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Chapter 6

Maybe I'm just crazy, yes I am crazy, I'm a fool and I am a socially awkward human where I spend half my life questioning everything. Why, Is a powerful word. Why do some people believe in God and others do not? Why do some people never cry? Why are humans on this earth? Is there something greater out there in the universe that we as humans are yet to discover? Well if those sound like big questions try this one, WHY THE F*** am I going through the experience of frostbite I live in Australia where it's 40 degrees every day. Ok not every day it does get cold in winter but none of this – 10 degrees crap. Why was I here in this not so fake land with these weirdos? I feel weird around them, no I feel embarrassed. I do not fit in. I must be dead yes that's what has happened I have died and now I am going through a test before I am allowed into Heaven. And the reason why I feel pain is because I have yet to make it into Heaven.

I felt someone move behind me, I closed my eyes wanting nothing more than to go back to sleep, 'I know you are awake, how do you feel?'

'Am I dead?' I muttered to the voice.

'No you are very much alive. Are you still in any pain? Sam and Merry will be finished with the tea shortly. You will drink it and you should no longer feel the effect of the cold from the last few days. Now we have a few moments to talk while Gandalf tries to open the door to Moria.'

I looked around and found Gandalf looking livid at the door, if I was feeling myself I would have laughed and told him to knock and if someone was home they would answer if not move on try again another day. But Sam pulled me out of this thought by handing me a warm cup with tea in it. I must admit I'm not a fan of tea, but I would give it a go. Aragorn sat in silence, watching me. I took a sip, it was very warm and sweet almost sickly sweet. This is why I don't drink tea without milk it does not taste very nice.

Ah well when Aragorn goes I'll quickly throw it in the lake. As if reading my mind Aragorn said, 'Think about throwing that out and I will simply make more and I will give it to you myself.' With one last threatening look I took one long sip and drowned the tea. Aragorn held his hand out I assumed he wanted the cup. He took it and looked, 'You have left some.' He said handing it back.

I closed my eyes and quickly drank the last few drops. He took the cup and put it down nodding. 'I want to ask you a question, if you will allow me to do so.' I nodded not seeing why he would ask permission to ask me stuff.

'Wait I want some answers as well, will you answer my questions?' I added quickly before he could speak. There was something about Aragorn that made me feel safe, although he scares me at times he is also gentle and he had yet to hurt me.

'I will do my best to answer your questions. Firstly I want to know, why do you not eat?' I closed my eyes and sighed, wishing he would start off with the basics, like what's your favourite colour.

'Wow you don't hold back do you. And I do eat, just not that much. I don't need to. Where am I?'

He studied me for a moment before answering, 'You are in Middle Earth, currently we are outside the mines of Moria home to the dwarfs. Why don't you need to eat much?'

'Because I can't. What is your destination?'

'I need more of an answer from you before I answer.' We sat staring at each other. His eyes bore straight into mine, I felt like he could extract the devil himself from the intense look he was giving me. But it was not a look of hatred or a look of annoyance but rather concern. I turned my back on him unable to hold his gaze.

'I can't do this I'm sorry I'm not worth your time nor your concern. I am nothing, I wish you had left me alone to die.' I let out a small sob and held my legs up to my chest burying my head in my arms as shameful tears flooded my eyes.

Arms wrapped around my shaking body, Aragorn was talking but not in a language I recognised, but it had a calming effect. I looked up at him and still only concern flooded his eyes. It broke my heart to know I was making someone concerned about me. But looking at him I was overcome with such grief and emotion that I briefly explained it, 'I don't eat because I don't deserve to eat. It helps me get through my day, punishing myself it makes it easier to deal with everything. I'm so disgusting and so broken, I don't even know what to say. I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry. Someone as worthless as me does not deserve your concern.'

I buried my head in my hands and cried freely, 'Look at me,' I didn't move, I couldn't. I felt hands pry mine away from my face. Aragon held my hands gently, I closed my eyes wanting to escape in the dark corner of the world. 'Look at me, open your eyes.' He said calmly.

'I can't, you must hate me like everyone else does.'

'I do not hate you.' I could feel his eyes on me, I knew he was hoping that if he looked at me long enough I would give in. He was right. I opened my wet eyes, but I felt ashamed. He grabbed my chin in his hand before I could look away. My heart started beating faster and faster, I felt like I was going to be sick.

'I care about you. I do not wish to see one so young deal with such grief. I know not where you got the idea that you do not deserve to eat, but while you are with me you will eat. You are worth fighting for. You need to be honest with me from now on. And in return I will be honest with you.' Tears fell from my eyes as he pulled me into a hug which I accepted this time. The sound of splashing pulled us apart and Aragorn looked quickly around and shot up grabbing Pippin.

'Do not disturb the water,' I looked around quickly drying my eyes and feeling a little lighter then I had before, I saw Frodo stand up and say something and then the doors opened. I felt someone guide me towards the door, I looked around and saw Aragorn who smiled slightly at me. We walked through the door, 'Do not look down, trust me.' Aragorn whispered in my ear. Now when someone says don't do something my instant reaction is to do what I've been told not to do. But this time I looked straight in front of me not wanting to know what was below my feet.

'This is no mine it's a tomb. We should leave now.'

Before I could register what was happening Sam yelled out, 'Aragorn, Aragorn help.' Legolas flew past with Aragon right behind him. Legolas was gracefully shooting arrows at a sea monster while Aragorn hacked at it. I squirmed it was the most horrid and scary looking thing I had ever seen. The monster dropped Frodo into the waiting arms of Boromir. Aragorn quickly ushered the four Hobbits and myself back into the cave no wait tomb. All went pitch black. Luckily I was not so scared of the dark, but I knew the horrors that could plague my mind if it is dark and that was what scared me.

'It is a four day journey until we reach the exit. Come let us hope we go unnoticed.' Gandalf said and his staff light up creating a slight light for us to follow. I felt a little shaky as we walked onwards, but I knew poor Frodo would be feeling a lot worse than I was at this point. I walked a little faster to catch up to him. He looked at me, but did not smile. I put my hand on his shoulder to show support. He accepted this and in silence we all walked towards our fate.