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ENTRY NUMBER THREE
Why do people always say ..."New Year's Eve is suppose to be a happy great partying time". Saying goodbye to the old and welcoming the new. For Anastasia Rose Steele, there was nothing happy or special to party about let alone looking forward to "A Happy New Year." There was a time where she would have said, she was the happiest person to be so cared for and loved by a guy named Christian Grey. He had changed her just by being with him one night. Now her heart was shattered in a million pieces. She tried not to show it on the outside but inside her heart was totally crushed. She met Christian Grey on a blind date at the end of her college days at WSU. Every girl/woman wanted him. He of course was the most wealthiest eligible handsome bachelor a girl would dream of. His brother, Elliot Grey who is going with my best friend Kate Kavanagh had been bugging me to accept a blind date with him. News Flash: Christian Grey multi billionaire dating Anastasia Steele "The bookworm"...I do not think so. Why would he even be interested in little ole Annie from Montesano. Where as Kate and I are complete opposites. Every guy was interested in dating her. She was switching guys every weekend. Her motto.."Just For Fun". That was until one night she met Elliot Grey in a disco. A one nighter turned into many more until they decided to make it official. "Kate and Elliot are a couple." I know Kate like the back of my hand. We had been best friends all through college and shared a little apartment near the campus. Our plan was always when we finish studying to get an apartment together in Seattle. Kate was the lucky one. Had parents who always paid for her. So I did most of the cooking and cleaning, Kate would burn even eggs. Maybe some day she would take a cooking class because sure, Elliot loves to eat. They can not always live on take out. Sure we had plenty of nights eating take out and just lounging around watching a good flick on TV. If Kate went out I was happy to stay home and just cuddle up with a good book. Our close friend since college Jose Rodriguez always wanted to take me out. How many times I told him "I am not interested. "Get it..." "We are just friends". If Kate won from repeating come on Ana you just have to come out with us. Then I finally gave in and went out in a crowd. Sure I love listening to music it puts me in the mood then I just want to get up and dance. Definitely do not need a partner to have fun. I was happy and content by myself. No one to hurt me. No one to tell me what to do. My step Dad Ray always taught me to be independent. Finally after Elliot and Kate begging me I agreed to go out on this blind date. Kate was the expert for fashion. When she saw something she new, it looked perfect on her. I was happy wearing tight jeans and a T shirt. She picked out my outfit for the date. A tight black cocktail dress that hugged to my waist to show my curves, it was low cut in the back, the length was right above my knee. The dress made me feel fantastic. Kate said, Ana you are a "knock out" in this dress. You can keep it. It looks so much better on you than me. I hugged Kate and said thank you. She lent me a pair of black christian louboutin high heels. Of course a matching black clutch. Kate styled my chestnut long wavy hair, and added a black with diamond comb to hold my hair in place on one side. The plan was that I was to meet him at a restaurant of his choice which was at "The Heathman Hotel" in Portland. I figured even if the date did not go so good at least I would have a decent meal tonight. My plan was not for me to get my hopes up to high after reading about him I am sure this date will be just a one time thing. Elliot made sure that Christian had a photo of me and Kate gave me one of Christian. This way we would recognize each other at the restaurant. Kate lent me her Mercedes to drive over. She was never happy me driving my VW Beetle. Driving there it was great having GPS. I was so happy they had valet parking so I did not have to worry about looking for a parking space. Walking in these high heels was dangerous enough for me. I just hoped not to trip over my on feet tonight and embarrass myself. I walked into the restaurant bar to look for Christian. Before I even noticed him I felt a chill going through my body. I looked over to the bar and there he was standing looking right at me. He was the most handsome well dressed stunning guy I had ever seen. He was gorgeous. The photo I had, did him no justice. He slowly walked over to me and held out his hand, and I reached out my
hand to him. Automatically I felt a electric shock wave go through my hand and I think he felt it too. While still holding my hand he said, Hi, I am Christian Grey. I said Hi, I am Anastasia Steele but my friends call me Ana. Well Ana he said, it is pleasure to meet you. He made me smile by saying that. Come, I have a nice table for us to be alone so we can get to know one another. He pulled out my chair to sit, was a complete gentleman. He asked what I would like to drink. I told him I was not sure if I should drink alcohol since I drove here. He said, you could have a white wine spritzer that has not so much alcohol. But then he surprised me and said or you could leave your car just here and stay with me. I have a room here at the hotel . I was shocked when he said that. The nerve of him to come out and say that to me we just met. Then I thought of course any girl would jump at the chance. He probably thinks that I would just go with him. I bet he has no idea who I really am. Wonder what Elliot said about me. So I thought to myself, I will play his game. I answered by saying "what do I get out of staying here". He said "Me" I told him you can order me the wine spritzer, he smirked, and said "good choice". Then he asked what I would like to eat. I told him he could order for me. He smiled, and said ok. The waiter came over and asked what we wanted to order the whole time staring at me. It looked like Christian did not like that. He made sure the waiter then looked away. Christian ordered for both of us. I was impressed with is choice. Of course the best of everything. It was the first time I felt so special. He asked me a little bit about myself. So I told him that I was graduating just like Kate from WSU in a few weeks. That my major was English Literature. He sounded very much interested. He told me that he was thinking about buying a publishing company. So I told him that we have plans moving to Seattle after graduation. He smiled and said, I live in Seattle. What part? I told him The Pikes Market District. He said, wow I live very close by. I would really look forward to showing you around. I thought that was so nice of him. He kept looking at my face. He said, you have the most beautiful sparkling blue eyes almost like the ocean. I think my face turned pink by that compliment. Christian really new how to charm me. It was like reading a section from one of my novels. I was starting to really like him. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would fall for a guy just by meeting him. But Christian Grey blew my mind. I feel like I am dreaming. Please someone, "pinch me". He looked over to me and it was like he was reading my mind. I think tonight is the night I will be a changed woman. Anything that he says or wants from me I would do. I, Anastasia for once in her life is going to let go..."Just Have Fun"...Christian and I enjoyed a delicious dinner roasted leg of lamb with scalloped potatoes and a vegetable medley. In between I started drinking wine with him. Did not realize there was no water until after a few glasses. He asked if I wanted dessert and I told him that I was full. What do you want to do now Anastasia? I said I want to see your room. He was a little bit stunned but then smiled, and said..."COME". He took me by the hand and we left the restaurant. We walked into the lobby and waited for the elevator. He was holding my hand and rubbing my knuckles. Just the touch of him holding my hands I was melting. By the time the elevator came. I was putty in his presence. Not sure if it was from the wine or just Christian himself. Wondered if he felt the same. He must have tons of woman he did this with. I had to block that out of my brain. The elevator came and I saw there was a seat in it. So I went to sit down. I felt like I was going to pass out. He knelt down by me and asked me if I was alright. I said I think I had too much wine. He started to feel my head if I was ok. Christian asked if I was dizzy. I told him a little bit. He helped me up and and then picked me up and was holding me bridal style. The elevator stopped and he carried me out towards his room. He opened the door and brought me over to his bed. I just sat there. I thought to myself. Is this what I really want. "Yes" it sure is...So Christian brought me a glass of water and a aspirin to take. I told him thank you that was very thoughtful of you. It took effect right away because all of a sudden I could not keep my eyes open. It was like I had a blackout. The next thing I new I was in bed with a T Shirt on. At first I lost count of where I was. Then I remembered having dinner with Christian. I looked
over to the other side of the bed and there was Christian sound asleep. I was not sure if I should just get dressed and leave or should I just wait and see what would happen. I decided to take my chance. He was a perfect gentleman so caring for me tonight. So I just laid there thinking. I have never been kissed or touched my whole life. I only had my wet dreams from reading my books. Here next to me is the most handsome man I have ever saw. Would love to run my fingers through his wavy hair. His body is perfect like "Adonis". No wonder why all the woman want him. Would he ever be interested in a girl like me. All of sudden Christian started moaning and tossing and turning. He became louder, it sounded like he was screaming and running from something. I was not sure what I should do so I went over to his side of the bed and started saying Christian wake up your dreaming but there was no response so I tried again nope no response, so I took him in my arms and just started rubbing his shoulders finally he calmed down. He took me in his arms and held onto me for dear life. It was the first time someone touched me. I felt so loved. I was afraid of waking him up. So I laid there very still with him. He seemed calmer. Christian Grey was holding, I, Anastasia Steele in his bed. I wonder how he would feel about that in the morning. I just laid there listening to him breathe slowly in and out in and out, finally I could not keep my eyes open any longer and fell asleep. I felt so warm and snuggled next to him. Like that's the way it should always be. I did not want that to ever end. But all good things come to an end. Here I was floating on cloud nine. The next morning Christian woke up and saw me laying next to him. I think he panicked seeing me so calm and relaxed. My whole body was completely showing some how I was laying over the blankets. Christian was staring at me. I thought he would want to touch me. I had the feeling the whole time. He surprised me and kissed me. Wow, what for a kiss for my first time. So warm and passion in it. I then grabbed his face and kissed him back. He looked to me to see if I liked kissing him and I smiled. He said, how are you feeling, I said much better. Thank you for taking good care of me. Then I got up the nerve to ask him, if he undressed me. He said. "YES" I could not have you sleeping in that tight dress all night. You would not have been too comfortable. So when you fell asleep I took your dress off and had my eyes covered. I rolled my eyes at him and said really you did not peak. He smirked, and said maybe a little. Christian then shocked me and said, I had the most beautiful body a man would want to worship. I was in complete AWE He said, you don't think you are pretty. I shook my head and said "No". He picked me up and brought me over to the mirror in the room and said. Look Ana, You Are The Most Gorgeous Woman To Me! I just melted in his arms. I had so hoped that the morning would never end. I had a feeling this was all new to him. He started getting more and distant after that. I was trying to figure out if I scared him by kissing him. Here I thought, I would leave this room not being a virgin anymore. But Christian changed in a matter of seconds. He made an excuse that he had to go to a breakfast meeting. So I did not know what else to do so I just took my clothes and went into his bathroom to get changed. After I came out I saw that he too was fully dressed. He asked me if I was hungry. I told him no, that it is ok I'll go now if your busy. He said, Ana I had the best time of my life being with you. I will never forget it. I said, me too Christian. You made a very special night for me to always remember. Thank you. I wish you a happy life. I grabbed my stuff so quick to leave so he would not see me crying. For the first time in my life I had feelings for a guy and no other than Christian Grey. Months have past since that night I never heard from him again. My heart was broken. I had thought that I meant something to him. After that morning. I was never the same. Kate and Elliot wanted to know how my date was with Christian. All I could say was... "A Date To Always Remember". I never told them what happened. They could think what they wanted to. No one ever found out. I kept it to myself. Inside I was broken but never showed it. Now it was coming
to the holidays. Kate and Elliot were planning on going to New York to see the Ball come down in Times Square. Kept asking me to join them. I tried to keep making excuses but of course Kate would not take no for an answer. She mentioned that maybe Christian would meet them there because he was staying over the holidays at his NY apartment. She slipped out saying his address where it was. I acted like I did not care. After our blind date I did not go out with anyone. I needed to forget him, but it hurt so much. My heart was broken. I felt love for the first time even though we had no sex. Kate finally convinced me, we flew to New York in a private jet. That was a great experience. Elliot, Kate, and I stayed in a hotel right by where the Ball comes down. We wanted to go out on the street and party with everyone. It was bitter cold. I started to drink southern comfort to warm my body. I had no one to hold onto like Kate had her Elliot. Christian never showed up. I was hurting so I started drinking what ever was being passed around on the street. My heart was pounding. The streets were so crowded I felt I could not move. My whole body felt like a sardine can. After that I did not know what happened. Some how I missed the Ball coming down. I was covered in glitter. Ana lost her best friend Kate and her boyfriend Elliot in the mist of the night. Everyone was drinking, dancing and singing around Ana. She was walking around like she was in a days. Nothing mattered. She visualized Christian being there. Some guy came up to Ana and started kissing her. It felt so good it made her think of Christian. He started to touch her but the feeling was not the same. She started to get nervous. The guy was getting aggressive on her. She did not know what to do. She had no one around her that she new. Her friends were gone. It started to snow the streets were getting very slippery. Ana was totally wasted, she was scared all she wanted was that Christian take her in his arms and hold her like that night in the hotel. She started to cry. The guy was getting annoyed kept saying hey babe what's the matter. Ana said, please just go away and leave me alone. The guy did not like that answer he smacked her across the face. Ana's face started to sting. She tried with all her might to get away from this guy but he had a tight grip on here. Ana remembered what her Step Dad always taught her if she felt in trouble Self-defensive." Ana waited for the moment and jammed him with her elbow and kicked him where it hurt. The guy fell to the ground. Ana made her escape from him. It took her a long time to get to a corner but eventually she made it safe. She was a wreck soaking wet. Crying in a strange city a lone on New Years Eve. She remembered the address that Kate told her. She was trying to decide in her state what to do. So a cab saw her standing in the street and said hey lady you are alright. Do you have somewhere to go? So she gave the address that was in her head. The only one she could remember for New York. The cab driver dropped her off. She could just about look out where she was. The snow was coming down pretty heavy Ana stepped out and looked at the building. She walked up to the entrance and went in. It was warm and felt good to breathe again. She saw someone and said, does Christian Grey live here. The man said and who may you be she said my name is Anastasia Steele, Christian Grey knows me. He said, wait a minute. I waited and waited was just about to turn around and leave, the man took me by the arm he called someone on the phone. Ana had no idea what was going on. She heard him say... Sir " she just showed up at your door, soaking wet, bruised, and covered in glitter".. Ana had no idea where she was gonna go. She was at her end. Next thing she new someone picked her up and carried her bridal style. She thought she was dreaming. Ana looked up to the persons face and he just smiled. Am I dreaming again...