Author's Note: Okay, I should stop making guesses about the amount of chapters left in the future. But knowing myself I'll make an estimate next time and it will probably turn out wrong again. *sighs* However I'm pretty sure that there will be 2 chapters left of this story. 1 chapter following The Doctor in The Runaway Bride and 1 chapter following Rose and her pregnancy. Also I am going to break the promise to myself and I'll turn this story in an AU, in The Runaway Bride. This chapter still goes along with the canon. But I know that in the canon, it's just impossible that Rose was pregnant on Doomsday, or she would've told him the truth in Journey's End. But I was planning on keeping this in canon and then a possible sequel as AU. But I changed my mind, so chapter 4 will be a partly rewrite of The Runaway Bride. Also, I'm already going to ask whether you think that I should make a sequel to this, it will start with a rewrite of the end of Journey's End and will go on from there. I don't know whether I'll just rewrite the specials and season 5 or write original stories or a combination of the 2 (probably the last one). So tell me what you think of the idea in a review ;). Now sorry for the long author's note. I know that I usually get annoyed by those myself so I hope that there are people who actually read this. If you read all of the above, you're fantastic.
Disclaimer: I do own Doctor Who... Oh wait sorry, my brain was playing a trick on me. Again. *sighs* I do not own Doctor Who.
Rose's thoughts are in Italics and The Doctor's thoughts are in italics and underlined
3. Doomsday
Rose leant against the white wall, her hand was pressed against it, she was crying. Her heart was broken."No..."
The Doctor walked slowly towards the same white wall, but in a different universe. His hearts were broken. He laid his palm against the wall, then he rested his head there, with his cheek towards the wall while he stared blankly into nothingness.
As if she sensed that he was there, Rose put her cheek against the wall, just like The Doctor had.
He was thinking about the ring in his breast pocket, the ring he would never be able to give to her, now he had lost her. He was inwardly cursing himself for putting asking her off so long. He had wanted her to know how much she mattered to him and that he wanted children with her, whether naturally or not he didn't care. But, maybe it was better that she didn't know. She would've been hurt her even more if they had been engaged.
She was thinking about the baby that she was carrying, the baby she would never be able to tell him about, now that she had lost him. She was inwardly cursing herself for putting telling him off so long. He had a right to know, she had wanted him to know that and how much he mattered to her. But, maybe it was better that he didn't know. She had a feeling that if he knew, he would've destroyed universes or something like that, just to be reunited with his child and its mother. He had told her that travelling between universes was impossible.
Of course, there was the question how much different Time Lord pregnancies from human pregnancies were.
The Doctor let his hand slide down the wall, he reasoned that it could've been worse, at least she was still alive.
Rose let her hand slide down the wall, still leaning against it, she knew that she had to tell her mum, Mickey and her dad that she was pregnant. She was afraid of her mother's reaction to that information. Especially since The Doctor and her hadn't even mentioned that they were dating to her.
The Doctor turned away from the wall and walked away from it, expressionless. But he was determined to find a way to talk to her one more time, he knew that it was possible. But first, he was going to find out wherever Torchwood had stored his TARDIS.
Rose turned away from the wall, she was still leaning on it. She figured that she could better tell them right away and get it over with. She took one last breath and went towards them. Her mother pulled her quickly into an embrace as she broke down again, sobbing in her mother's arms. She tried to regain her composure, she knew that she had to say it now, it would only hurt more if she waited any longer to say it.
"Mum..." She somehow managed to say through her tears.
"Yes, sweetheart?"
"I...I...I...I am..."
Oh, why is it so hard to say three words?
"What is it, sweetheart." Jackie encouraged her. Rose just burrowed her face in her mother's jacket.
"Pregnant." Rose finally managed, it was a bit muffled by the jacket but everyone in the room understood it and reacted in shock.
"It's his, isn't it?" Mickey asked. He knew that it was devastating for her to loose him, Mickey had glimpsed how much Rose cared for The Doctor and visa verse. But that he was the father of her unborn child would hurt her even more. Worse was the fact that since he was an alien, her child would also be part alien. An alien species of which they knew almost nothing. How were they going to raise that child?
Rose just nodded at Mickey's question.
Jackie sighed if the situation had been different she would've slapped the living thing out of that alien for getting her daughter pregnant. They hadn't even mentioned that they were dating, let alone sleeping together!
She realised that he probably didn't know that she was pregnant. The way he had acted around Rose was caring, she had to give him that. No matter how much she didn't like her daughter being around him, she had to say that he did care about her. But, he hadn't acted much different than usual, not like how she would expect him to care for his pregnant … er girlfriend? Of course, it could've been that they were trying to hide it from her until they had the guts to tell her. But she figured that he wouldn't have insisted on her going to this universe if he had known.
"Does he know?" Mickey asked her, having come to pretty much the same conclusion as Jackie had, especially since he had been spending more time with The Doctor than Jackie had and knew better how The Doctor had acted around Rose.
Rose shook her head, still sobbing in her mother's jacket.
"I...I...I was... I was going to."
"Oh, sweetheart, I'm so sorry. We'll figure it out." Jackie planted a kiss on Rose's forehead.
"Let's go to my house, take some rest and we'll figure out what to do next tomorrow, okay?" Pete asked and both Mickey and Jackie nodded in agreement as they turned and led Rose out of the building and towards the Tyler mansion.
Rose and her family drove up on the beach. They parked and went out of the jeep.
"If he's here, if you can speak to him. Will you tell him?" Mickey asked her, it had been three months since the battle of Canary Wharf, which meant that Rose was about four months gone, the doctors they had visited (all of them from Torchwood, since it was an alien baby.) had told them that if they hadn't known better, they would've thought that she would've been just over a month gone. They hadn't worried too much about this and figured that it was because Time Lord babies didn't develop as fast as human babies would.
Rose sighed. "I don't know. I've been thinking about it, but I just can't decide what's best."
Jackie nodded at this. "Just remember that whether you tell him or not we're here for you." She squeezed Rose's shoulder in comfort.
"No matter what." Mickey added and Pete nodded in agreement. Despite the fact that they were now officially broken up he was still her friend and he wouldn't leave her alone to deal with that baby.
Rose walked away from them further on the beach, she was nervous. What would she say to him? Despite the fact that she had been working on her 'speech' for months now, she had no clue.
The Doctor leant on the console, the TARDIS was spinning around a supernova. He had everything in place to open up the gap in the universe and talk to Rose. But what was he going to say?
I wanted to propose to you, I just wanted you to know so your heart can break even more than it already is?
He finally decided to just do it, that he would make it up as he went along, something he always had been good at. He took a deep breath and opened the hole. One half of the TARDIS was beach and the other half was still normal. He saw Rose standing there, he saw some sort of beach.
Rose turned and saw The Doctor.
"Where are you?"
"Inside the TARDIS." his voice echoed
"There's one tiny little gap in the universe left, just about to close." He rambled a bit to avoid the real goodbye a bit, despite the fact that he knew that it wouldn't work. "And it takes a lot of power to send this projection, I'm in orbit around a supernova. I'm burning up a sun just to say goodbye." He finished with a small smile.
"You look like a ghost." Rose was shaking her head a bit, it was just weird to see him like that, so unreal.
"Hold on." He pulled out his sonic screwdriver and aimed it at something invisible, Rose assumed it was the console, and activated it. Soon the hologram became much clearer and he looked solid. Rose walked over to him and raised her hand to touch his cheek.
"Can I t...?"
"I'm still just an image. No touch." He answered regretfully, he would've given anything to be able to just hug her, snog her like it was the only thing keeping him alive. No matter that Jackie was standing there and would see them. He would gladly take a slap to do just that.
"Can't you come through properly?"
Of course I can't, other wise I would've done that instead of this stupid projection!
"The whole thing would fracture. Two universes would collapse."
"So?" She asked half joking. He smiled at that. They looked at each other for a moment both thinking.
The Doctor had finally decided that he wouldn't tell Rose about the ring that was still in his breast pocket, that he had wanted. Still wanted! to marry her and have children with her.
Rose, however, was still torn between telling him and not telling him. He had a right to know, but what would he do if he knew, would he actually make two universes collapse to be with his child. She knew him, but she wasn't sure whether he would do something like that or not.
The Doctor looked around. Looking for something to talk about, which didn't involve a goodbye.
"Where are we? Where did the gap come out?"
"We're in Norway."
"Norway. Right." He nodded.
"About fifty miles out of Bergen. It's called 'Darlig Ulv Stranden'."
"Dalek?" He asked surprised.
"Darl-ig." She corrected, "It's Norwegian for 'bad' ."
The Doctor stared at her.
"This translates as 'Bad Wolf Bay'." They both laughed at the irony of that, but sober almost immediately.
Rose took a breath.
"How long have we got?" Her voice cracked.
"About two minutes..."
She almost laughed at how absurd the situation is. "I can't think of what to say."
Or better, whether I should tell you that I'm caring your child.
The Doctor laughs too. Then he glances over at Jackie, Pete and Mickey.
"You've still got Mr Mickey then?"
well, here goes nothing.
"There's five of us now. Mum, dad, Mickey..." She hesitated a tiny bit, "and the baby."
WHAT!
"You're not...?" He looked shocked and the look in his eyes told Rose that he would indeed destroy two universes if she said yes. So she shook her head slowly and said.
"No." She laughed, "It's mum."
The Doctor laughed with fake relief and looked over at Jackie. He knew Rose and he had the dreadful feeling that she was lying to him, but he wasn't going to say that. If she was pregnant he would rip the universes apart just to be with her and his, no their child. He figured that would be the reason Rose lied, so he wouldn't do that. He silently promised himself that once the conversation was over he would look up Rose's medical record in the TARDIS and find out the truth.
The TARDIS scanned her passengers including him, for deadly diseases every time they walked inside the TARDIS, well she scanned everything but it would only give an alarm if it was deadly. He never understood why it didn't give an alarm if there was just something wrong (like a cold or something) as well since she did scan everything. But that didn't matter now, he could look up whether she was pregnant or not when they went into the TARDIS on their way to Torchwood.
But he promised himself, that if he would learn that she was indeed lying to him about the fact that she wasn't pregnant, that he wouldn't go rip the universes apart. She wouldn't want that, she made that clear with lying to him now.
"She's three months gone. More Tylers on the way."
"And what about you? Are you...?"
"Yeah, I'm... I'm back working in the shop."
He nodded
"Oh, good for you."
Rose laughed. "Shut up. No, I'm not. There's still a Torchwood on this planet, it open for business." She could feel the tears burning in her eyes. "I think I know a thing or two about aliens."
"Rose Tyler. Defender of the Earth." He says proudly.
They looked at each other for another moment. The Doctor was still thinking about the possibility that she was pregnant but didn't show it, nor did he look down at her stomach. He knew that if she indeed was pregnant of him, she wouldn't show yet since Gallifreyan pregnancies lasted a little over 2 years, 27 months if he was exactly. And the Gallifreyan DNA would be dominant so it would be closer to a Gallifreyan pregnancy then a human pregnancy. Not that they differed much besides the length. But she was pregnant for about 3 months, 4 months max., at least if what she told about her mother went for her.
"You're dead, officially, back home. So many people died that day and you've gone missing. You're on a list of the dead."
He saw that Rose started to cry. And could feel his hearts breaking at the sight. He tried to cheer her up.
"Here you are." He smiled "Living a life day after day. The one adventure I can never have."
"Am I ever gonna see you again?" She was sobbing now.
"You can't." He answered quietly. He wished that it wasn't true, but he knew the facts.
"What're you gonna do?"
"Oh, I've got the TARDIS. Same old life. Last of the Time Lords."
"On your own?"
He nodded solemnly, he looked at her.
"I lo..." She choked on her tears. "I love you."
"Quite right, too." He said softly.
Rose nodded, smiling through her tears.
"And I suppose... if it's one last chance to say it..."
He paused and locked his eyes with hers.
"Rose Tyler I..."
But he faded away before he could finish his sentence. Rose sobbed even more and put her face in her hands. She turned to her mother, who came running towards her and pulled her into an embrace.
"Did you tell him?"
"No, I mentioned a baby but I told him it was yours." Jackie nodded, understanding.
She was gone and he hadn't been able to say that he loved her. Of course she knew it, but he had never actually told her so. He was crying, his hearts broken. He swallowed hard and closed his eyes. He felt like going to Rose's/their bed and sob until he had no tears left, but he decided that he wanted to know whether she had been lying to him or not, before he would allow himself to break down, otherwise he would probably break down twice. So he dried his tears and walked around the console, getting the TARDIS to fly away from the supernova and after that, he would look up Rose's medical record.
Suddenly he looked up, his eyes widened with shock. There was a bride standing by the door, with her back to him.
"What?" He exclaimed confounded.
The bride turned towards him and yelped with surprise.
"What?!"He proclaimed confused.
"Who are you?" The bride exclaimed disdainfully.
The Doctor looked around, dumbfounded. "But..."
What the hell is this place?" she yelled.
"What?!"