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Chapter 4
BPOV
I watched as the guys got there bags checked and it took everything not to let my wall s crack into pieces. I just have to get home. I just have to get home. Don't let the kids see me cry. I could do this. I had to be strong.
Edward walked back over to us and bent down to Sean's level.
"Sean daddy has to go on a trip for awhile. I need you to take care of your mom and sister while I'm gone. I want you to be the man of the house. Do you think you can do that for me?"
"Wes daddy. Why you have to go?"
"Daddy has a tour deal that he has to do. I promise I will call every chance I get."
"Ot daddy. Promise to take ware of Nat and mommy. I wove you."
He pulled Sean into a hug and kissed his head.
"I love you to Sean. Be good for your mother."
"I will."
He stood up and turned to me. I just stared him in the eyes. I could see the sadness in his eyes. I could tell he was having a hard time just as I was. I could hardly look at him in the eyes. I'm not going to make it out of here without breaking down.
He pulled me into a hug and kissed my forehead.
"Bella it's going to be ok. I will be back before you know it. Be strong for me."
I pulled away and nodded.
He gave Natalie and Sean another hug and a kiss before he came back to me.
"I love you Bella. Please take care of yourself and our kids," he said as he placed his hand on my stomach.
That's all it took before I started to sob. I could not help it. He we being so loving.
"I... I love you too Edward. Please come home to the kids and me soon," I said through my tears.
"I will honey. Stop crying please. I hate it when you cry. I promise I will call everyday or as much as I can. Be safe."
He hugged me one more time and kissed me with all the love he had for me and I kissed him back the same way. I watched as he went through the gate and watched until I could not see him anymore.
Once I knew he was gone I looked over to Sean and then Natalie before I dropped to the floor and sobbed even harder.
"Mommy be ot. I will ake care you."
I looked up to my son and pulled him to me and just hugged him tighter. My four year son is handling this better then I am. I should be the one that is strong and taking care of him not the other way around him taking care of me.
I pulled myself up and I looked over my shoulder and notice that Alice and Rose are standing there with sad looks on their faces.
"Bella it will be ok. We will help you out and be there for you as well. This is just as hard on us as it is on you. But if we stay strong and help each other out everything will be just fine," Alice said.
"Bella, I need you to be strong for me, I've never been pregnant. I'll need your advice on things," Rosalie said as she wiped her eyes.
"Rosalie, I'll be here to help you. I'm so happy for you and Emmett. God, Emmett a father. I hope he grows up some," I said laughing at the image of Em as a father.
"I agree, the image of Emmett as a father, is pretty funny," Rose said as she picked up Natalie.
"Come girls let get out of here. I want to get the kids home so that they can take there nap. Once they wake up how about we go and get something to eat at the restaurant. I want to cook some?"
"That sounds great Bella. I'm going to tell you this but I don't want you getting mad or upset with Edward. He called me this morning and asked for me to make sure you don't do to much. He wants to make sure that you don't get high blood pressure with this pregnancy," Alice said to me with a sly smile.
"Nope not mad or even upset. I know how I was with Natalie and I'm going to try and do everything right this time around."
"That's great to hear, Bella. Edward just wanted to make sure," Alice said as Sean held her hand as we walked to my car.
Once we got the kids in the car, I told them we would meet them at the restaurant around seven. They agreed and went to their cars.
As I drove home, I thought about Edward. God, it is going to be so hard walking into the house. Everything will smell like him. I miss him so much already. I don't know how I'm going to make it four months without him here.
Pulling up into the driveway, I got out and helped Sean out of his seat. He grabbed Natalie's diaper bag and his bag that he took to grandma's. He was such a wonderful helper.
I got Natalie out of her seat, as she looked around. Even as I carried her she kept looking around and back toward the car.
I think she was looking for her daddy. Just knowing that she notices that Edward wasn't with us brought tears to my eyes as I opened the door.
Walking in the house I was overcome by the scent of Edward. It was like he was there, but I know he wasn't. Sean ran up to his room and was getting into his bed as I came over and kissed his forehead.
"Have a nice nap sweetheart," I said to him.
"I will Momma. Wuv you and Watalie," he said softly.
I walked to Natalie's room and laid her in her crib. "Sweet dreams, my angel."
I closed the door and walked to our room. Walking in there was hard. Edward's night clothes were on the bed, I picked it up his shirt and smelled it. Mmm...he always smells so good.
I quickly stripped off my clothes and put his shirt on as I climbed into the bed. I pulled his pillow to my chest and just let the tears fall. I missed him so much already, and he hasn't even been gone long.
I laid there crying for a while before I finally drifted off to sleep.
I was woken up by the phone ringing.
"Hello," I said groogly.
"Hi honey. I just wanted to let you know that we landed ok and are on our way to the hotel."
"Ok. How was the flight?" I asked trying not to let him hear me crying.
"Ok but I wish I was there with you and the kids. I'm starting to think that I may have made the wrong decision. I miss you all so much and it's only been a half of day."
"We miss you to babe. The girls and I along with the kids are going to the restaurant and I'm going to cook us dinner."
"Honey please tell me that you will take it easy and won't do to much. I'm not there to take care of you."
"Edward I promise that I will take it easy with this pregnancy. I know that I pushed myself too much with Natalie and I'm going to watch my blood pressure this time real closely and if the Doctor tells me to do something I'm going to make sure I do as I'm told."
"That's my girl. Bella I've got to go but I will try and call you again tonight before I go to bed. I love you and take care of my heart. I left it with you and the kids."
When he said that I started to sob. I could not help it. He says that he left his heart here with us but I feel like my heart has been torn from me.
"I love you to Edward forever. My heart is with you, babe."
"Bye honey. I will call you later."
"Ok Edward. Talk to you then."
I hung up and rolled over into his pillow and took a long sniff of it. I have to be strong. I have Sean and Natalie to take care of as well as the baby that I'm carrying. I could not let Edward not being here get me down. I had to stay strong. I could break down at night when nobody was around to see it.
With that new plan in place I got up and changed Natalie and fed her. Once that was done I had Sean take a bath and get dressed into his pj's so when we got home he would be ready for bed. The only thing I might have to do is nurse Natalie and she would be ready for bed.
Once everyone was ready I put Natalie is her seat and the belted Sean in his booster seat. I drove to the restaurant and got Natalie out and Sean grabbed the diaper bag for me. He was being such a big boy and helping out like he told his daddy he would.
I was so proud of him. I just hoped that I could stick to my thoughts about being strong and taking care of myself and the kids.
I walked through the door and the hostess greeted me. I saw Rose and Alice sitting at a table and walked over to them.
"Oh give me Natalie's carrier Bella. You should not be carrying her. If Edward was here he would have a shit fit."
"Well Alice Edward's not here and I have to do everything by myself while I have them when you guys are not here to help me. I have to adjust to taking care of them and do everything for them and take care of myself all at the same time. So please don't give me crap about it."
"Bella I will try," was all that she said.
"Alright what do you guys want to eat? Sean's going to have chicken nuggets and french fries. I think I'm going to have the rib eye steak, bake potato and a salad."
Rose and Alice both looked at me and said in unison "we want the same thing Bella that really sounds great."
I just smiled and nodded my head.
"Sean why don't you stay here with Aunt Alice and Aunt Rose while I cook dinner. It won't take me long to cook it."
"Ot mommy I will. I help with Watalie."
I kissed his head and walk into the kitchen. I put the steaks on as well as the potatoes in to cook. I tossed us each a salad. I would put Sean's stuff on once the steaks are almost done. The chicken would not take to long to cook.
Finally everything was ready and I was taking the food out to the table. I was walking and I started to slip. I braced myself for the impact of the floor. When I felt two arms wrapped around my waist and steady me on my feet.
I turned to look at who had stopped me from falling. I looked at a very muscular russet colored guy with long black hair and black colored eyes.
He looked me over like he wanted to eat me or something. His stare made me very uncomfortable. Something was definitely off about him.
"Thank you for not letting me fall."
"You are very welcome. My name is Jacob Black by the way.
He placed his hand out and I shook it.
"Bella Cullen it's nice to meet you. I must be getting back to work. Thanks again."
"Your welcome Bella. I'm sure I will be seeing you around again real soon."
This guy had something definitely wrong with him. I walked over and placed the food on the table.
"Bella that guy gives me the creeps. The way that he looked at you. It was like he wanted to make sure you were his."
"That's funny that you say that Alice because I got the same feeling like I was something to eat for him. He even said that he would be seeing me again. That even creeped me out even more."
"Just be careful Bella. I don't want to be the one to call Edward about something happening to you," Rose said.
"I will I promise. Edward would be so upset with himself if something happened to me and he was not here for me."
We ate in silence. We got done eating, Rose and Alice helped me load the kids and I drove home.
I was hoping that I would get the kids in bed and that Edward would call. I put Natalie in her bed and Sean was already in his bed when I came into his room.
"Good night Sean. Sweet dreams."
He wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed me on the cheek.
"I wove you mommy."
"I love you to my sweet boy. Get some sleep. I will see you in the morning."
I walked into my room and my mood changed from happy to sad in a matter of seconds. Edward was not in here waiting on me. He would not be for the next four months.
I striped my clothes and put his t-shirt on. I pulled the cover back and started reading a book. I was just a few pages in when my phone rang.
"Hi babe. How are you?"
"Well hi to you to honey. I'm good. How are you and the kids?"
"Doing good actually. They are both asleep. I think today has been really hard on them. When we got home from the airport, Nat looked like she was looking for you. She would look at me then back at the car. Dinner was great and now I'm home talking to you."
"I'm so sorry Bella that I left you and the kids. I wish I would have turned down the tour. I miss you guys so much."
"No Edward stop. This is something that you had to do. We will make it through this. I want you to go for your dreams. Enough of talking about that. When is your first show?'
"Tomorrow night. We only have enough songs to sing for about two hours. The concert's are going to be short until we have new pieces done. I'm kinda excited. I mean I know we played at the club but this is so different. I'm just going to think of you and the kids. I will perform better that way. I imagine you smiling at me. The smile that says you are proud of me."
"Babe I'm very proud of you. I want you to go out there tomorrow night and give it all you have."
"I will honey. I need to let you go. I have to be up early. I will call you tomorrow. Give the kids a kiss and hug from me and tell them I love them. Honey I love you so much."
"Love you too baby. I will talk to you tomorrow. Miss you as well. Bye."
"Bye Bella."
Once we hung up I rolled over to his side of the bed and sniffed his pillow and fell asleep.