my father's silver eyes become dim I am pulled from the kitchen and into a laboratory. My mother stands with Wes in front of me. Faceless Erudite stand around with guns. I quickly stand as Jeanine cocks the gun she has in her hand. She puts it to Wes's head. "Shot him, Juliana or I will. Your choice."
"My name is not Juliana!" I scream, "and I will never kill him." I take the gun I feel in my hand and put it to my head. I pull the trigger. I am pulled from the simulation as my body crumples to the floor.
I come to in the simulation chair with a gasp. I shudder and wrap myself more into Wes's jacket. I look up to see both Eric and Four staring at me. "Am I done?"
"Yes." Eric says as they walk closer to me.
"Congratulations, McKaven." Four looks over at the screen that he and Eric walked away from. "You have the lowest amount of fears of anyone."
"You can go now." Eric opens the door. I look up at him before I walk through the door, my heart beating a mile a minute.
I walk back over to Wes and Audi. I go to sit between them again when Wes pulls me onto his lap in his arms. "I am sorry."
I wrap my arms around him and my head on his shoulder. " We are a messed up pair huh?"
"We just can't lose one another." He says as Tris walks past and into the simulation room with Eric and Four. After a few minutes they all walk out.
"It is lunch time. We have to hurry the kitchen will close soon until dinner." Tris says as she walks past us to the door that opens to the pit.
I slide out of Wes's lap so he can stand we walk with the others down to the dinning hall. When we all get to the dinning hall it is empty with only one table that still holds food. The initiates quickly take their sit to eat. I walk slower still feeling the weight of the gun in my hand. I follow behind Wes and take a sit by his side the only one left at the long table. It is across from Eric. I can feel the heat from his glaze on me.
"I can't believe you only have two fears, Kaven." Aren yells from the other end of the table.
"I don't." Wes says as Aren goes back talking to his friends.
"Why?" Aidian one of the other Erudite transfers ask.
"She doesn't let anyone in." Wes puts food on my plate.
"So she is a bitch." Marco a Candor transfers coughs.
"No, I just don't let anyone get close. I minimize the risk. Can't get hurt if you don't let anyone in." I pick at the burger in front of me.
"Was the first fear real? Did Jeanine really do that to the man?" Audi asks from the other side of Wes.
I just nod and slide my plate over to Wes. I am done eating. I lean my head on his shoulder. He pulls me in tight to his side. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine. I have you don't I?" I smile at him and hear a growl come from across the table. I look up into the stormy eyes of Eric. His eyes blaze with anger. I look away with horror as Marco asks if we are sleeping together. I break apart from Wes as he chokes on his hamburger. I pat him on his back. "No!" I almost yell at Marco.
"Well the two of you are always touching. Erudite usually don't touch at all."
"We grew up together since we were seven." Wes says still coughing.
"I met him after my dad died. He was there when I needed someone to lean on. He always has been." I gripe the ring that hangs around my neck.
Wes pulls me back to his side. "That is enough. Leave her alone."
"No it is okay. I wouldn't be very Dauntless if I couldn't take a few questions." I lay my hand on his arm.
"Alright."
I look back at Eric to see him shooting daggers at me with the anger pouring from his eyes to mine. I am stunned my his dark stare. "Lunch is over Everyone back to the simulation room."
Eric's command is met with hesitation but not for long. It is a command from Eric after all.